Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

[aerojef]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Lola, don't even think of moderation for a while. My goal is abstinence, and maybe try a glass of wine (supervised of course) at Thanksgiving and see how I do.

I would give it 3 months at least before you try any sips at all.

Day 5, we're making progress!

[Last Straw]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

First Time Posting

Hello!
I have been to this site many times but never posting anything. I have all the MWO materials, took all the supplements (even when I was drinking). We moved in January and I can't find my tapes, so I thought, I don't have to quit now, too much going on. HA! I keep doing the same thing, expecting different results, INSANITY! I will have to dig through the entire storage unit to find these tapes, but I NEED to do it. My husband is fed up with me, I'm going through menopause, that doesn't help when your hormones are raging and then you drink a twelve pack on top of it. No wonder things get a little emotional! These two things don't mix! I am trying day 1 today! I have been sober before for six years and they were the best days of my life. Good luck everyone, it is possible.

[Lola01]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Welcome straw. I just posted for the first time 4 days ago so you're in good company and youll find lots of support here. Lots of newbies with great advice. Ive been leaning on these great peopel quite heavily over the last few days...thanks all!
Pat...got ya...no worries..ODAT makes good sense. Thanks aero for the push against moderation, I know it's a bad idea. Just needed to hear it said again. Sun is shining and I have lots of energy today...great night sleeping...phew...have a great day all!

[aerojef]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Home from a busy day at work, and about to grill some chicken for a Caesar salad for dinner. Had a big craving on the way home tonight, but slammed two chews of Glut and took my emergency Kudzu pill and got over it. (Hint - keep some emergency supps in your car, or purse for you ladies). I have my club soda with lime, and made it through day 5!

Two more days to my first goal.

[Lola01]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Good for you aero. So kudzu works that fast really? Good to know. We are all getting close to week one...a major milestone indeed. I had a major craving last might while cooking..a favorite wine time for me. I hopped on the elliptical for 15 minutes and slammed some sweet lemonade. Did the trick! Woohoo..feel great this am!!!

[aerojef]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Awesome Lola! To answer your question, I don't really know if it works that fast. Might have been the Glutamine - who knows, but why take chances? Whatever works, works......

I hear you about your craving. I enjoy a glass of wine while cooking also. Grilling a steak tonight while the wife is at school - I can see a challenge coming!

[Lola01]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Yes..whatever works. I need to stay busy for sure. Whenever I rest I feel like its THAT TIME! Need to figure out how to relax. Have fallen back to cigarettes. Had 4 today..ugh..it was all I could do to stay sane. Maybe meditation? Yikes...that is so not me...who am I? Identity is a challenge these last couple days..maybe that is growth in disguise...thanks for all the support here all. This definitely helps. Pretty sure I would have had a few by now if not for you all. Still have thoughts of moderation....I'll keep you posted. Congrats aero...you're cruisin to the week mark..will be ther before you know it!!

[aerojef]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Lol, almost... I had a major craving a little while ago. Strongest one since I went AF. I came really close to caving in, but urge-surfed my way through it. Whew, that was close! But at least I can go to bed tonight with my integrity intact. Don't know what brought it on, but I took a gram of Glutamine and that seemed to help. Still have noodles of AF thoughts in my head, but they won't get the best of me.

Day 5 coming to a close soon....

[Lola01]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

This thread got quiet....((((insert cricket sounds here)))). So maybe I'll only need to confess to you aero. So I caved last night. Had one bottle left over from the good ole days (meaning five days ago) and I polished it off after everyone went to sleep. Thought I could maybe have just one glass. Then went to bed and had a dream that my husband and Charleze Theron and some cute guy i kmew in college went on holiday together. I got drunk in the bahamas and everyone got mad at me. I spent the night trying to make amends with all. We don't need Freud for this one (although why Charleze??).
Damn it. I was feeling so good. Hi day one!!! I'm going to try to focus on the positive. Here it is...now there is no more vino in the house. I really don't think I would have driven to buy any last night. In fact, I know I wouldn't have...I'm going to have to be smarter about this...ok..hi wagon, have we met??
Congrats aero...you're my hero!!
Heavy sigh,
L

[aerojef]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

No worries mate, you'll make it. From reading the rest of the forum, it takes a small setback to remind us about what is really important, and why we quit AH to begin with. As to why Charleze, do you find her attractive? Maybe a subconscious thing about your husband leaving you for a movie star? You're fine, and you'll be OK. I think your bottle last night reinforced why you're doing this, and now I bet you have the strength.

Oh, and my wife gave me a congratulations card this morning for making it to day 7! I think as long as I don't give in (even once) things around here will be OK. I hope.....

Woot! First goal reached, now on to bigger and better. And I'll stay with you Lola - you're right, it did get very quiet. Dunno? :huh:

[LibraryGirl]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hey aero and Lola. Day 32 for me. I caved a few times after my first quit, after 39 days. I had to see if I could mod. I never found out for sure, because I quit again, but I did mod the few times I drank. What I knew deep down, however, is that I'd be right back drinking every night if I let it continue. Here's to staying AF no matter what!!

[Lola01]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Hello day 2. Feeling strong again. Nice wife you've got aero. That was most thoughtful of her. Thanks library girl also for chiming in. I check this thread everyday for encouragement and was grateful for your sentiments. I'll keep you posted. Have a busy day planned which bodes me well..hoping you have a happy and succesful Friday!
L

[aerojef]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Thanks, we've been having marital issues because of the drinking. I'm still banished to the couch for another 3 weeks, and she'll reevaluate whether I can come back to bed. The relationship is drastically improving however, so it might not take that long.

Day 8 and feeling gr8! (bad rhyme, sorry) lol

[Destiniey]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Aero....congrats on day 8....that is awesome! It's also so nice that your wife acknowledged your strong efforts with a card!!!! I think if things keep going this good am sure you'll be off the couch in no time!!!!!!

Lola....sorry to hear that you caved...now that there is no vino in the house hopefully it will be easier for you. Then again..who the hell am I to give advice when I caved too and am back on day 3. Grrrrrr Anywho..I am back and stronger and have done some serious soul searching these last few days. I have been reading the Allen Carr book, talking my supplements, listening to meditation Cd's (I did that when I quit smoking 2 years ago and it worked) and aromatherapy..also worked when I quit smoking. So that's the news here from sunny NC. Day 3 is almost done....onward and upward to my next goal.

[Lola01]

Conquoring day 1!!! Who's beating this with me?

Thanks dest..well, you are still a mentor to me so dont undervalue the positive Influence you have had on me and countless others around this place I'm sure. I concur with dest...aero, suspect youll be off the couch in no time. I'm falling back on smokes and I hate that but we are talking about 2-4...ok..maybe 6 a day depending on the day. There seems to be something for me about needing to ritually engage In a long-term suicidal approach to living (an oxymoron...sure!). I feel like there is something self destructive in my genetic make up. But maybe that is just hiw alcoholocs come to feel after they have put themselves thru severe and unnecessary punishment and endure it again and again and again.,.

oh...I love the Carr book although it just does boil down to will power...but maybe that's right for some...so hard to tell...
Have a good night all...
L