This Momma is 2 weeks AF :)

[Turn Around]

Hi everyone~

Wow I love this site! I get gitty turning on my laptop in the moring reading new and old threads to start my day. Who knew that something so simple can be so powerful

I woke up early today to finish washing clothes for a fishing trip. Kids are going to stay the night at their grandparents. I have not had a night away from my kids in over a year! This is a treat for abstaining. Not only for me but my man as well and finaly I am up to do something with him out of town, not sink away in my misery with bottles resenting him for never doing anything together.

Saturdays I would normaly (normal for me) be too hungover to move. Sick to my stomach, completly dizzy, high anxiety and wouldn't be able to drive until the next day. I'd repeat in my head "It's ok, I'm just hungover, I'm not going to die" as I wouldn't be able to catch my breath and have panic attack episodes all damn day long and waiting to drink that evening.

There have been those days that I'd have the thought a beer would be really nice right now. Weather is perfect, out doing lawn work, fire pit burning brush, kids running around playing after the house was completly cleaned. I believe I even said it out loud to myself just yesterday. Not regreting this morning that's is for sure. And guess who enjoyed my company... my whole family.

Now I'm putting all the energy and planning into not drinking rather then the careful planning of when I would be drinking. Before would be buy an 18 pack plus an extra 12 pack to hide away, or bottle of vodka 'just in case' and buy an extra pack of smokes since I turn into a chain smoker after a couple drinks. How myself at 120lbs could even handle 20+ drinks in a night is a miracle. What havoc I put on my body!

So here's my update and 2 week mark. It was a very long 2 weeks and at the same time felt like it flew by. Here's to another 2 weeks that turns into months

Turn Around

[Queenbug]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

WELL DONE!!! I'm full of admiration! Almost at Day 7 here...2 weeks is AWESOME! ...you should be very proud. x

[mario]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

Well done turnaround, 2 weeeks is great,keep moving forward as this monster can be beaten, you to queenbug.keep posting & reading & sharing your thoughts as we can all relate to what you are going through.

[techie]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

awesome job turnaround. it keeps getting better and better!

[not tonight]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

Congratulations, and keep going!

[Lavande]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

CONGRATS on your 2 AF weeks Turn Around!
You sound very happy now stay that way

Lav

[greeneyes]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

Great job! Keep it up!

[Hypernova]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

Way to go, I can hear your happiness emanating from my screen. It is truly wonderful how quickly things can turn around once you make the decision. I also am 2 weeks AF today. Keep it up and enjoy life. What a pleasure it is to wake up without anxiety for me. Just don't know why we live in a self imposed prison when all we have to do is say no.
Take care and stay free. :goodjob:

[mylife]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

Good job Turnaround!! You can do this!

[life...take2]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

what an inspirational post!

I'm so happy that you hit the 2 week mark. It is great that you are AF and you sound like you are becoming "emotionally sober" which is the real goal for all of us.

peace and prayers to you!

[jessie]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

Congratulations Turnaround - I also wish I knew what the reason was that we purposefully self destruct with alcohol. Your story is inspiring. I know it can be done.

[Doggygirl]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

Congratulations Turn Around!!! 2 Weeks is awesome - you are on your way! I can really relate to what you said about time now spent planning "not drinking" compared to previous time spent planning to drink. Before I stopped, I spent an ENORMOUS amount of time planning to drink, planning how I would hide how much I was drinking, figuring out how ealry in the day I could have an excuse to get started, planning to make sure I had enough booze on hand, etc. etc. I'm tired just thinking about it. The time I invest in keeping my head on straight with sobriety is MUCH better spent!

Rock on!!!! You can do it!

DG

[Clover]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

Turnaround, how inspiring! Your description of how you spent Saturdays sounds exactly like how I spent mine. And I become a chain smoker when I drink, too. And I'm also a small woman who cannot even imagine how I could put away 1-2 bottles of wine in a night. I feel a bit sick just thinking about it. I'm on Day 9 and feeling so good, so grateful. I'm a mama, too, but my kiddies are quite a bit older. Your baby is beautiful and looks very happy and healthy! What a gift you are giving your children. Congratulations!!

[FlyAway]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

Congratulations! Remember that these good feelings are better than the buzz you get with a night of drinking.

[Foamfollower]

This Momma is 2 weeks AF

A small note to add my congratulations too Turnaround. With every posting I read on MWO they only stoke my resolve never to return to the bad old days.:goodjob: