Shezzie, welcome, you're in the right place and doing the right thing. And I think all of us here know that deep place of shame and regret. I know I do. You are not a bad person for this behaviour. Nor are you a slut. (Hey, I know what you mean K9 and I've had my slutty drunken moments too for sure but I dislike the term - it's shaming. Though I'm not saying you meant it that way but I don't think you should call yourself that either, even past tense.)
Anyway... Shez, you have a body chemistry that has become addicted to Al and that's what the problem is. This is no more a moral failing than having a fatal peanut allergy. But it IS potentially just as fatal But the good news is - there is a cure! And you've found it! Now you just need to make it stick! And the info and people here can totally help.
Though of course I feel a little hypocritical here as I can't really talk because I've been slipping and sliding lately. I keep going 2-3 weeks AF, drink too much, swear off again, go 2-3 weeks, feel better, drink.. rinse, repeat. I KNOW what I need to do. I don't quite know why I'm having such a hard time making it stick again. Ever since I broke my 80-day AF streak about 7 weeks ago with that "one drink" (yeah, right) I can't seem to get properly back on track. Let that be a lesson to any of you who have a good stretch going now. Trust me, it'll be soooo much harder to get back on track than it is to just not have that "one drink". Keep it going friends.
I've missed you all. Hope you're all doing well. (Did I miss any vital Spinach Lady updates, G? Or any other big news?) And I hope to be back on track sooner than later.
Lilly x
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