Sick of being sick

[Struggles 106]

Hi
New here-just wanted to share my story. I have tried
to stay sober for years and have succeeded for
10 months( the longest I've accomplished)
I've struggled for years but am just now realizing
how bad things have become. There is no denying
that I am literally killing myself. I have a 22 year old
daughter who needs me around. ENOUGH!
Reading the posts here I know I don't need to go
into detail about the stuff I've done. All of you know
(and that's why this site is priceless) all about
the shame, fear, and guilt that goes with drunkenness.
We are all in this boat together. I intend to row
my ass to a safe shore and stay there.
Thank you all for being here.

[Lavande]

Sick of being sick

Ann,

You have lots of comapny here, we all understand
What a great time to take control & show your daughter just how amazing you are!

Make sure your plan addresses the triggers that make you drink.
For me it was lonliness, feeling sorry for myself, self-medicating so to speak. You'll find lots of great ways to handle problems (before they even pop up) in the Tool box.

Drop in the Newbies Nest too for more support!
Yu can do this, we're here to help.

Lav

[Unwasted]

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Ann,

Welcome - you have come to a good place with lots of information and supportive people. I'd like to give you some links that will help.

First, this is a link to the discussion of a book that helped me and others here stop drinking. I highly recommend reading Kick the Drink by Jason Vale. Here's the link:

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f9...ife-52399.html

And, here is a link to the Toolbox, which I highly recommend too (be sure to scroll through the pages because stuff gets buried there):

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html

Best to you and way to go for thinking of your daughter. You will both be better off it you can get alcohol out of your life!

[hadit]

Sick of being sick

Ann, Welcome to MWO. You have taken the most important step.......admitted you have a problem with AL. You will find lots of really supportive people here who are at various stages to quit or control their drinking,many have stopped completely. Newbies Nest is a really good thread to hop into.:welcome:

[Struggles 106]

Sick of being sick

Thanks Lav

Thank you. I have so much good stuff in my life.
I cannot spend another day on the couch unable
to function. Cannot and will not.
I've ordered the MWO CDs and milk thistle.
Also today ordered new running shoes.Used to
be a runner-will be again.
My husband left me in 2006 and things have been
downhill from there. I even started smoking again
after 20 years smoke-free! Nuts.
When I leave my office I pass all the bars my colleagues
go to after work and believe me I've made a fool
of myself in all of them. No more.
I intend to buy a house next summer, and I intend
to save $$$$$ for that partially by NOT drinking
and smoking.
My daughter is in the Navy. She is visiting in a month
and I hope she will see how much better I am.
Thanks to all.

[Struggles 106]

Sick of being sick

Hey Unwasted

As soon as I saw your recommendation about
Kick the Drink I ordered it. It is on it's way and I'm
very excited to get it.

[Unwasted]

Sick of being sick

Oh, hi Ann - I remember you now from another thread. I wasn't sure that you were really going to quit drinking from your other posts. Sounds like you've definitely made up your mind. So happy for you!

[Struggles 106]

Sick of being sick

Yep-quitting for sure

I am on day 6-feeling ok. I don't see an option
about quitting or not. To drink is to die.
It's really that simple. I can look ahead down that
dark road and see the things to come if I don't
stop now. I shudder at the thought.
Something is different; that's how I feel right now.
It's as if I've peeled away that last bit of denial
in my brain and see clearly what I have to do,
and what will happen if I don't. If I say " Oh I'd
never drink every day" that may be true now
bot won't be in the future. Stuff I said before I'd
never do-I've done. And so it goes.
Writing down the truth is also very helpful.
Also trying to get rid of the envy of normal drinkers.
Waste of energy-it's not me and never will be.

[patrice]

Sick of being sick

Hi Ann

I like the line you wrote

Writing down the truth is also very helpful.

I feel exactly the same..Keep going with your days AF - I'm glad for you that something is different, its sounds like 'better different'

Take Care
Patrice

[Unwasted]

Sick of being sick

Ann, when you read the book you'll be able to completely change your thinking on envying other drinkers.

[lolab]

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Hi Ann. Congratulations on making it 6 days~You've made it through the toughest part in my opinion...:goodjob:

You're so right...never did I think I would drink every day or even sometimes start in the morning (or I guess keep going - as I would take some to bed with me in case I woke up) but that's where I was. I read on this site awhile back that you have to be 100% committed, that often we feel that we are - and we actually are - 99%.... but that 1% is what we have to conquer before things "stick"....it sounds like you found your 1% and added it to the 99%...

I think it was a bit more eloquently put when I read it but I hope you get what I'm saying! :H

I'm only coming up on 3 weeks - this attempt - but I will say to keep in mind that it gets easier! Hang in there - you've got so much to motivate you!

[lolab]

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Hey I found the thread, can you believe it? :H

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f4...you-49601.html