I'm back in the fold for those who know me and feeling ready for action now..( I hope the wise ones on here, who have helped so much before, will accept me back?
I've tried and failed in one continent, tried and failed in another... now in another.... and its the third time lucky I hope.
Luck, I know, doesn't come into the equation but I have spent the last two days literally preparing for today..my mind, my body and my soul for what is to come...
And today is the day I am stopping AL and Cigarettes, one day at a time, one little foot in front of the other.
My plan:
* I have L-Glut a plenty plus some high quality supplements which I started a few days ago, so they are kicking in ( Liver detox, Hawaiian Spirilina, Probiotics 9, Marine calcium and CQ10- Omega 3, plus a chelated multi vitamin mineral ) Bach Flower Rescue Remedy for the inevitable bouts of tearfulness
* Nicotine patches and gum for the nicotine withdrawal
* Fresh Vegetables and fruit - lots of healthy food lying around, lemons and apple cider vinegar. A juicer I just bought.
* Fresh Coconut Juice in the fridge
* An emergency stash of mild sleeping pills, plus Bach Rescue Sleep Remedy
* A Malaysian version of Xanax ( 5 pills only.. mmm better use wisely) for any out of order anxiety.
* A full on day tomorrow - work and exercise = planned
* A reward planned for next week with the money I will have saved from Al and Cigs ( hair done and pedicure)
* A cool book to use as a journal ( cool pens too)
* A clean apartment and clothes
* A great literary classic to read (for when I can focus on words again)
* A mind so determined and tired of self- serving excuses
* This site and all its support
* A healthy and still happy 6 year old ( won't be for much longer if I carry on this mad drinking = we will both end up to be dysfunctional children)
* A Special admiration for all of you who are doing and fighting and continuing and motivating others with your patience and time and wisdom.
* A hope that some new people will join me on the trip out of here and a feeling I may be able to help others in a way
Have I forgotten anything? Please tell me if I have.
mmm.. have to admit, the exercise thing is still a bit vague, a bit scared of that after my bad habits of drinking and smoking but i have no weight issues so should be fine right??
I would welcome any additions to my plan or ideas
Hey glad to be back!! And lets crack this monster and put her back in her cage and lock the door, make that a double.. lock.
Take care
Patrice
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