An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi Mr G & Molly,

You are both so VERY right in what you say. I do have to accept the fact I'm an addict. I don't think I've really done that yet. Like you said Molly,half arsed, as in the back of my head too is the idea I can drink now and again. Wrong!

So, this time I'm going to make the commitment to be truly free and I know there's only one way to do it. Going to start by pouring the remaining vino down the sink.

And of course, I feel so damn good when I don't drink. It's so easy so why do I make it so hard!

Nice to see you both by the way

[broken halo]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Tipped it down the sink

Got up this morning and there was a full glass of red and about half a bottle left from last night. The internal conversation went like this..'pour the glass back in the bottle and have it when you get home tonight...oh but it won't be enough so you'll need to buy another bottle..then the whole cycle starts again...do I really want it?' blah blah blah...

I came on here and read this thread and I've just poured the lot down the sink. Thank you people, and don't ever think you are wasting your time posting here. Tipping it down the sink is not a major achievement, but it's a start, isn't it?

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

broken halo;1220824 wrote: Got up this morning and there was a full glass of red and about half a bottle left from last night. The internal conversation went like this..'pour the glass back in the bottle and have it when you get home tonight...oh but it won't be enough so you'll need to buy another bottle..then the whole cycle starts again...do I really want it?' blah blah blah...

I came on here and read this thread and I've just poured the lot down the sink. Thank you people, and don't ever think you are wasting your time posting here. Tipping it down the sink is not a major achievement, but it's a start, isn't it?

I know that conversation Broken, and I know I'd have to buy another bottle too as it just wouldn't be enough. So my minor achievement will be achieved today as I pour it down the sink. Enough is enough

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

broken halo;1220824 wrote: Got up this morning and there was a full glass of red and about half a bottle left from last night. The internal conversation went like this..'pour the glass back in the bottle and have it when you get home tonight...oh but it won't be enough so you'll need to buy another bottle..then the whole cycle starts again...do I really want it?' blah blah blah...

I came on here and read this thread and I've just poured the lot down the sink. Thank you people, and don't ever think you are wasting your time posting here. Tipping it down the sink is not a major achievement, but it's a start, isn't it?

Good stuff Freefly. Tip that rubbish out. We don't need it. It is a myth and a big lie that we need to drink to enhance our lives, or to enjoy it. Bullshit. Always good to see you too.

Greetings Halo, and thanks for your comments re posting here. I disagree with you on one point though. Tipping the booze you had down the sink IS a major achievement i think. It's a statement you are making to yourself, and you can build from here. :goodjob:
Keep it going friend, and good to see you.

Hiya Molly and Oney!

[Juja]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Mornin' all,

My 3rd AF morning. Damn, I feel so good. I woke up happy and energized with no demons to wrestle with. Ah-h-h, bliss.

Broken Halo> I can't count the number of times I've been through that scenario. If I decided to keep the wine, I'd make sure every last drop left in the glass dripped back into the bottle. Pathetic. Good for you; it IS an accomplishment.

Out the door for a walk.

Make good choices today, everyone.:l

[Irie]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Broken Halo and Freefly.... you've inspired me to follow suit. A half a bottle of wine...down the sink. Thank you... It's a start!

[broken halo]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Freefly and Irie, well done. I don't know about you guys, but the smell of that stuff as it went down the sink was awful!

Thanks Guitarista and Juja for the words of support. I am so glad I came online this morning. Didn't buy any wine today, sober Monday for me.

Thanks again everyone.

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi Irie,

Well done. Now of course, we must hold onto our vision/dream and keep taking positive daily action

Have a safe and happy AF tuesday too Halo.

Great going on day 3 AF Juja! Keep it going.

Early tuesday morning here, and looks like blue sky's and 25C. Nice!

Falm's calm, and off to pay the bills.

Have a good one everybody!

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi Juja, Irie, G, Broken & Molls

I'm so grateful for your support. I feel sh**e I have to say but I take great comfort from all your journeys. I'm gonna make that 30 days. I know a couple of days under my belt will make me feel like a whole new woman. And I know that's all it takes! Just got to keep it going. Don't know why I keep cracking after a few days. Bloody pathetic! I really do feel like I live in a whole new happy world when I don't drink. What's wrong with me??!!! Don't want to go back to the old name! Reckon tomorrow will be a better day. Sorry for the moan up!

[broken halo]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Thanks G, you too! Your signature 'Freedom, Clarity Pride' really resonates with me. That is what I want. I feel like two people. When I am not drinking I am successful, proud, and very positive. A good person and a person I and other people like. I am so sick of drink robbing me of all these things bit by bit.

Freefly, like you I feel great when I don't drink. In fact, I feel awesome! Like you, I always flounder after a few days too, which to me is part of the great conundrum. Maybe what we did this morning is something we can add to our armoury. We both had drink and got rid of it, I don't know about you but I have never done that before.

And that just makes me wonder, what else can I do that I have never done before?

Let's hope that this is the start of something big for both of us!

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

broken halo;1221058 wrote: Thanks G, you too! Your signature 'Freedom, Clarity Pride' really resonates with me. That is what I want. I feel like two people. When I am not drinking I am successful, proud, and very positive. A good person and a person I and other people like. I am so sick of drink robbing me of all these things bit by bit.

Freefly, like you I feel great when I don't drink. In fact, I feel awesome! Like you, I always flounder after a few days too, which to me is part of the great conundrum. Maybe what we did this morning is something we can add to our armoury. We both had drink and got rid of it, I don't know about you but I have never done that before.

And that just makes me wonder, what else can I do that I have never done before?

Let's hope that this is the start of something big for both of us!

Broken, thats EXACTLY how I feel and it really doesn't take long does it? I feel so god damn good and when I feel like that I KNOW I will never drink again. And then I let that beast talk me into it. So f***ing frustrating. This time though, I want a real full on commitment with myself. 30 days is what I want. I haven't had that my whole adult life. God, that's sad, but true.

I with you, what else can I do that I've never done before.

Would love not to call you Broken by the way. My former self was "Can't believe I'm still at it". Posted while pissed and regretted the negativity of the name as I became more AF. I hope to see your shining halo soon and kiss goodbye to the broken one :h

[Irie]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Well, pouring that wine down the drain this morning was the best decision of the day. I made it through Day 1 without much trouble. Amazing, when it has seemed completely out of reach for the last few days. Anyway, I appreciate the support this morning. On to day two!

I hope you all had successes today as well. I relate to the posts from those of you on this thread, so if you don't mind I think I'll stick around and make myself accountable to you! (I'm laughing as I post this because who would have ever thought I would look forward to being a part of a thread titled "An older drunk back on day one"? Oh well, it is what it is. I'm looking forward to getting to know you, and hopefully give support to you, too.

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Irie;1221172 wrote: (I'm laughing as I post this because who would have ever thought I would look forward to being a part of a thread titled "An older drunk back on day one"? .

And i never thought after 2.5 years of recent sobriety i'd be an 'older drunk' back on day 1! :H

(Not that i refer to myself or anyone else that way at all).

Great to have you around Irie. Here's to your day 2. Rack 'em up, hour by hour, day by day, week by week, or don't count, whatever works and motivates.

One thing i've found important and useful as a tool, is watching some of the free motivational stuff on 'you tube'. e.g. Tony Robbins is a bit corny, but a lot of his content is true and spot on, and i find for example, a 6 minute clip on focus and clarity, or on purpose, or goals etc to be inspiring, and a reminder to strive to be my best. Wayne Dyer is another dude who talk's some sense quite often. Wayne gets a little 'out there' sometimes, but that's cool too. This stuff is free.

Hanging with positive people, Movies, books, museums, catch a train, drive through the country/to the ocean, hanging out in places we love, doing the things we love, keeping a positive headspace, are great things to do anytime, but especially in early sobriety. Getting some outside stimulation and getting us out of our heads. (as opposed to off our heads )

As our good friend Chillgirl remarked.....got through 7 days G-man? cool, just do that again. Or words to that effect.

Best wishes folk's. :h

[Irie]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Guitarista;1221279 wrote: Great to have you around Irie. Here's to your day 2. Rack 'em up, hour by hour, day by day, week by week, or don't count, whatever works and motivates.

Thank you, G-Man! You are such a positive guy! I appreciate the encouragement, and it does feel good to be on day two. Early, early days. I can't wait until we all are talking years of sobriety. It will happen again for you, and I will do everthing in my power to make sure I'm right there with you!

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

6.30 a.m. here on a beautiful wednesday morning. 7th day of summer, and my 5th day of re-claimed freedom. The 5th day of deciding, and choosing to take my life back.

Irie, i don't think we need to 'wait' for sobriety. It is here with me today, right now. I know what you mean though, we need to at least get that first AF week out of the way, and that can take up all our focus and energy. But my attitude is this. Once we have 'settled' i.e. our withdrawal's have settled down, and/or disappeared, which can take a while for some of us, we can seize the day. We can start to live now. There is no reason not to adopt that attitude of living right now, on day 3, 4, 5, or 12. Why not? Yep, it can be scary, new, bamboozling! even, but for me, we can decide to be who we want to be, who we are, at anytime we decide to. We don't have to wait for 6 months or 1, 2 years sobriety, we can go for it NOW.

Today i am relaxed, but ruthless with my sobriety. Today, to protect my sobriety and precious life, i will take no prisoners, there will be no mercy, there is nothing to fear, only my potential.