Wow I love this site! I get gitty turning on my laptop in the moring reading new and old threads to start my day. Who knew that something so simple can be so powerful
I woke up early today to finish washing clothes for a fishing trip. Kids are going to stay the night at their grandparents. I have not had a night away from my kids in over a year! This is a treat for abstaining. Not only for me but my man as well and finaly I am up to do something with him out of town, not sink away in my misery with bottles resenting him for never doing anything together.
Saturdays I would normaly (normal for me) be too hungover to move. Sick to my stomach, completly dizzy, high anxiety and wouldn't be able to drive until the next day. I'd repeat in my head "It's ok, I'm just hungover, I'm not going to die" as I wouldn't be able to catch my breath and have panic attack episodes all damn day long and waiting to drink that evening.
There have been those days that I'd have the thought a beer would be really nice right now. Weather is perfect, out doing lawn work, fire pit burning brush, kids running around playing after the house was completly cleaned. I believe I even said it out loud to myself just yesterday. Not regreting this morning that's is for sure. And guess who enjoyed my company... my whole family.
Now I'm putting all the energy and planning into not drinking rather then the careful planning of when I would be drinking. Before would be buy an 18 pack plus an extra 12 pack to hide away, or bottle of vodka 'just in case' and buy an extra pack of smokes since I turn into a chain smoker after a couple drinks. How myself at 120lbs could even handle 20+ drinks in a night is a miracle. What havoc I put on my body!
So here's my update and 2 week mark. It was a very long 2 weeks and at the same time felt like it flew by. Here's to another 2 weeks that turns into months
Turn Around
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