Jeez I'm struggling today...

[Queenbug]

This is a minute by minute day! Did my 10 days, drank one evening, been AF for 6 (?) days...and everything in me is screaming for a glass/bottle/box(!) of red wine....its now 10.50 am and the shop closes at 10pm...shit this is hard :crazymonkey:

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Jeez I'm struggling today...

Hey Queenbug then you are in the right place here. Cravings to me have been best described as a large wave coming at us. We need to hang in there and let it wash over us and it will. Instead of thinking how good a drink would be, instead visualize how you will be feeling tomorrow morning when you first open your eyes and it dawns on you 'shit I have done this again'. Focus on all the crap you have been through drunk and ask yourself 'is this the life I want for myself and my family?'
Keep strong you can get through today, stay close to the boards.

[Queenbug]

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Thank you...am thinking of dashing into town and trying to get some kudzo and l-glutamine...can see that a shop has kudzo but can't find the glut anywhere locally and too shakey to drive far...am in uk so don't really want to wait for an order to come from u.s.
That sense of a wave is so true....am hanging on to remembering how horrible I feel after drinking and that one drnk to get releif from this will just make me drown today...
Blah!!!!!

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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LGlut is great for cravings I find. Best to get the powered kind rather than tablets and it is safe to take a big dose. You can get tablets in any of the health food shops and the powdered form in the bodybuilder shops if there are any near you. As an aside when I am finding it tough going I get any shopping done in the morning before the wine section/off licenses open.

[life...take2]

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queenbug, alcohol messes with your sugar levels --- you've only been af six days so your sugar is all messed up. Have something rich and sweet --- dump ice cream in coffee, indulge in chocolate ---- when I did that, just the thought of wine would want to make me puke. The sweets killed the booze craving.

hang in there!KTAb is right, go read over your old posts or read a gratitude post.

hold tight:l

[Queenbug]

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good plan...am just going to go now...back later..thanks x

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Here is an online shop in the UK that stock it

Glutamines | Supplements

[Queenbug]

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thanks...if I can't get any in town I'll come back and order this...my body feels like its screaming!!!!!

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Good luck, I hope you find some. But dont go near the offie and check in when you get back ok?

[Mia]

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Hey Queenbug know how you are feeling. Lets just go shopping for some chocolate I think that sounds like a good idea! x

[Queenbug]

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Hey...I'm back...gave myself 20 minutes on the parking so that I didn't get tempted...got l-glut 500mg tablets (no powder)..milk thistle drops, kudzo, herbal detox tea, herbal 'stop eating EVERYTHING you muppet!' tea, 3 ginger tea, ginger cordial (to go with my hot water or fizzy cold), teeny no cal/sugar/fat elderflower pastels and lots of incense that is making my house smell good....am hoping that this constitutes a plan!!! I've just taken 2 x 500mg l-glut, 2 kudzo as directed and some milk thistle....does that sound ok?
I've also decided to switch the radio to some soothing classical music because all the bad news, plus anything jangly is REALLY irritating me!!!
Its warm but raining now so I might take my friend's dog for a walk by the river....
it's 13.45....still managing to avoid the local shop (next door but one!)...7 3/4 hours until it closes
mg......feel like I'm going crazy!!!

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Its fine to take more LGlut if it helps. Recommended daily dosage on the powder I have is 8 grams a day in 4x 2 gram doses. You're not going crazy, you are getting through this and it does get easier. A walk seems a good idea but leave your money at home.

[FlyAway]

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I hope the L-Glut starts kicking in. I've never taken it in tablet form. Stay strong and fight through this. Remember how horrible you felt the last time you were drunk. Drinking will not make things better. It will only prolong your suffering. You've got to get through this tough time to get to where you really want to be.

[Queenbug]

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Hya...what a day...now I know what it means to have to WORK at this...I'm exhausted! Thank you all my lovely friends for being there...again! I have no idea why I felt in such a frenzy today....it was all consuming the need to have some wine...as soon as I woke up and I found that I couldn't sit still, think, decide,function, stop eating/wanting...awful! I'm wondering if it's because its the first day of my holiday that wasn't rammed full of stuff to do and places to be....bit like being at work...I can do that and not drink...it's when that routine suddenly stopped and I realised it.
Someone here (sorry don't have the facility to scroll back) said that my sugars would probabe;y be all over the place too. I usually have NO sweet tooth at all (although I think that red wine is full of it isn't it?) so I have just presumed that this wouldn't affect me too badly...but perhaps not...I felt crazy/buzzy/confused...bit scarey.
Any-old-hoos...had 2000gm of L-Glutamine as day progressed, and expect to take a bit more later...have a nice soup simmering and ginger cordial on the go....been able to say to my daughter I can collect her in a minute and 1 hour 53 minutes until shop closes...and feel a lot calmer...
I'm going to re-visit this post in the future if I start to lose it again...I'm still a bit in shock at the frenzy that I felt...sorry...and thank you! xx
:wow3:

[Queenbug]

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KTAB...excellent advice by the way...left my money at home and did enjoy the river and rain x