I don't like the taste of it and don't get anything out of it anymore. I run my business from home and so I don't have anyone to prevent me from drinking on the job!
I am tired of it. I feel guilty and can see some of the defensive behaviour I saw in my father. My brother too is an alcoholic and he lost everything because of it and I am afraid to become him.
I had a hard childhood, but who hasn't? It isn't a reason. Lately, I have told myself that I won't do it today, but by dinner time, I get me spiked dealcoholized wine. I don't work out at all. Our hobby is playing guitar and signing so we go to Blues Jams and I have wine. When people come over to jam, we drink. All of his friends are heavy drinkers. I moved 1 hour away to be away from these people, but he likes them and they come over.
In the summer, we go sailing and of course, every boater around us has drinking parties every night.
It gets me depressed to be sober. Anyone have tips for me?
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