Because of what I have learned here and because of your support....it has now been 60 days since I've had any alcohol....or nicotine.
As many of you know this is not my first stretch of AF months. BUT...there is a major difference this time.
For the first time, I have accepted that I cannot moderate. I tried and failed countless times. My body doesn't work that way.
So....I am a non-drinker now. That's the way it is. And you know what? That's more than fine!
I no longer think in terms of what I 'gave up.' I think in terms of what I'm getting. My body is healing. My brain chemistry and circuitry is on the mend. The depression has lifted. The anxiety has dissolved. My self respect has returned. My relationships have improved. I have energy and enthusiasm. I can think clearly. I can sleep through the night. The night and day sweats have dried up. I am productive again. I ENJOY life again. AND....lordy, lordy, this girl has a bunch of money piling up in the bank that would've otherwise gone up in smoke and down my throat. My $22 a day habit added up to more than $8000 a year! And when you figure I was doing this for the last 5 plus years? Wow...I can't believe I wasted $40,000! One thing's for sure...I'm not going to waste another $40K!
I also refuse to waste another moment of my life by being altered. Each day is too precious. I have been to hell and know I NEVER want to be there again. I know what it is to really live again....and I know how to keep thriving.
To those of you who are struggling....here's the reality: there is no magic bullet...or supplement....or mantra....or method. Information is power, of course, and we need every tool we can find and all the support we can get. BUT...when it comes down to it... IF you are one of those whose body does not process alcohol 'normally'...there is one solution: You cannot drink. Alcohol is toxic and addictive for us. IF this thought scares you....imagine your life if you continue to take in the poison. Is this what you want for yourself...your family....your future?
Are you willing to trade your life for a drink?
I hope you will choose to trade the drink for your life.
It's amazing on the other side....
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