A long day in gift wrap

[kitkatsue]

Well it's that time of year again I always dread it because I work in the gift wrap and shipping area of a department store and this time of year is CRAZY. I was AF for 7days but tonight I had two beers. I want to be AF all the time but I worked a 10 hour day that was non stop. I'm tired and even though I probably shouldn't I had two beers. I'm on my third but have no desire to go for more. I've had a rough couple of years dad died , I miss him very much. I'm getting a divorce, and a good friend died of AIDS. It is alot to process and I wonder what is next but I don't want to turn to alcohol as a cruch I worry though that I can't have a beer with out falling into the four day binge hole that I sink into. It feels great not to drink and be sober but then something happens I get depressed or someone I love leaves. Or I just don't really care!

Sorry about the vent!
I apparently have issues!!:H

Kit

[kitkatsue]

A long day in gift wrap

I just hope i didn't screw up everything I want to do by have three beers.

[fulloh8]

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don't give up

Not sure who I am to be giving advice, but I would like to offer encouragement. You CAN start over tomorrow. The fact that you are thinking about your goals and are concerned about your slip means you have the focus to make this work.

I am a complete newbie who drank too much tonight, but everyone here seems very cool and I look forward to taking the step that you did.

-bill

[dove]

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You're not screwing anything up by having three beers. Just keep it at that - even if you're on your fourth by now. Aren't you feeling tired? Want to just go to bed? Sometimes the power of suggestion works wonders!
Make a decision right now to not have more. Hard, tiring days at work are the worst for me. And especially at the holidays when people drain you to the max. I work in the service industy too. Sometimes I just want to be like 'don't you know this is a HAPPY, GIVING time of the year?. Hang in there, this is beginning to be, for me and lots of others, the worst time of year to stay - mostly for me - sober.
You will be much more able to deal with work tomorrow not hungover!
Dove

[SKendall]

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Hi, please don't give up. You have had a horrible time. Stay with us and we will open our arms to you. Just keep posting and we will help you day by day. Read the book and get the supps to start with - that makes an amazing difference.

[Olly]

A long day in gift wrap

Hey Kizzie,

Hang in there. Just remember how good you feel when you're AF and how awful you'll feel if you go on that four day binge... ugh. You're doing great, by the way. And, with so much stress and saddness at the moment it's no wonder you want it all to just "go away".

If you stop and three , even four, pat yourself on the back for stopping and have a better day tomorrow!!
Can you take a walk or get some sort of exercise? Maybe those good endorphins will give you the lift you're looking for.

take care, Olly

[samadhi]

A long day in gift wrap

Kit - how did you do yesterday? I admire you for going 7 days. That's great and nothing to sneeze at. Just hang in there and keep reminding yourself of the 7 days vs. the binge days. I do know what you mean about handling a crisis without a crutch - I guess that's what we all need to learn to do. Handling crisis, celebrating, relaxing, just living life without that crutch. I think the more we do it and know that we have done without, the more we can do it in the future.

[kitkatsue]

A long day in gift wrap

Thanks everyone for your support I hope I can be there for you when you need it. I'm having a hard time not having a drink but I only had three beers and I didn't feel to bad today a little tired. I'm not drinking tonight have to get up at 5:00 am. Again thanks to all of you!!!

[jerri 2765]

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Know how you feel!

Kit, know just how you feel! The time of year is bad for me also. My dad died on Dec 2, so this time of year is always bad for me. I miss him terribly. Divorced, so kids are at their dad?s for Christmas. Trying very hard to get things ?right? before they get back. Am doing the CD?s religiously for the first time. (Never had time before-two kids, two jobs, mom to care for). They seem to be helping, but I can certainly empathize with your dilemna. Feel bad when I drink and worse when I don't. I don't drink a lot either, just often...like a beer every few hours (when I'm not at my day job) and at night maybe 4 before bed. I work a lot and that seems to make me want to drink more, just to alleviate the stress?.Will put you in my prayers and advise you to try the CD?s. They seem to be the only thing that helps me?.even tried Campral and it didn?t work either because I didn?t totally abstain! God Bless and best of luck

[kitkatsue]

A long day in gift wrap

Thank you jerri
Ijust get so tired of bad things happening and i know bad things happen to us all
But I get so depressed its hard to lose a parent I miss my dad every day its just that having to put my cat to sleep is like adding insult to injury logically I know I can't keep drinking but it is so hard its like being on a rollercoaster ride with no way off