Day 4 and feeling better

[patrice]

Day 4 and feeling better

Hey Change

Good on you.. lets all keep this ball rolling!!

Take Care
Patrice

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Day 4 and feeling better

change congrats and keep going. god i am just on here babbling tonight. computer with wine, with this site i am just reading and reading and reading and it is keeping me strong.

computer and wine i mean was normally the norm, now just reading etc

[timpin]

Day 4 and feeling better

My problem is that I can go four days with reasonable ease. Then I lapse and drink even more, binging on white wine. I feel so good after those four days and then I just persuade myself to start again. I can't understand it. Does anyone have any advice on this ?

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Day 4 and feeling better

timpin i am keeping all alcohol out of the house, not that there was ever any in here. On day 5 do something different and say no that you dont want a drink today, maybe tomorrow. Mind you i am on day 3 tomorrow but fingers crossed i am staying positive and posting like hell on this site and reading posts. I actualy got home today and had left some wine in a bottle and my son had put it in the fridge and i looked at it and poured it down the sink. A proud moment that was.

:goodjob:

[Change]

Day 4 and feeling better

timpin;1201974 wrote: My problem is that I can go four days with reasonable ease. Then I lapse and drink even more, binging on white wine. I feel so good after those four days and then I just persuade myself to start again. I can't understand it. Does anyone have any advice on this ?

Yes, mate. Crisis averted. Keep strong.

Historically, Day 5 and 6 are my hardest for the same reasons. Tonight i had to struggle with myself for hours. And, i mean hours! Probably about 3 in total. By about 8.30pm, i had just about given up hope of being bothered to go out and get the poison. I tell ya, it was close for a minute there. That same old thinking of "who cares, i don't really matter" crept into my mind, but for some reason, I FOUGHT IT! I'll tell you what made me fight it:

-It was going to be the same old merry-go-round if i had have drank. Get excited, score alcohol. Get more excited. Start drinking, feel happy around 20 mins into it. Continue because i feel so good, how wrong can this be?

-Start slumping on couch around 8.30pm. Ready to pass out any time from 9.30pm onwards. Crawl into bed around 10.00 - 10.30. If i sober up, regrets start creeping in. If i don't, i pass out anyway, so who cares.

-Morning scenario: first thing i think of when i wake up is how YUK i feel! Then i start to feel guilty, before working up the energy to actually get out of bed.

I have too many responsibilities to weaken at the moment. I have children to be responsible for (in my job) and i have my life to be responsible for. I also have some decisions to make, so need to stay vigilant.

Instead tonight, i was extremely productive. I got some work done and washed the dishes... I can't tell you how long that's been.

So, yep, stay strong. Remember who you want to be. You won't achieve that while you're still using alc as a substitute for living. Attached files [img]/converted_files/1698485=6442-attachment.jpg[/img]