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[WineSucks]

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Daisy and Turnaround - I just wanted to say hi and offer some encouragement. Daisy - good job getting through day 2. Turnaround - I know what you mean by the smell!!!! That's how I felt when I poured those little bottles down the sink. It was just so shocking finding them...I literally was like "how the hell did they get here?" like the wine fairy dropped them off. It's amazing how much clearer my mind is now. I also have the thread "All I want is 30 days AF"....we are having a good time getting sober over there....check it out and join us if you get a chance. Daisy - come back....you were checking in over there and we haven't seen you in awhile.

[daisy45]

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Hi Winesucks, you are so good.:thanks:
I will definitely get back and interact with everyone on the threads. I just feel that this was my most 'messy' relapse yet. It made me lose my confidence that I could do this again - feel like I need to gain a little strength, i.e. AF days; I dont know how to explain this, but when I kept going back to the same threads and doing Day 1 over and over, I just thought I needed to do something differently to see if maybe that would work.
So I started this thread as a way of saying to myself that this time its for real. Does that make sense......
I gained a lot from this and you will see me giving my '2 pennies worth' with all my old friends very soon.
Again, thank you for caring.

[FlyAway]

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Daisy, you're fabulous and strong! :goodjob:

[WineSucks]

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Daisy - I totally understand. It's the same reason I started my thread....I needed to do something different and it has helped. Thank you for starting this one, as well. Don't let the relapse get you down. I was reading somewhere that each relapse brings us closer to sobriety. We can do this!

[daisy45]

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Here I am on Day 3. So happy. Truly felt I was getting caught in a downward spiral. The Summer holidays brings constant drinking opportunities and people in holiday mode looking for someone to share their drinking time with. I dont want to waste another Summer. Drank every night last week and it was like 'life as it should be' just stopped. Any plans I had with regards doing things with my family, catching up on jobs about the home, gardening, exercising, and even eating and cooking healthily, all went down the drain! Such a waste!

Last night I came across photos of me that were taken towards the end of 3 months AF - such a difference to how I look now; I looked younger, fresher, happier. Definitely going to that place again. I want it with a passion.
I have tried in earnest each Day 1. But when I took stock of my situation, I had to take note that something had to change as whatever I was doing obviously wasnt enough. So I got the CDs, read the MWO book, have my L-Glut. I had been constantly advised by 'wiser' MWO members to do this but kept thinking I didnt need them.
Starting this thread was an unusual step for me, but I figured I have to do it all differently to make this the time that everything 'clicks' and works for me. Another thing I havent done before is the signature to state my date of my new AF life.

Along with this, I will stick with the things I was already doing, i.e reading positive books, posting and reading on MWO every day, keeping a good exercise regime, eating healthily and most important of all, not going anywhere near that poison!

[SarahJane]

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Hi Daisy- Day 3 is great. You just inspired me to change my signature- but it has come out a bit big!
No more Day 1's for us- off we go. You have a great plan & you are fed up with the cycle. Keep the AF photo close by- that is you now.
There is plenty of summer time left for all the things you want to do- but not enough to waste any time drinking. You are on the right path- just keep going.
We are all here to help each other. We can do it.

[Juja]

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Daisy,

You've reminded me to finish the MWO book. I started it, but stopped at the supplement part. I don't know if it's because I don't believe supplements do what they say, or if I can't afford to buy them--maybe both. I want to get the CD's too, but $$ are a problem. Maybe just the one, as recommended in the book.

We're all in this together. I'm on my 12th day AF of many starts, and hope to make it this time. I'm with you!

No stinkin "drinkin' thinkin."

[daisy45]

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Juja, well done on your 12 days. I know how you feel about the supplements etc, but I have already went ahead and tried to stop drinking so many times only to go back to drinking again. Roberta Jewell has taken the time and done so much research into this. I am willing to give it a go. Have the L-Glut and will go get some of the vitamins she advises on. I reckon what harm can it do - my body must be deficient in so many areas because of alcohol abuse. The fitter my body and mind are now, the more able I am to continue to clock up my AF days. When I have myself fit and healthy then I will be able to maintain that and get what I need through diet and exercise.
Have only really started to use the CDs. Finding them relaxing but its too early to say if I can feel a difference yet. Will keep you posted. I have noticed that some members 'gift' their CDs to other members when they are done with them. Why not put out a request and see what happens....
SarahJane, as always, great to hear from you. I laughed when I saw your signature, together with the look on the face on your avatar - priceless! I think I get it that you mean it this time - that couldnt have been more loud and clear! You are doing great. 7 days tomorrow. Hope your marathon training is going well.
Anyways, end of Day 3.
MWO CD - check
MWO, post and read - check
Exercise, 7 hours powerwashing and cleaning drains and fascia - check
Diet, not very healthy, but great big fat Chinese - check???
L-Glut - check
Vitamins - still have to get them - tomorrow, tomorrow!
Sleep CD on ready for tonight - check
AF - check

Alls good. Will keep you posted.:l

[Barbara1234]

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Juja, SJ, Fly, WS hang in there you can do it! This is such a great place for support.
Daisy, you are going to do it this time! You are setting a great example of determination and strength.

I read somewhere that you can take up to 3-5 grams of L-Glut. The 500 mg. capsules 3x per day weren't working very well for me. I bought and ate a 1.5 qt. container of double mint chocolate chip ice cream in a 2 day period a few weeks ago. I absolutely was mad with sugar cravings.
Since then, I've taken 2- 500 mg. capsules 3x per day and the sugar cravings are GONE.
There are 1000 mg. of L-Glut in a gram. So 6 per day equals 3 grams.

I have to admit I'm glad I put the kabosh on the sugar cravings, but it was sure FUN eating all of that ice cream......:sorry: (not).

[FlyAway]

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Daisy you sound so positive now and you're getting a plan in place! I was reading an article about the stages of change and "Preparation" was one of the stages. The article said that many people skip this stage when trying to make a change and fail because of it. I thought it was interesting since there's a strong emphasis on this site to make a plan. According to the experts it's imperative!

[daisy45]

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Hi Flyaway, you have hit the nail on the head. Each time I started I 'thought' I was prepared, but in hindsight I really wasnt. Althought I do think there was a lot of learning in the process of starting and relapsing; a bit of knowledge is gained each time.
I know others can advise you but there are some things each individual has to learn for themselves. There are also members here whose advice I wish I had taken earlier. I think each of us has to learn a way of tailoring a plan to suit ourselves. What works for me (I hope) may not be right for another but there are some basics that I think we 'all' need to do.
So yes, I have through what I have learnt over this past nine months, taken a look at where my plan is gone wrong and tweaked and added to it in order to be even better prepared.
Day 4 now and feeling strangely good today. Dont have any cravings and feel a funny sort of calm. Very hard to expain, but I have never tried l-glut or CDs before, so not sure if it has something to do with them. But, it feels good. Hmmmm....will keep you posted.

[Barbara1234]

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Hi Daisy,

You are an inspiration. Great on day 4! Looks like you have a good plan in place. Just an FYI for you on the L-Glut. I was taking 500 mg. 3x per day and it wasn't enough. Then I started taking 1500 mg. 3x per day and the sugar cravings have vanished.
I read in numerous places that we can take at least 5 grams per day (10 tablets of 500mg. per day)
and be safe. The article I read said take all of your L-glut before 3:00 in the afternoon.
Try what works for you. If you start having sugar cravings up the L-glut.
The Way Up Newsletter : Benefits of Amino Acid L-glutamine
Here is a link with a lot of info. on it.
One of my bumps was "out of the blue" sugar cravings and they were brutal.
It didn't help to stop drinking, then eat a ton of sugar.

Have a great day and congratulations on day 4! :l

[SarahJane]

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Daisy you are making amazing progress. We are doing it this time. No more Day 1's.
Barbara that was a great article on the Glut- lots of us are struggling with sugar cravings.

[Queenbug]

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Thanks Barbara..I've really upped my dose so hopefully can get the better of these cravings....
How are you doing Daisy?
I'm back to Day 1 but not going to give up on this battle...

x

[Barbara1234]

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Great job guys. We are smarter than this disease!

Stay away from me AL...........you're no good!!!! :bat