I recently had 2.5. yrs sobriety, and then last year did some 'experimenting.' Fortunately i didn't lose the plot and realised i prefer the 24/7 sober life. Much more fun and excitement.
I saw my drinking returning to its old ways, and could see the old gates of hell slowly opening, with the ball and chain, waiting for my return. I'm not a 'normal' drinker, and that's totally okay. Once i accepted this, i now choose not to drink, and my possibilities in this life again are limitless. The battle is over. I surrender, and accept my truth that i don't wish to exercise control over my booze intake once i start drinking, and that's totally okay. I'm not a rowdy drunk, but i do damage to ME, and this is no longer what i want, nor acceptable to ME.
What i have surrendered to, is my truth, my self, my potential, my real, true path, and the endless wonder of life.
Hope you're well there. Take care. G.
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