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[crimsons]

Day 1 -- want support!

@tonstantweader, thanks for the encouragement! Oh, I would love to snarf down one of their fabulous pastas or sauced fish dishes. But no. Today so far I'm not wanting AL.

I'm considerably clearer than yesterday and still feeling pretty directed. My apt is a little claustrophobic as it's going to take awhile to clean up and organize after my last bender. Went to the farmers market this morning, and in LA that's always a delight. Stocked up on all these colorful summer veggies and a "papaya melon" I've never tried. Perhaps it will be a happy weigh-in at WW on Monday...

[crimsons]

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Dinner went OK, not without temptation. Almost sucked up my friend's glass when he was in the men's room -- but didn't! I ate too much, but it was delicious filet mignon. Off to bed.

[tonstantweader]

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crimsons;1165943 wrote: Dinner went OK, not without temptation. Almost sucked up my friend's glass when he was in the men's room -- but didn't!

Sheesh, do you know I've done something similar to that? My husband and I were at some sort of tribute dinner a few years ago and it really irked me that the wine ran out before the evening ended. So when our seat mates left, I drank their wine.

That's what alcohol does: takes away any semblance of self-respect we have. Not to mention hygiene!

[crimsons]

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Haha, that belongs on the "stupid things I did drunk" thread! I did once suck down the sake remnants of eight of my guests as I was "cleaning up" the kitchen. (Funny how it wasn't clean in the morning...)

Today I endured a painful dermatologist treatment that left me wanting either some of his lovely Demerol or a martini. Then to torture myself further, I went to Target...on Saturday...in a neighborhood full of families, ergo screaming kids and some loud parents too. Why did I do that to myself?! Boy did I want a drink, and they sell it there. In fact I once actually shopped at Target while drinking one of those Gallo mini-bottles of wine. Actually, I finished the 4-pack. I have a large purse. (I had *purchased* the vino, 'twas legit).

One of the things that made the Target ordeal worthwhile was when I heard a gargantuan woman behind me in the clearance racks bellow, "loooook! It's huge!" while holding up a garment that was just that. Almost everyone in earshot chortled! Of course I was there to clothe my huger-than-before-drinking bod myself.

There was a 7-11 across the street from Target where I have indeed stopped to buy such supplies. It beckoned. I came close, but didn't. Now I'm home pretending like my complex is a fancy spa again. I'm in for the day/night. Safe! Whew! Day 3 going well so far.

Thanks for keeping me going. This board is so helpful!

[tonstantweader]

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Crimsons, you might want to join us on the Focus on Fitness thread, the Awesome Pinksters that usually at the top of the board. We are all women, many wine drinkers, who intent on getting fit and into shape. I've been sober for about 18 days now and have been back on the treadmill and i swear my clothes are already slightly less tight. It probably has something to do with ingesting about a gazillion fewer calories a week and actually moving my pathetic 55 year old body around.

Luckily, Target and convenience stores don't sell booze where I live or I would have a hard time passing it by. At least you can see the humor in a Saturday at Target!

And, hey, good sake shouldn't go to waste! Or, well, maybe it should.

[crimsons]

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I will definitely check out that thread. By tomorrow I should be able to be peppier in the gym...

One thing that had been truly depressing was the volume of "outgrown" clothing. I'd dragged it around to several abodes and two stints in storage lockers. I weeded a lot out tonight. Started with the undie drawer. That was pretty funny -- why was I keeping this stuff, even if I can get in it again?

[tonstantweader]

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Yeah, the outgrown clothing was a bummer. More depressing for me was having to shop in the large size section again and having to put away a couple of closetsful of great clothes that I bought when I lost 80 pounds a few years ago.

But I'm determined that those 80 pounds are coming off again. I once calculated how many extra calories I was taking in a week with drinking and the eating that went along with my drinking and it was something 4-5,000 a week. More than a pound every week! That's insane!

[meggie]

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I am also 54 and have gained 20 pounds in the last several years. I don't want to get dressed, it is so frustrating. I am usually a gym person but haven't gone this summer. What is this thread you are talking about Focus on Fitness. I know that if I felt better about clothes and getting dressed and out I would go. I was af from Jan 24 to the summer and have not been good this summer. Haven't drank since Monday, I dumped the bottle.

[crimsons]

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@ Meggie, it's on the main "community" page under "Daily Life."

@ Tonstantweader, thanks for turning me on to the Fitness thread. It's encouraging to read such a positive thread and hear of your weight loss! There's a best way for everyone to do it, but as you know it's just an equation. Last night I kept cleaning up the messy apartment -- guess I just dropped clothing where ever, didn't file things, etc. during the Big Bender. I bought a few things at Tar-jay to tide me over, and then removed everything that actually fits from closet and drawers and hung it all over my bedroom. My closet is stuffed with several different sizes, so it's easier if I don't have to do a safari in there. I'll just go to the thrift shop as I lose weight and drop 'em off.

Today is Day 4, and I feel pretty darn good. The first three, I decided to take it easy and treat myself right. Today I feel like a much more vigorous workout. I'm definitely figuring out ways that work for me to ease back into a healthier lifestyle, like mostly staying home in my apt. complex, which has a very nice gym. I have an alumni event tonight -- it's a picnic and concert. Now I feel like going -- just prepared some healthy food and a big bottle of water to take with as I know they'll have sandwiches and vino there.

[crimsons]

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Oops. I had some wine tonight. But not a lot, which is already a huge improvement in my stinkin drinkin thinkin. Had an alumni gathering at a concert where another alum was featured onstage. I had two glasses (about 6 oz) over five hours. Due to the wine-head, I also ate a delicious but high-cal sandwich I wouldn't otherwise have snarfed.

There was no pressure to drink -- plenty of bottled water. Out of habit I went right for the wine. Oops, I'll start over with day 1. That said, I feel like I improved quite a bit. I drank in a social way. My conversations were front and center in my brain, not drinking. I didn't drive impaired. And I didn't stop for a bar or more wine on the way home. That, unless it's an isolated incident, is an improvement.

I don't have any more social events this week, so I can concentrate on AF and weight loss. However, I want to learn how to be social while being AF or drinking minimally, and that obviously needs to start by practicing social events with no AL.

So officially it's back to Day 1, but I'm still feeling like I'm ahead of the game by having a moderate night!

[meggie]

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Good luck, get back on the bandwagon. I have to go back to work in 2 weeks and nothing fits. So I have 2 weeks to get back into my clothes. Everyone around me thinks it is easy to not drink. I miss the taste, I also miss not thinking.

[tonstantweader]

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Crimsons,
I sort of think the whole Day 1 thing might be sometimes counter-productive. What is important is that you have spent more AF days than days WA (with alcohol; my own shorthand!). It's all cumulative and will add up to a stronger, healthier you. I have had so many day ones that I know I can't moderate at all, but some people can.

Meggie, it sure isn't easy for me to not drink, but the rewards are so worth it. I haven't lost enough weight to feel it in my clothes, but I feel so much stronger, healthier and in control just by not drinking and exercising again that it is all worth it.

[crimsons]

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@Tonstant, I agree about the Day 1 thing. I'd like to have 40 days and it'll also help reset my weight!

[crimsons]

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Hi Guys, although I've been doing better, I decided to go with the AF coach. In my case I think it's worthwhile. So I'm going to concentrate on the Pinksters Fitness thread and discontinue this one. I think it would be better to focus on positive lifestyle and health than "not drinking," while of could not drinking -- but as a component to the healthy routine.

[meggie]

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I do hope you continue to tell us how you are doing. I am very interested in the coach. Good luck