So I'll have maybe 2 - 3 AF days, then BAM, I'll have a day where I drink a bottle of wine, or I drink over the weekend like I normally do. But basically I have been doing better. I just added in Topamax on Thursday and it's been a nightmare for me. I went back to school for Court Reporting right when I started this and Friday I could not focus AT ALL! My fingers and brain were not connected. Saturday I was one mean gal and since Sunday I have been one big cry baby. I skipped school today and forced myself to reassess. I had dropped some key "healthy" steps from my routine 1) morning journaling, 2) morning meditation, 3) morning exercise. So I am recommitting to the FULL program MINUS the Topamax, plus my personal routine (I have battled chronic depression but am med free and depression free thanks to a very good diet and aforementioned good habits). I strongly recommend to people considering this program that they do not skip on the EXERCISE, DIET, SUPPLEMENTS AND CDS. At the minimum these will really help. I believe I can get AF with this program minus Topa if I am diligent.
Starting everything before I introduced the Topamax also helped me assess how the supplements were affecting me. For me, the GABA is way too potent; I cannot take it. It makes me incredibly fuzzy brained. But everything else seems to be fine. I don't do the Vitamin Powder, because I have a very good multi-vitamin I take. Before I started the program I cut out coffee for two months, drastically reduced beef, white flour and whole wheat, switching to whole grain. No soy, I found a fantastic grain-based raw food protein powder I use. I get berries every day, do flax oil, tons of water, you get the picture.
Good luck to all. The nights I go to bed with no alcohol in me are so blissful. I have so much joy and happiness, laying there in the dark feeling calm and peaceful. I'm trying to carry that new memory with me now to motivate me moving forward. If I feel I need to, I will go back on the Topa at the end of the semester, when I will have a 6-7 week break to work with it. For those of you whom it is just not practical to be on Topa right now, I strongly encourage you to embrace the other aspects of the program with full gusto. It can help.:new:
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