MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

[Never Give Up]

LOVE WILL ALWAYS HELP U THROUGH

IF U LUV HER AS U SAY
THEN BELIEVE ME, COME WHAT MAY
ALL UR FEARS WILL FADE AWAY
AND IF UR GOOD AND KIND
HEEPS OF COURAGE U WILL FIND.

THEN SOME HOW UR NOT SO SMALL, I'M ONLY 4'11 BY THE WAY
NOT SO SCARED TO TAKE A FALL,
SUDDENLY YOU'RE TEN FEET TALL,
STANDING UP TO THOSE WHO WOULD
TRY TO HARM U IF THEY COULD.

WHEN UR HEART IS BIG AND STRONG
U CAN RIGHT MOST ANY WRONG,
WHEN U KNOW THAT U BELONG
2 SOMEONE WHO LUVS U TOO
THERE IS NOTHING U CAN'T DO.

U WILL FIND YOUR SIZE EXPANDS,
WHEN U GIVE UR HELPING HANDS
TO SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS,
MOUNTAINS THEN BECOME IN TIME
NOT SO VERY HARD TO CLIMB.

WHEN U LUV AS MUCH AS ME,
SOMEONE WHO YOU'D LIKE SEE
CLOSE BESIDE U CONSTANTLY,
THEN IF UR GOOD AN KIND
HEEPS OF COURAGE U WILL FIND

IF UR HEART STAYS STRONG AN TRUE,
THEN UR LUV WILL ALWAYS HELP U THROUGH.

AFTER I'D BEEN GIVING MY EVIDENCE AN GETTING BATTERED BY THE DEFENCE BARASTER 4 40 MINS
THAT IS HOW I FELT THERE WAS NO WAY HE WAS GOIN 2 BREAK ME BECAUSE WAS TELLING THE TRUTH. LISTENING TO LAST OF THE MOHICANS THEME TUNE IN THE MORNING HELPED PHYCE ME UP TOO. I WORK AS A CARER IN THE COMMUNNITY TAKING CARE OF OLD PEOPLE, ON THE TUESDAY BEFORE I GAVE MY EVIDENCE ONE OF MY LADIES GRABBED MY HAND AND KISSED ME SHE TOLD ME HOW MUCH SHE LOVED ME AND TOLD ME HOW KIND AND CARING I AM. WHEN I CAME OUT OF COURT ON THE FOLLOWING WEDNESDAY IHAD A TEXT MESSAGE ON MY PHONE SAYING SHE HAD PASSED AWAY. IFOUND OUT LATER THAT DAY SHE HAD COMITED SUICIDE, THE MORNING I GAVE MY EVIDENCE. GOD BLESS:upset: I BELEIVE LISA AN MINNIE WERE IN THAT STAND WITH ME BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHERE I GOT MY STRENGTH FROM. SINCE I'VE BLESSED LISAS HOUSE AND BEDROOM ITS BEEN LIKE SIXTH SENSE. LOTS OF PEOPLE WHO HAVE PASSED ARE TALKING TO ME. I' ALWAYS BEEN TOLD I WAS PHYCIC
BUT NEVER HAVE I EXPERIENCE ANYTHING AS SCARY, SHOCKING AND YET SOOTHING AND PEACEFUL AT THE SAME TIME. BLOODY TRANQULISERS ARNT WORKING TOO WELL I CAN'T STOP TYPING. I WAS AFRAID I WAS GOING TO DIE IF I WENT TO SLEEP LAST NIGHT AND HAD TO CALL A DOCTORS AT 1AM. HE WAS VERY GOOD AND TOLD ME LOTS OF PEOPLE EXPERIENCE THIS SORT OF THING WHEN PEOPLE DIE. THE MADDEST THING WAS CHRISTMAS MORNING. LISAS BODY COULD NOT BE EMBALMED BECAUSE OF THE WAY SHE DIED AND ALL TESTS THEY HAD 2 DO ON HER. I WENT 2 SEE HER BODY SHE HAD BEEN DEAD 3WKS BY THIS TIME AND WAS STARTING 2 DECOMPOSE SO THE ROOM SMELT A STRANGE, WELL XMAS MORNING MY LIVING ROOM STUNK OF THAT SMELL, MY SON WENT TO GET THE AIR FRESHENER, BUT I STOPPED HIM, LISA AND I HAD BEEN FRIENDS FOR 25YRS SHE WAS LIKE MY SISTER. SHE WAS WITH ME ALL DAY XMAS DAY AND BOXING DAY, I FEEL CLOSER TO HER NOW THAN I EVER HAVE, SHE SAID SHE'S SEEN INTO MY HEART. I LUV HER SO MUCH. BECAUSE I WAS IN SUCH SHATTERED STATE LAST NIGHT SHE STAID WITH ME ALL NIGHT WITH OTHER PEOPLE I NOW WHO HAVE PASSED AND THEY SANG FOR ME ALL NIGHT UNTILL 5AM THIS MORNING WHEN I FELL ASLEEP BUT HAD TERRIBLE DREAMS. IHAD HER FACE IN MY HANDS AND COULD ACTUALLY FEEL HER I BEGGED HER TO STAY, BUT SHE SAID SHE HAD TO GO, SHE'S STILL WITH ME NOW BUT THE FEELING ISN'T AS STRONG. I LUV AN MISS HER SO MUCH. SO SORRY 4 GOIN ON. THINK I'M GOING TO TAKE ANOTHER TRANQULISER AN TRY TO SLEEP. NICE 2 TALK 2 U ALL. NYT NYT.:l

[Popeye]

MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

:l :l :h

[Helensback]

MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

Never Give Up

I remember that kind of grief.

Stay with us.

I wish I had "us" then....

Helen

[Never Give Up]

MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

GRIEF IS A STRANGE THING ISN'T IT HELEN. WOKE UP AT 4.45AM IN A COLD SWEAT. GOT UP HAD CUP OF TEA, A TRANQULISER, SOME MILK THISTLE, AGRIMONY, VITAMIN B COMPOUND AND EVENING PRIMROSE, SO I'M ALL NATURALLY HERB UP APART FROM THE TRANQULIZERS. BEEN GETTING MY WASHING SORTED OUT. ITS LISA U KNOW SHE WAS OCD WITH HOUSE WORK. WE ALL USED TO TAKE THE MICKEY OUT OF HER SHE WAS SUCH A HARD WORKER. THERE BEEN A RED DOT ON MY LAP TOP SCREEN I THINK ITS LISAS SPIRIT. ITS NOT THERE RIGHT NOW SHES TELLING ME SHES BUSY. PROBERLY BLOODY VACCUMING HEAVEN KNOWING LISA. SHE SEAD U ALL HER LUV AND THANKS U 4 HELPING ME, SO DO I. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

[tawnyfrog]

MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

Never Give Up,

My heart soooo goes out to you. Thank you for sharing.

Tawny

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[Never Give Up]

MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

THE ETERNAT LAMENT

FROM MY MIND 2 THE DEPTHS OF MY SOUL
I YEARN 2 ACHIEVE ALL MY GOALS
AND ALL OF MY FREE TIME WILL BE SPENT
ON THE 1'S I MISS I WILL LAMENT

I AM NOT A PERFECTIONIST
BUT I SEEK PERFECTION
I AM NOT A GREAT ROMANTIC
BUT YET I YEARN 4 AFFECTION

ETERNALLY MY MIND WILL PRODUCE
WAYS 2PUT MY TALENTS 2 USE
AND WHEN I'M DONE NO MATTER WHERE I'VE BEEN
I'LL YEARN 2 DO IT ALL AGAIN

IF I FAIL

IF IN MY QUEST 2 ACHIEVE MY GOALS
I STUMBLE OR CRUMBLE AND LOSE MY SOUL
THOSE THAT KNEW ME WOULD EASILY CO-SIGN
THERE WAS NEVER A LIFE AS HARD AS MINE
NO FATHER-NO MONEY-NO CHANCE AND NO GUIDE
I ONLY FOLLOW MY VOICE INSIDE
IF IT GUIDES ME WRONG AND I DO NOT WIN
I'LL LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES AND TRY 2 ACHIEVE AGAIN.

GOD

WHEN I WAS ALONE AND HAD NOTHING
I ASKED A FRIEND 2 HELP ME BEAR THE
PAIN NO ONE CAME EXCEPT . . . .GOD

WHEN I NEEDED A BREATH 2 RISE
FROM MY SLEEP NO ONE COULD
HELP ME EXCEPT . . . .GOD

WHEN ALL I SAW WAS SADNESS
AND I NEED ANSWSERS NO ONE
HEARD ME EXCEPT . . . .GOD

SO WHEN I AM ASKED WHO I
GIVE MY UNCONDITIONAL LOVE 2
LOOK FOR NO OTHER NAME
EXCEPT . . . .GOD

WE MUST SUPPORT POR CHILDREN IN EVERY WAY WE CAN. WE MUST ALLOW OUR CHILDREN FREEDOM TO EXPRESS THEMSELVES CREATIVELY. WE MUST PRAISE OUR CHILDREN AND THANK THEM FOR THEIR GIFT OF INSPIRATION. WE MUST MOTIVATE OUR CHILDREN SPIRITUALLY. WE MUST CHALLENGE OUR CHILDREN TO A HIGHER LEVEL OF ACHIEVEMENT. WE MUST INCREASE OUR CHILDREN'S SELF CONFIDENCE AND IMPROVE THEIR OVERALL QUALITY OF LIFE.
SO WE SAY TO OUR CHILDREN, DRAW, PAINT, WRITE, ACT, SING, DANCE, THINK, EXPRESS, AND BE FREE TO DREAM ALWAYS.

4 MY CHILDREN FROM TUPAC SHAKUR. XXX

CELEBRATE LIFE
THROUGH THE MUSIC
THROUGH THE SPOKEN WORD
THROUGH THE SPLATTER OF
COLOUR ON PAPER
OR WOOD
OR IRON
OF CANVAS
BUT CELEBRATE YOUR LIFE
CELEBRATE YOUR ABILITY
TO FEEL JOY AND
SADNESS
CELEBRATE YOUR ABILITY TO FEEL!
ONLY THEN WILL WE BE FREE TO
FEEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

TUPAC SHAKUR. RIP.X





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[Never Give Up]

MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

THANKS 4 YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT. I KNOW THIS IS THE START OF SOMETHING SPECIAL.

[Never Give Up]

MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

SOMETHING SPECIAL

Never Give Up wrote: THANKS 4 YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT. I KNOW THIS IS THE START OF SOMETHING SPECIAL.

I'VE MADE A SIGNITURE BUT DON'T KNOE HOW TO GET IT ON MY THREADS. CAN ANYONE HELP ME?:thanks:

[Never Give Up]

MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

THINK I MIGHT OF SUSSED OUT MY SIGNIGTURE. HERE GOES

[Never Give Up]

MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

BOLLOCKS IT HASN'T WORK. HELP! SOZ BOUT SWEARING

[tawnyfrog]

MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

Well, as long as we're sharing poetry ...

This is something I wrote a while ago. So Never Give Up - I read your's ... so now read mine.




Despair is being in position where you say to yourself,
no, I can't live with it
and you go on living with it
and go on and on
by day going through the motions
and pretending and standing outisde yourself
watching yourself, like a curious spectator at a self-devouring feast

And there you are seeing yourself as another person
saying yes and no and pulling off
the little conjuring acts of living
slipping into well-worn routines
I say-I-say-I-say-a funny thing happened on the way to oblivion
to me to me to me
a funny thing

and you can't live with it and then you live with it and go on living with it and go on and on

and it

it
sucks the blood out of your marrow and
the purblind reason out of your mind
and the joy out of music
turns words into letters
pictures into daubs
friends into strangers
people into headlines
formulae into figures
re-arranges molecules
dry drunks ooze sap
and what doesn't snap?
The timber of your past is hewn, sawn and stacked

and go on living with it
and go on and on

the alternative being a bloated blue face
and vomit covered vest
in gas filled car

and go on and on

non-sleep nights
and surrealist days
when pavements gape and
traffic light scream
and books talk back
with hateful voices

arise from assaulted orifices
dissatisfied
and vengeaful still
nothing to give
nothing to take
nothing to add
nothing to subtract

and go on and on

and christ will it never end
the watching out of the corner of the mind's eye
wanting to smash a guilty leaf
pluck a vile bloom
from a dead breast
in the ashdust of a deserted world
where arid ideas fade

Crumple before harsh facts
and echo down lonely tombs
where Eros lies crucified with obscene darts

and go on and on

Pick a day any day
and treat it with the rare concern as though it were your last
(or first, it doesn't matter)
the dying and newborn
are worthy of a special concern

and besides
this is a special day
because you have to cope
like a fevered alcoholic
and it is a thing unto itself
a precious thing
a beloved obstacle

Peak after peak loom ahead to the uncertain mountaineer
and you climb
because it is there
dig your crampons deep
into shifting ice

Just one more day and the summit may loom
plant the flag and say excelsior
or die on the bitter exposed slopes of love
or go on and on
keeep climbing fool, on and on

Lack of oxygen makes you light-headed ...
but carbon monoxide makes you dead.

Think about this as you go on, and on, and on ....




OK Never Give Up - hope I've shared.

Guess I'm a shit poet but I do think a lot..

[betty boop]

MY SONS XMAS PLAY THE DAY I GAVE EVIDENCE

Never Give Up

I wish I could do more for but i'm sending you some cyberhugs

:l :l :l :l

Paula