This is my fifth AF day. I am a wine drinker, like many of you. I?ve been drinking since I was 18. I used to drink hard liquor but I had violent hangovers involving lots of retching and incapacitating headaches. The entire next day would be wasted. I gave up hard liquor and moved to wine.
Didn?t drink when pregnant with my kids, but picked it up again afterwards. I didn?t have a real problem controlling it until several years ago and even then I only drank a couple of times a week. I gave it up for good in April of 2006 and stayed clean until August of that year when I had one glass of wine at dinner.
I still drank only very occasionally after that until slowly getting back into the habit when my closest friend was diagnosed with cancer. Slowly but surely, my drinking ramped up to the point where some weeks I had a 1.5 L bottle of wine every night. I was fuzzy the next day, but could still function at a reasonable level so it was easy to fool myself that I didn?t really have a problem, which is ironic, considering I grew up with a father who was very involved in AA, so if anyone knows how to spot a problem it should be me.
Anyway, I have gone for a week or two without drinking in the recent past, so I am determined to make it this time. I am reading lots of posts here and on another site I have found that resonates with my approach. I have a plan, I have my husband?s support and I know that when I am ready to tell others ?I don?t drink anymore? they will also be supportive.
I already feel stronger, more clear-headed, I?m sleeping better, and my outlook toward life has improved. Well, thanks for listening. I am hopeful that the support on here will help me remember that I can?t go back to drinking because like many of you, once I start I can?t stop.
Didn?t drink when pregnant with my kids, but picked it up again afterwards. I didn?t have a real problem controlling it until several years ago and even then I only drank a couple of times a week. I gave it up for good in April of 2006 and stayed clean until August of that year when I had one glass of wine at dinner.
I still drank only very occasionally after that until slowly getting back into the habit when my closest friend was diagnosed with cancer. Slowly but surely, my drinking ramped up to the point where some weeks I had a 1.5 L bottle of wine every night. I was fuzzy the next day, but could still function at a reasonable level so it was easy to fool myself that I didn?t really have a problem, which is ironic, considering I grew up with a father who was very involved in AA, so if anyone knows how to spot a problem it should be me.
Anyway, I have gone for a week or two without drinking in the recent past, so I am determined to make it this time. I am reading lots of posts here and on another site I have found that resonates with my approach. I have a plan, I have my husband?s support and I know that when I am ready to tell others ?I don?t drink anymore? they will also be supportive.
I already feel stronger, more clear-headed, I?m sleeping better, and my outlook toward life has improved. Well, thanks for listening. I am hopeful that the support on here will help me remember that I can?t go back to drinking because like many of you, once I start I can?t stop.
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