Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[Reenie]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Day 1! Looking forward to getting more days AF under my belt. My heart is racing, I'm dizzy and have the sweats. I don't want to abuse myself anymore. This disease has taken a good person down. I don't like what I've become.

[daisy45]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Reenie, I know just how you feel. You 'know' you will feel differently when you get even a couple of AF days. And, you are still a good person, just lost your way. Seen a few of your posts on other threads. Don't beat yourself up; that will only keep you in that vicious circle....
Keep posting and reading; you're on board with the rest of us here; let's make those changes and go for it!!!!!!!!!

[Reenie]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Thanks daisy45! I'm glad I logged back onto MWO. The support is tremendous.

[Queenbug]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Shue...Juja...Enough...Daisy...Reenie et al....here we are...in it...but we will win it : ))....glad/sad to be back...xxx

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Ups and downs

hi guys,

My weekend started on Thursday (bank holiday, thank God for them). Fought the urge to drink with a 3 hour hike + more TLC to my flowers. I also cooked a storm - without drink in hand.

But yesterday i blew it. For lunch I steamed mussles in white wine (deliberately bought a cheap one, but turned out it was quite good) ... ended up finishing the bottle ... and more of hubby's bottle. Just one taste ... then lights out ... fell asleep on the coach at 9PM.

Do not remember making soup in the evening, sex with hubby or going up to bed ... but my kitchen was spotless this morning :-)))

This morning I tried to throw up in order to get better - no succees.

Well, dust myself off, going hiking again with son and dog ... Try hard not to repeat this.

One thing I would say is that yesterday I had no internet at home or bberry so I could not check in MWO. I find it harder to stay strong when I don't check in ...

Love you all, :thanks:

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Ups and downs

hi guys,

My weekend started on Thursday (bank holiday, thank God for them). Fought the urge to drink with a 3 hour hike + more TLC to my flowers. I also cooked a storm - without drink in hand.

But yesterday i blew it. For lunch I steamed mussles in white wine (deliberately bought a cheap one, but turned out it was quite good) ... ended up finishing the bottle ... and more of hubby's bottle. Just one taste ... then lights out ... fell asleep on the coach at 9PM.

Do not remember making soup in the evening, sex with hubby or going up to bed ... but my kitchen was spotless this morning :-)))

This morning I tried to throw up in order to get better - no succees.

Well, dust myself off, going hiking again with son and dog ... Try hard not to repeat last night.

One thing I would say is that yesterday I had no internet at home or on the bberry so I could not check in MWO. I find it harder to stay strong when I don't check in ...

Love you all, :thanks:

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Queen bug ... how are you ??? haven't heard from you for some time

Booozer, I read one of your posts working with abused kids, I am in awe of you ... I don't know how you deal with the pain ... I contribute to an orphanage here - financially - but I cannot really bring myself to go and see the kids. It breaks my heart just to think of them. My hubby goes and plays rugby with them and he comes back broken ... I guess part of it is the fact that I have been trying to have another kid for over 5 years now and it pains me how other people just abandon theirs

Enough, how are you sweetie?

Juja, distract yourself if you can, I find it that if I keep busy I fare better

Daisy, Rennie - nice to see more people here , would love to hear your stories

[Juja]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Queen--so glad you're back; I was worried, and I've missed you.:l

Shue, Enough, Reenie, Daisy, Enough, Boozer--I'm thinking about you all, and will wish you strength all day today.

I wish it would stop raining here so I could do something outside. It's been pouring all morning, and we get no break until Wednesday. I want to start walking again. I fnd I'm much stronger and happier when I'm with nature and active.

On a lighter note: I saw on cnn.com this a.m. that a size 12 is considered a plus size! Jeez, when did that happen? Do we all have to be AF AND a size 4 to be considered perfect? Ridiculous, except for the AF part. Oh well, my big hips still get me where I need to go.:H

Love to you all :lipstick:

[gingerspice]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi all back again,
Some bad and good days - always regret the bad ones and the headaches.
My heart goes out to you enough , i feel like i can never beat the viscious cycle im in , and the stupid thing is that i really dont enjoy drinking wine anymore which makes no sense why i do. I know now that the only way i can have peace is to stop forever - but i just wish that i could tell that stupid voice in my head to shut up and leave me alone ,
Thinking about you all , and pray that there is a way out for all of us .(brain Transplant for me !!) xx

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hey gang,

How's it going?

Last night I managed AF home alone - hooray - but something must be said about the lack of white wine in any of my 3 fridges. In the drinks cabinet I have cleaned up anything that was not whiskey long ago and I haven't replaced any since.

Today I go to a party for the launch of Calvin Klein here - I was so dissapointed yesterday when I tried on 10 designer dresses and I do not fit propertly in any of them. The only thing that fits is a gorgeous pair of Louboutins ( big bonus, big splurge).

Juja, I have big hips too, and I am only 35 in a country where most women survive on cigarettes, coffee and excercise by pushing green lettuce from one side of the plate to the other. Everyone here is a size 2 but could not run the length of themselves. Like you said, these big hips get me up the mountain.

Ginger, I think am slowly but surely on the way to abstinence, no quick fix here - for now I just focus on adding as AF much time as possible. That damned voice talks to me every day and tempts me to drink. On a regular basis now I tell it to S.T.F.U.

stay strong, team ... will post later - hopefully not from the CK toilets telling you just how much I want to drink

[daisy45]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Juja and Shueaddict, celebrate your backsides!!! I Would love to have an arse! I lost weight and mine disappeared. Used to be embarrassed going to pool because I was so fat, now it's my flat, saggy butt. Even when heavier, my weight goes on in the middle. Flat backsides run in our family so unless I do bodysculpting or something.............duhh!
So celebrate.....

[Juja]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Shue and Twinkle--I have decided that I'm not going to worry about my body or size anymore. Granted, I need to exercise and take better care of it, which I plan to do, but I am who I am. We all know plenty of people who are unattractive, yet we love them with all our hearts simply for who they are, and don't notice their outward appearances. Our bodies are only the shells for who we are.

Shue--My MIL is one of those people who pushes lettuce around on her plate. I tell her that if she loses anymore weight, I'm going to fill her with tomato juice and use her for a thermometer.


Love to all, regardless of your imperfections.

Juja :lipstick:

[Snapdragon]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Morning everyone - great to see so many new faces here!!

I've been travelling around over the last week and a half and finally home exhausted.

I was interested to read about all of your body images (too fat, flat backside etc) and wonder why we beat ourselves up about how we look when we are literally poisoning ourselves with alcohol?

I used to be pretty attractive, but looked at myself in the mirror yesterday morning (after a week of over indulging on wine whilst away on business) and the face that stared back at me had puffy eyes with dark rings under, spots all over my cheeks (I've never had spots on my cheeks before) and my hair looks limp and lank. I've always been slim, but now have a fat tyre around my waist (probably from my liver protesting!).

What a wake up call!!

Anyway, I've decided to have another serious go at being AF. I was looking around the MWO site yesterday trying to find out info on L-Glut (how much to take etc) and came across this really interesting article that someone posted DoctorYourself.com - Alcoholism

Basically it is saying that taking L-Glut and high doses of Vitamin C and Vitamin B can dramatically reduce alcohol cravings. So yesterday I've brought lots and plan to try this route. So far so good. Day two - no cravings last night. Slept like a baby for the first time in months. Felt a craving this morning, but took a high dose Vitamin C tablet, Multi Vitamin B tablet, a general Mulit-vitamin and an L-Glut and the thought of AL has completely gone.

Thanks to you Shue for keeping up the momentum on this thread - how are you Enough? You were the inspiration to get us all started here!! :thanks:

Snap X

[noxy]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hello again to all of you old and new >>> I know that I have been gone for ages ! I started this journey on the 12 July 2011 and I lasted until the 13 September AF !! I thought it was time to moderate!!!!! I started with a glass of the best red , managed just that ! The weekend that followed was a food and wine orgy !!!! I have not really looked back !! Decided that I am back on track as of today and well have just swam my butt off in an attempt to rid my body of some of those bloody toxins ... So glad to read that you are all still trying so hard and not giving up !!! I have to say that I could not function very well on the topamax 200mg I had really bad side effects , my brain just refused to work !!!! I know that these meds work but hell man , whew , talk about stupid !!! What I experienced was scary ! I am gonna do it this time with the supplements only . Shue and E Keep on posting my dolls >>> Hang in there !! LOVE to all from noxy

[shueaddict]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hi gang,

Bad news - I had 2 glasses of wine last night ( and no food , bad combo ... I actually woke up at 4AM with bad thoughts then slept badly)- At the actual event I walked around for 1 hour holding a glass of champers that I did not drink - but while keeping my friend company while she dined I gave in.

good news - I only had 2, arrived home and did not open the next available bottle

Noxy - congrats making it so far!!! We're on the same timzone, albeit different continents, good luck with the supplements, I am taking them too.

Snap - so happy you are back here, stick with us, girl!!! How was Germany? Beerfest ? I avoided my Austrian wine tour only to blow it at home later ... my favorite drinking grounds.

About the body issue ... yes, it's daft ... many times I told myself "You would not eat a whole bar of chocolate, yet you drink a bottle of wine ? Same calories". I now accept that that lack of logic is part of the disease.

I made staying AF a priority and despite being far from "cured" my understanding of AL and how it works has come a long way. I am now tackling my weight ... I want my body back, I had nice curves and a very toned body. It will take 6 months to a year of dedication to reach that goal ... oh ... and AL has no place in it.

I am sure I will have more slip ups but I just want to focus on making drinking an absolute exceptional occurence. I used to drink EVERY day. I find it hard to assume this identity of "non drinker", I think I need more time practicing.

keep strong everyone !!!