Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hey shue!!!

Stop posting at the same time as me

Greek Isles... sounds horrible... Maybe I should go instead of you and let you know how aweful it actually was.

talk soon!
E

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Enough , I love you, girl !!!

Guess what?

I am going on holiday and I am taking my liver with me. I reckon it could use a good break.

[Turnagain]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Nice to meet you Snap and welcome, JennieLondon...

You may want to file this under the category of unsolicited advice, JL, but here goes: L-Glutamine goes a long way in easy the cravings for alcohol (which your body reads as liquid sugar) I use the powdered form which hits the blood stream quickly. This amino acid will ease most of your sugar cravings AND helps to heal you stomach lining which has been damaged by alcohol.

Battling one demon is hard enough....sweet warrior. Congrats on Day 10...you are healing everyday....Keep at it!

Snap...Congratulations on your wedding. You sound happy and full of joy. Sounds like you're determined to get more AF time - you won't regret it.

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Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Slipped a bit...

:teeter:Finishing a mixed bag kind of day. Had a huge... successful day at work which led to Champagne being popped for a big new client and my team. The first glass... I have to admit tasted terrific... the second felt terribly guilty... and am happy to report no third (left some in the bottle which was unheard of not too long ago).

My "tolerence" is also back to that of a normal human being. I could drink glass after glass with absolutley no effect- until a bottle plus was gone ... along with my senses.

AF tomorrow. As shue mentioned somewhere... it's nice that my "stop at two button" worked

How is everyone else????

Enough!

[cailin]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi Enough, I'm a 'new nestie' but I'm just checking in here also. At least you did stop and didn't go home and let the guilt take over and drink more, that would be my kinda thing to do, and the fact you slipped - just makes the newies like me realise all of you are human also and don't beat ourselves too much, baby steps, baby steps.

[mby82266]

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Enough, thank god your stop at 2 button worked! Glad to hear everything at work is going so well.
I am done hating my husband today. I had to stop and put it in perspective. I have one of the best husbands in the world 362 days a year. He screws up 3 times a year. my birthday, Christmas and our anniversary. I would rather have his love and support every day than one of those guys who gives great gifts but is never around when you need him.
I hope everyone has a great AF day!!!

[WineNoMore]

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Today is the day. I am done allowing alcohol to control (ruin) my life. I have been reading all of your stories and bawling my eyes out because they are so similar to my own. My children and my husband deserve better from me. *I* deserve better from me. Today is the day. I can't tell you all how thankful I am to have stumbled upon your forums this morning. My husband is working from home today and heard me crying and I showed him some of the posts - when I told him that's how I feel too, he was surprised. He had no idea how much this has been hurting me, how torn apart my life has become on the inside, because I do such a good job making it look great on the outside. NO MORE WINE. I'm done!

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all,

Had one small glass of wine at lunch with some business partners. Weird, since I posted on MWO just before leaving, and since I have not touched wine since July. Then a flash bulb lit in my head ?could this be PMS coming early?? ? BIG BIG trigger of mine. Despite closing a super- deal with the guys I was feeling low and foggy - not my usual cheery self.

I stopped drinking altogether, checked my calendar, sure enough I am PMSing earlier and earlier these days. I called my holistic doctor and he?s given me supplements. I?ll get through it without the usual self medicating wine bender.

Last month ( while on holiday and PMS ) I got drunk on G&T at my hubby?s birthday.

One day a time, one trigger at a time. I have 2 other big triggers to work out how to dodge:
1. holiday (coming next week)
2. work anxiety (never know when it hits)

Any advice is welcomed

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

WineNoMore;1168115 wrote: Today is the day. I am done allowing alcohol to control (ruin) my life. I have been reading all of your stories and bawling my eyes out because they are so similar to my own. My children and my husband deserve better from me. *I* deserve better from me. Today is the day. I can't tell you all how thankful I am to have stumbled upon your forums this morning. My husband is working from home today and heard me crying and I showed him some of the posts - when I told him that's how I feel too, he was surprised. He had no idea how much this has been hurting me, how torn apart my life has become on the inside, because I do such a good job making it look great on the outside. NO MORE WINE. I'm done!

You are a brave woman opening up like that to your hubby. And smart too, since it will be a lot easier to stay AF with his support.

Welcome aboard, we're here for you

[Enough!]

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Good morning all!

Wine no more... First congrats on your first post! It is by far the most difficult one and lifechanging. I balled my eyes out to my husband Reading the early posts I wrote my first week too. It is great to get a spouses support and understanding. It's amazing how clueless they sometimes are to how we feel and how desperate we are for help. Again... Great job and welcome.

To be continued...

E

[Enough!]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Cailin- glad you stopped by. Yes, I am happy to have stopped as well. I have to admit while driving home ( slightly buzzed I might add ) the wine voice did pop in my head saying... Hey stop and get a bottle... It's okay... You deserve it! I shut it down.

Mb... I wished I liked my hubby 362! Mine also sometimes makes a mess of those same important 3 days. Also makes it up by being wonderful for no reason.

Shue- happy your "stop" button worked

AF must today- no exceptions!!!

Talk soon

Enough!

[timetochangeforme]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Wow, thank you for this link. I have been reading for a while. I am also a mom addicted to wine. Don't really like anything else anymore, used to drink beer or mixed drinks but don't really like them any more, don't really like white wine, but the red goes down really easy. I didn't drink for 6 nights last week then bought some on Saturday enough to last until Monday. Didn't drink Tues but then bought some last night. I hate how I feel. I didn't realize it, I guess I get used to being hungover. I don't like how I feel today. I poured what was left down the drain but I know how I will feel around 4 or 5 that it's somehow ok to go get more. The fact that I poured this out should help. I usually would justify buying a "small" bpttle with what was left and then "I will start tomorrow" which will be Friday and well, I will just start on Monday (or Tuesday).

Anyway, I am going to keep reading this link posted by Shueaddict, I think this would be relevant to everyone here if you didn't follow it. I have most of these supplements

http://intelligentalcoholmanagement....d-gersten-m-d/

"You can now stop blaming yourself, your parents, or anyone else. Understand that alcohol, acetaldehyde and THIQs destroy neurotransmitters, trick neurotransmitter sites, and create a huge craving for alcohol because alcohol mimics the neurotransmitters that it destroys and displaces from receptor sites. When you begin to rebuild and restore neurotransmitters in a healthy way, much will change in your life for the better."

[WineNoMore]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Well, I made it through my first night in a very long time without having wine. As expected, I had horrible anxiety and could NOT fall asleep. I took melatonin but I just don't think that works for me, I've tried it in the past and it didn't work either but I was hoping this time might be different. Oh well, I just tried to push all my anxious thoughts away and ALMOST fell asleep when the weather got crazy and we had to go into the basement. After that, even more difficulty falling asleep. I think the last time I looked at the clock was around 4:30am. Woke up in a puddle of sweat - not sure if it's age or withdrawal related LOL.. I'm up early to take my kids to school but I think I might nap when I get back.

Wish me luck on day 2. I can do this. I am ready. Oh, and I have ZERO feelings of dread/self-loathing/guilt this morning. What a difference!

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Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Time... Welcome! Yes " I will start tommorrow" is a lot easier then starting TODAY. Great job making today the day.

Wine... Congrats on making it through day 1! Sleep will slowly get better in the next few days. We have all had sleepless nights and the sweats.

Quick story on sleep... Before I started this journey to sober... Occasionally ( very occasionally ) I tried drinking calm tea ( no caffine) at night instead of going to bed with my glass of wine. Yes, because it is perfectly normal to have a glass of red on your nightstand at 11pm instead of water... WTF!

Anyway with the tea I swore it was keeping me up because unbeknownst to me my body was withdrawing from the last few glasses of wine I was used too. Ahhhrrr!

So, yesterday same old crap afterwork... trying to get dinner on the table before bedtime... Yelling at son to complete hw after getting call from school... School year just started last week. Started to fall off the edge... Opened the liquor cabinet and had a staring contest with a bottle of tequila.

Knew better but made a margarita ( not virgin ). Had a staring contest with the glass. The glass won. Had a few sips. Went to the sink. Didn't spill it out. Went outside. Had another sip and staring contest. Was repulsed with my lack of will and poured it down the drain.

Made tea that consequently did not keep me awake. Fell asleep right away.

I am bigger then a glass! The end!


Enough
not thrilled with myself , not disappointed either. It is a journey.

[timetochangeforme]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

I know that is when it is sometimes the most challenging. My son had 3 punches in his "warrior card" in one day yesterday which is not a good thing. Trying to get an explanation out of him was another challenge.

That is great that you didn't finish the drink!