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[paw1481]

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Here is my story. A long time abuser of alcohol. January of 2009, my wife finally had it and told me it was her or the alcohol. I quit cold turkey. I lasted until August of 2010, when I started again thinking I could handle it that time. I hid it from my wife for around 4 months when she caught me again in December of 2010. She stuck by me again, and I haven't touched the stuff since. However, I have started getting the urges to drink again. Thinking about ways I can sneak alcohol and cover it up again. I almost bought tonight but have come back to this forum. There are many underlying issues in my marriage I wish not get into but basically I am in it because I don't want my children to grow up in a divorced family. I am hoping by just expressing my desire to drink here will help me though a very tough time. ANy advice?

[Lavande]

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Hi paw1481!

Repeating that pattern would definitely not be in the best interest of you & your family.
Wondering why you would even consider it knowing that it has failed you in the past.

Have you tried any counseling, may CBT to help you change your thinking? I honestly found the MWO Hypno CDs very effective. You have some significant AF time under your belt now & I hope you can find a way to keep going.

Posting on a few threads everyday helps me keep my focus, I hope it will help you as well.
Be proud of your ability to quit drinking, you've done great! Developing an attitude of gratitude helps a lot. Focus on your family, your goals & do whatever you can to stay positive. There's a wonderful website I use a lot: The ToDo Institute: Mindfulness, Procrastination, and Gratitude using Morita and Naikan Therapies
Check it out, some good reading there!

Wishing you the best!

Lav

[RitaNow]

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Paw -

Good for you for coming here, rather than hiding out drinking. I have a feeling you will feel really bad if you start drinking. You might think it will "help" you through a tough time, tough marriage, etc, etc. but it will only make things worse. You know that - I can tell from your post.

You may find a counselor helpful - to help you sort through some of the problems you are having and your desire to deal with it through Alcohol. Some insight is helpful - as the more we can know ourselves, the better we are able to deal with ourselves!

Best wishes to you!

[mario]

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Paw hi & welcome back

IMO One thing’s for sure, Expressing desires & will-power alone is not enough to stop you from drinking.
You need to work out what are your ‘high-risk’ situations, what are your ‘triggers’ that make you want to drink? Some of these can be avoided, so make plans as to how you can avoid them. For those that clearly can’t be avoided, you have to start thinking about how you can deal with them differently. You also know that by drinking any good you have done in the family will be wiped away,You have done so long without it you don't want to go backwards in life but forwards, keep posting and sharing your thoughts here,we can all relate to the problems of alcohol abuse so remember your not alone.