Really rough day

[Juja]

Really rough day

WS,

I'm here, and I'm okay. Thanks.

I haven't replied to the supportive posts I received because it's been a very stressful and busy day. I want to be able to sit down, read and absorb the posts, and respond in kind. I need to absorb them before I leave.

I think I'm still taken aback by the showering of care and concern for me. I'm not used to that, and don't quite know what to say other than thank you to all of you wonderful souls who are looking out for me.

I'm still a little shaky about this whole AF thing, but if I get through the weekend, I think I'll be over a hump. I'm pretty sure I can do it.

Talk to you tomorrow, I hope. Family's coming in, end-of-life decisions are to be made, and emails and phone calls are flying at me from all directions before I can escape for the weekend. I'd like to make all of you, and me, the top priorities right now, but it may not happen.

xoxoxo
Juja

AF since since July 17, 2011

[Juja]

Really rough day

Okay, dear hearts, I finally have a bit of free time. So....

Fly-- You pretty much nailed it, didn't you? Thanks for reminding me of how I felt when I got my second start here. Al isn't going to change anything. Also, I should be able to find L-Glut in the city where we're going to the concert. It's on my list of things to pick up while in the "big city."

QB-- I've packed my clothes, etc., for the weekend, and have bracelets to wear to fiddle with when I get edgy. Bracelets always bother me, but not this time; I'm going to wear those things out this weekend!

WS-- I'm think I'm going to drink cranberry and soda with lime. Seltzer and soda with lime don't do it for me; they taste too harsh. I'm afraid diet tonic and lime will remind me to add vodka. I haven't found my drink of choice, and the various iced teas are getting old. Also, I WON'T give in. I'm no longer doubting myself. I went to Women for Sobriety last night, saw a quote I was going to keep in my mind, but already forgot it. Too much going on! I'll revisit it right now.

Noxy-- I will find a quiet place to go for those wee moments for a breather, and to connect with my peeps here, even if it's in a restroom stall. Good suggestion.

Life-- I will be with one the best friends a person can have, and will ask her for the physical hug I need so badly. She'll be happy to oblige. Another good suggestion.

Doggy-- You're right, too. Why do I want to be depressed with a hangover when I have enough to deal with. God, I don't want that feeling again!

Willow-- When I have time I would like to post something about each person I will soon be losing. Thank you for asking. It will be a grief release. I hope the others don't mind.

Daisy-- No "drinking thinking" for this girl. Good way to put it.

Barbara-- You're right. AL is a lie, not a reward. I won't be lied to.

So, with all that being said, thank you again so very much. I'll be tapping into your heads this weekend.

Each of you have a great AL free weekend, too!

I'm not much on smilies, but here's one for all of you!:l:l

P.S. I'll check back tonight, and in the morning before I leave. I have to!

[Juja]

Really rough day

I am choosing this statement from Women for Sobriety for the weekend:

"Greatness is mine through conscious effort."

I will feel so strong and powerful if I get through the weekend without AL, thus "greatness."

[FlyAway]

Really rough day

I'll be thinking of you this weekend Juja and sending positive vibes for strength and gratitude.

[WineSucks]

Really rough day

Good going Juja....keep that thought....you deserve greatness because you are great! I will be thinking of you and praying for you but please know that no matter what happens we are here to support you!