Day 2

[embee]

In the past, I've always made my quit attempts (cigarettes first, now alcohol) based on this idea of a "window." As in, "I feel like my quitting window is open," or "my quitting window is closed, so I'd better get TWO six packs." This time my quitting window is definitely closed. My life, which is already pretty stressful (with things I am grateful for, like a gaggle of kids and pets, a marriage, a house, a decent job), is about to get extra crazy, as my husband is starting a new job in a week that will keep him away from home most nights of the week until we can sell our house and move down to be with him...

The window is so closed. Who wouldn't need a drink? asks Booze Mind.

And I don't care.

What a stupid concept!

There's no such thing. Open window, closed window. My cigarette quitting window wasn't open either, when I quit. I just got pregnant, and then once the baby was out, I swore that I wouldn't smoke anymore so I could be here for her as long as possible.

Not sure how excessive alcohol consumption got rationalized in that formulation, three kids later. (Always able to quit while pregnant, straight back to regular, sometimes way too much, drinking.)

It's never the right time. Now is the right time. I don't have to listen to you, Booze Mind! I throw you out the window, Booze Mind! Opened or closed!

Thanks for listening.

M

[Unwasted]

Day 2

Embee, just wanted to welcome you.

You're right, there is always an excuse to put of quitting. Hoping this time works for you! From the glimmer of sobriety I've seen (30 days was my longest before; now I'm on day 6), sober is so much better than struggling with the agony of alcohol!

[embee]

Day 2

I hear that, Unwasted. I have wasted so much time on it. Thinking about it, thinking about quitting, feeling depressed, embarrassed, angry because of it, etc... imagine what I might do with that brain power!

Hell, even if I don't do anything with it, it will be better than this nonsense.

Good luck to you, too.

Determined to do it this time. The long road.

[Unwasted]

Day 2

E - can't begin to tell you the mental torture I've put myself through just to keep drinking. Not drinking HAS to be easier! And, I think the longer we go without, the easier it gets (unless of course we're crazy enough to tell ourselves just one drink lol). I'm determined too!