An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

[Trixiebelle]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Yep, I'm going to give it a go, one day at a time. I do have Topamax which I got to 50mg and no results, and then chickened out.

Actually I think I talked myself into the fact that I wasn't that bad and at times I'm not - my danger is binge drinking.

But as I say I have the perfect opportunity to give it my best shot, so that's what I plan to do.

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Trixiebelle;1354373 wrote:
The stories here are inspiring and I am jumping on board the AF wagon - not sure how far I'll get but I'm going to give it a go - I'm scared sh*tless about it all. Probably because the little demon sitting on my shoulder that pisses in my ear - you all know the one - is telling me I probably won't be able to do it....truth is I have never tried to go AF. My AL career spans over 30 years, so it's time.

Hi Trixie

Ditto on the scared sh*tless front. Can't imagine forever right now so just thinking 30 days and that's bloody scary too as haven't managed it yet.

My recent moderation attempts..... AF days followed by......Drink bottle of wine, obviously can't just have 2 drinks, but drink it early and then throw it up. That way no hangover and no calories. Hmmm, normal drinking, I think not!

Day 2 begins - off for early walk

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

The fun of MWO - I am ending day 1 and heading off to bed, and here is FF starting day 2 - blaze the way for me FreeFly and I will pick up again after my sleep - I MADE IT! Yahoo....
Good luck everyone as they start their new day....

it is hard acknowledging that moderating doesn't work - I don't want to say never, but oh my, i have tried to be a social drinker, a responsible drinker - whatever, and I can't do it....I will work on this one day at a time and enjoy the small successes, and the good times and not think too much about the future - that feels way to scary, but the future with AL is even more scary that's for sure....

night all - see you tomorrow....

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

G'night Scottish Lass,

I agree with you. The sober life and taking the leap is scary, but the alternative, a life of drinking is far scarier and deadly.

Rather than get scared, get excited!

Day 2 FF! Come on, nail it.

L8tr, Yo!

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

:yay: Scottish Lass - way to go. Wishing you a blissful sleep ready for day 2.

Mr G - your words are always so inspiring. Big thanks for this thread. I'd been lurking now and again but down on myself as I couldn't do 30 days. Was only going to post once I got there as "failed" so many times (was getting a bit embarrassing) but that didn't happen. So sticking close this time. Stuff the embarrassment, I need the help! And yes, I am going to nail it this time and yes, I'm excited about it. Staying in the flow. Lovely early doors walk on day 3 of sunshine here on the south coast

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Thanks Molly. You're so right - pride's a real bugger. Gonna let that one go now

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Freefly,

Great going on getting up again and going for it. I know no shame anymore, and pride and ego take a back seat to the job of taking back my life by living sober, and one day at a time makes a lot of sense to me. Booze and my addiction/alcoholism/problem drinking, whatever we call it, has humbled me. I'll do what it takes, whatever that is to me. It's not a really big deal or stress once i have ACCEPTED and acknowledged my relationship with booze, because then i know there is only one obvious path for me. Sobriety.

Molly, we are so lucky to have you here and contributing to this thread. Thankyou. You're amazing mate.

Keep it going y'all, and make a choice.

[LillyE]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

FreeFly;1354478 wrote: down on myself as I couldn't do 30 days. Was only going to post once I got there as "failed" so many times (was getting a bit embarrassing) but that didn't happen. So sticking close this time. Stuff the embarrassment, I need the help! And yes, I am going to nail it this time and yes, I'm excited about it. Staying in the flow. Lovely early doors walk on day 3 of sunshine here on the south coast

Freefly, hey, join the club my friend. I've been "trying" to get to 30 days for the last year and been on this site about that long. I'm just now on Day 24 and believe I will finally make it to 30 - and hopefully far beyond. But I wouldn't even be this far if I hadn't kept hanging around believing I could eventually get there.

I've been thinking about the whole moderation issue lately. I've never really tried to "moderate" as I've always known that the idea of me actually sticking to one or two - or even three - drinks regularly and reliably was a joke. Sure, I can do it sometimes in the right circumstances and company - and usually on a full stomach - but generally I drink to get drunk. I don't really see the *point* or one or two drinks, to be honest. My aim is to get blotto and once I start I just don't want to stop.

So, my struggle has more been around convincing myself that my heavy drinking isn't that unusual or destructive. (Hey, I live in Australia! I'm a journalist! Everyone drinks! I still have a job, I still have friends - it ain't so bad! ... and so on and so on and so on.)

But, bottom line, we wouldn't have made it here in the first place if we didn't know it was all a lie. For me, besides just getting really sick and tired of the increasing misery of drinking, reading here and elsewhere until my eyes bled and really learning about this addiction - and therefore blasting through the denial - has been essential. You CAN get there! You can. You can. You CAN. :l

G, always such a pleasure to see you on the boards

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Spot on Lilly, great post.

Always a pleasure to see you too. Great going on day 24, AND...........beyond.

[Dogwood Blossom]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

OK...up and going! Ready to face Day 2! Mr. G, thanks for the link to the Tool Box. I am probably aware of a lot that's in there, but obviously I need to review and get my thinking cleared up. Lots of support here on this thread. I praying another sober day for all of us. Talk to you all after while.

[clear eyes]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Good morning all! I made it through day one too. Up and at em on day 2. It is nice to have so many of us on the same day. I think that will help keep me going. I want to surpass my 88 days I had earlier this year but am only going to think about it one day at a time and let them stack up. I actually had a decent night's sleep. weeks. Hope all of you have a great day and will check in later.

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Good Morn y'all!
And it is a good one, I am feeling so much more positive.
I feel that I am one of the lucky ones as I made the 30 day - heck, I got to 66 and threw it away. I have done a lot of lurking and I do thing that posting daily was one of my reasons for succeeding last time - but FF - I get you, pride was a problem for me - to continually have to post that I didn't make it, yet again, stopped me from doing it and therefore held me back.
I am chosing my threads carefully and chosing ones where I feel supported and with folks who have similar struggles/feelings and hopefully my stupid dang pride won't keep me from succeeding with my aims! I have made the promise to myself a few times that I would sign on when I got to whatever goal (that pride thingy again!)........and that was no help at all!!
Yahoo to all of us who keep on trying, no matter what - that is what counts.
Even thou I haven't got there, I am so much better than a couple years ago, and so very much more aware - heck, that has to count for something!!

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi Scottish Lass,

Did you say you have 30 days AF? Wow, big congratulations mate.

Anyway, who cares if we have 1 hour, or 1 year booze free here. It doesn't matter. Just post away if you are having a go. If you are making an effort, then you're welcome here. If you are struggling to make an effort, and doing it tough, you are of course welcome here too, you dickhead.

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

G - i am on day 2 today, managed the 30 day in Dec and took it to 66 days, then fell - tried a few times since and fallen many times, but for some reason feeling good about this time....
I think I managed to hear that the 30 days was the golden time to be able to be safe and get back to sensible drinking, so 66 days should have no problem - but it was a lot quicker to get back to the old habits of daily bottle and more....and it has taken me over 5 months to get back in the saddle...

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

scottish lass;1354689 wrote: G - i am on day 2 today, managed the 30 day in Dec and took it to 66 days, then fell - tried a few times since and fallen many times, but for some reason feeling good about this time....
I think I managed to hear that the 30 days was the golden time to be able to be safe and get back to sensible drinking, so 66 days should have no problem - but it was a lot quicker to get back to the old habits of daily bottle and more....and it has taken me over 5 months to get back in the saddle...

Great stuff on day 2.

30 days is a golden time to be sure, but it's a golden time to open the door a bit wider, and step through, not step back.