We Can Kick This Sh*T

[mya]

Starting a new thread for everyone that are starting a new beginning in their lives. Everyone in Conguering Day 1 please join us here.. We have all been there so trying times in the last month and all need to get back go the sober train.

[shellit1]

We Can Kick This Sh*T

Day one down

Hello MYO new friends-

I am a 45 year old mother of two daughters, ages 13 & 19, and have abused wine nightly for a number of years. I don't remember things and typically go to work feeling foggy and not my best for sure, although I get big praise on my work. Imagine how much I could accomplish if I were at my sharpest. My husband has put up with me for years but is really tired of it. I believe it would help if he were encouraging and helping me quit, but he says that I have to do it. He drinks beer but is control of it. He is starting a new job and is traveling more and now I am home with girls and want/need to be a better role model and get a fresh start. Not to mention I would like to get rid of the 40 pounds I've put on from empty calories in the past 15 years. I also want my daughters to not be upset with me and leave behind a different legacy.

Over the past year, my anxiety level has increased with a few panic attacks, so I went to a psychiatrist who put me on anxiety meds (felt really wierd mixed with the alcohol), along with Campral (which I requested),but hated taking 9 pills per day and then eventually Naltrexone, which I liked, along with the required psychology counseling sessions. I never really abstained from wine long enough to see the real effect of the meds, and was afraid for the toll on my liver. I was really angry from not having the support of my husband with trying to get sober. The counseling sessions were helpful but very time consuming, and she wanted me to go to 90 meetings in 90 days, since I declined rehab...because I have to work, and cannot risk losing my job. I was discouraged so quit going.

In any case I talk to myself every day over this and pray like mad that I can find the strength and will to abstain. I have been listening to inspirational music and have started meditating more. I plan to get back into yoga, too. With the new job situation it has given me real incentive to give it my best shot.....so I am here looking for support and encouragement, and perhaps will become brave enough to attend some meetings in my area, whether it be AA or Celebrate Recovery.

I love all my friends, who are all also big drinkers--we are the back porch type professional moms who gather and have happy hours, etc. They will love me even if I am the designated driver or never drink again, but it will likely take some time to get to the point where I can be around them. I'll have to work up to that strength it will take.

So with all that said.....here we go. Just in time for the September challenge.

[mya]

We Can Kick This Sh*T

Hey Shell!
I can relate to everything u just said. From my husband to my friends.
We can do this

[shellit1]

We Can Kick This Sh*T

Thanks Mya-

Just what I needed to hear. Great! I have plans to work outside after work and have an evening meeting tomorrow (not AA), and kids football game on Thursday..so plan to keep busy and keep my mind off of it. Didn't sleep well last night and felt a bit anxious, as it was day one, so hopefully night two will be better. Once I get several days behind me, plan to try the Naltrexone again.

Really ready to not feel so anxious and panicky. Have a great day 2. Let me know if I can help you.

[Enough!]

We Can Kick This Sh*T

Mya... Keep up the great work.

Shell... Welcome. The first few days are always the hardest. Mya and I and the rest of our"old" group have all had our share of slip ups. I have been on this journey for almost 2 months with many more sober days then not.

Best of luck!
Enough!

[leaveinsilence]

We Can Kick This Sh*T

Hi Shellit

Such a familiar story, that is so like me, glad you are here and ready to kick AL's ass, it is something we can do if we work at it:l

Stick close get a plan and keep distracted, the first few days are the hardest as AL leaves our body, but after that it does begin to get easier:l

[Clockwatcher]

We Can Kick This Sh*T

Hi Shellit, hello all, day 5 again for me and hoping and working that this time it sticks, giving up any dream of modification drinking as I only want to get drunk and every pretense about a couple of beers is a lie; need to always tell myself before I reach for the first one so that will not happen....saw another post that September 1st is start of spring in Australia which is rebirth and all that other symbolic stuff...gotta find inspiration where you can somedays....anyways, don't have 1 beer, that is what I tell myself hourly.....so far its working this time....we can do this.