An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

G'day all,

Geez, it took awhile to find and dig up this thread from the depths of the bottomless pit of the always interesting MWO archives!

A maagnificent swim and run today, and ready for the week ahead.

No particular reason to revive this thread, it just occured to me in a dream as i was levitating.

Wishing everyone a safe, sober and magical day.

Now, where's me spinach?!

G bloke :h

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi G, well thanks very much for digging up this thead. Been lurking a little bit lately and not knowing where to post. You psychic or something??

Think I read somewhere about binges becoming heavier after some abstinence time, well that's exactly what's happened. I have sober days but then drink more than I did before I came here. Drank last night (1.5 bottles wine, yuk!) so want to come back and commit to abstinence.

Day one, again!!!!!

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

FreeFly;1472548 wrote: Hi G, well thanks very much for digging up this thead. Been lurking a little bit lately and not knowing where to post. You psychic or something??

Think I read somewhere about binges becoming heavier after some abstinence time, well that's exactly what's happened. I have sober days but then drink more than I did before I came here. Drank last night (1.5 bottles wine, yuk!) so want to come back and commit to abstinence.

Day one, again!!!!!

Hiya FF!

Yes, i am psychic, and i also levitate from time to time when no ones watching.

Sometimes we've just got to stop, and remove alcohol totally from our lives. I have to be honest with myself and look at my drinking history with cold hard precision and not rose coloured glasses. Have a great day happy and safe in the knowledge this can be a new beginning if you want it to be.

Good to see ya.

L8tr, Yo!

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi FF, good you came back when you needed too!
Hiya Mr G!!
I have kept this thread in my subscribed thread list and thought about deleting it a couple times, but lived it hope it might respark. I did enjoy this group, hopefully some of the others will come back and say hello???
So G - any spinach updates? couple of months to catch up on, spill the beans!

[paulywogg]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

hey guys,i need to post here too,i had 40 days then got cocky or something and drank,drunk posted very mean things here,i figured i already messed up so i drank and drank more than ever! this time im done,im gonna give up cigs and caffiene this go around hopefully that will help,somethings got to do the trick!

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi G, I've been thinking about my drinking history a lot recently, at least what I can remember of it, and wondering how different life would have been without it. No point dwelling though. I'm scared to say it (?!) but yes today can be, I mean is, my new beginning. Oh and yeah, any updates on the spinach front?

Hey SL - lovely to see you. Thanks for dropping by. Hope all's well. I really enjoyed this thread too and hope to see some old faces again.

Hi Pauly, good to see you too. Hope you're ok. 40 days is awesome. How did you feel? Don't dwell on the sad bits - just get back there again. I'm hoping to join you

Tucked up in bed, day one down. Night all :l

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Well done on day one FF - first step done, slowly and steadily....sleep well...

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hiya FF, SL, Pauly and all to come,

Good to see you guys!

Fairly quiet on the spinach front, at least as far as spinach woman goes. I haven't seen her since i last mentioned her here, so not holding my breath. hehe. However, i had a very nice interaction today with a woman at a cafe i often go to near work. I don't know if there's anything in it her end, but i'll be going for it if there is an entry point, so to speak. I shall of course be returning to same cafe tomorrow and thursday, so here's hoping she's working.

Hope everyone's safe and sound.

Yo!

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

paulywogg;1472734 wrote: hey guys,i need to post here too,i had 40 days then got cocky or something and drank,drunk posted very mean things here,i figured i already messed up so i drank and drank more than ever! this time im done,im gonna give up cigs and caffiene this go around hopefully that will help,somethings got to do the trick!

Good stuff Pauly. Something will click eventually. Main thing is you are still in the game, and that takes courage and self respect.

Respect, Yo.

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Guitarista;1472867 wrote:
Fairly quiet on the spinach front, at least as far as spinach woman goes. I haven't seen her since i last mentioned her here, so not holding my breath. hehe. However, i had a very nice interaction today with a woman at a cafe i often go to near work. I don't know if there's anything in it her end, but i'll be going for it if there is an entry point, so to speak. I shall of course be returning to same cafe tomorrow and thursday, so here's hoping she's working.

We look forward to next installment

Long day, tucked up in bed with chamomile tea. All is well on day 2 Nighty

[columbia]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Love the toolbox..........what a great way to start off your day..........:new:

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi y'all,

Great to see you Columbia!

Here are 2 posts from 2 members taken from the 100 day club thread this morning. The first is from Byrdlady, and the next from Fallen angel. I'm sure the ladies won't mind me sharing their inspiring thoughts here.

'I was talking the other day to some of my friends here...all the struggles sure didn't seem worth it early on. I know there were plenty of times I said, 'what's the use? I'm prolly just gonna drink again, why am I putting myself thru all this deprivation?' Is there ever an end to this longing to drink again? I'm happy to say that there is. I look back and see that I just couldn't let AL go! Denial is Public Enemy #1. I wanted to somehow make it work...was it always going to be 'that thing' out there that I wanted and couldn't have? That is the power of Addiction. Its power to make us think we can't live happily without it. Once I accepted that I am an Alcoholic, the picture began to make sense. For me, ONE drink is too many. One drink puts me back to square one...which is Stage 3 ALK. That's pretty good incentive.

Life is so much different now. It is better in every single way. I sure wish there were a way to show folks into the future. I know everyone thinks he/she is the exception. Being AF is as normal now as putting on my socks. The Drinking Mind is hard to reason with....ONLY AF time gets us here. I am so thankful to Lav...for her endless patience with me. Where would I be without her? I wish I could get thru to folks that one more drink is a dead end. It doesn't relieve the problem at all...it makes it worse. It reinforces that when we have a bad craving...we will cave in to relieve it. Like Kuya says, giving in to the temper tantrum the child is having... I guess physcologists call it positive reinforcement...that behavior is rewarded with a drink. And then that behavior gets stronger. It's a hard hole to get out of. Even the harm reduction idea grates at me like fingernails on a chalkboard. As if to say, I'm not killing myself as quickly, so it's ok.

I wouldn't take a million bucks for my 2 years sober....my quit is EVERYTHING to me...my most important possession. I EARNED it.

I hope the new folks can continue to put one day on top of the last one...until they string into a lifetime of sobriety. It IS worth the wait.

Just a thought I wanted to put down today....B'

And from Fallen angel......

'Byrd- I can so relate to your recent post of saying how you wish you could show someone their future without AL; that all the struggles to keep from having that first drink is worth the effort, no matter how hard it seems right now.
I was fortunate enough when I quit, that I had a great mentor & also the personal experience myself of going through a tough smoking quit. One of the greatest lessons I learned & used when I quit drinking was that no matter how dismal life seemed at the present time... this too shall pass. I plodded through my 3-4 months of sobriety in a very depressed state, but I knew that the only way out, was through. And so I continued on, knowing that if I just stayed sober, that this dark time would pass. There was no alternative... if I drank, I would be miserable & have to start over at square one... and did I have the strength for that, was the big question. If I stayed sober, I would be miserable for a time, but I knew it wouldn't last forever. And so I held on... held on when I wondered "what's the point", held on when all I wanted was a way to escape from myself, held on because that's all I could do if I wanted to have a life worth living.
"Keep on for keepin on" was my mantra in those dark days... that's was the extent of my energy at that time... but thankfully, it was enough.
I broke through the barrier at 6 months... it felt like emerging from a long, dark tunnel into the bright sunlight.
It's the challenging times of our journey that make us cherish & protect our sobriety. I worked hard to get sober, and I continue the vigilance every single day...
because the quality of my life depends on it.'

Take care everyone. G bloke.

[limers]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

ive got a pain in me arse with all my day bloody ones, had a good start to the year, a great start actually and since valentines its all gone tits up! So sick of my constant internal dialogue about drinking but i know itll never stop till i stop drinking. I have had alot of shit happen this week to ten days but drinking hasnt made it better, just made me feel more negative about the way i manage my life. Sighh......I dunno. Day one again!

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

limers;1473285 wrote: ive got a pain in me arse with all my day bloody ones, had a good start to the year, a great start actually and since valentines its all gone tits up! So sick of my constant internal dialogue about drinking but i know itll never stop till i stop drinking. I have had alot of shit happen this week to ten days but drinking hasnt made it better, just made me feel more negative about the way i manage my life. Sighh......I dunno. Day one again!

Hiya Limers!

Back in the saddle mate. Nice to see you.

Build the foundations again, only stronger.

[Siren136]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Limers, I'm with you. Today is day 2 for me and it's all gone bad since just about the same time.

My relationship is still in the toilet. On top of that our department is reorganizing and if I don't want a crappy role then I needed to apply for one of the new positions they've created. The only bright spot there is that there are only 2 of the 4 I applied for that require interviews. I just know I'm not going to get the one I really want as it's all very political and they are not likely to take my prior work history into account - just what I put on paper and how I come across during the interviews.

So now I need to prepare for that load of crap and disappointment. Been here before, though. At least I'm not necessarily out of a job (yet).