An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

[Dogwood Blossom]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

It's funny to me how quickly the lies can start creeping back in. As for now, I have to remind myself how crappy I felt for 2 days after the last drunk! It won't feel better next time! I have to remember that. I do not & will not ever have power over my drinking! Anything other than that truth is a straight up lie!

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

This thread feels so positive and supportive ? very happy to be here, and dare I say for the zillionth time, it feels different this time!

Lilly - apart from living in Australia & being a journalist - everything you said could be me. It's really inspiring to hear you on day 24. I read your posts whilst lurking and know the struggle you went through. Well flippin done! You know what, I?m beginning to think that I can do this too. Thank you!

Safely tucked up in bed. Hope everyone had a sober day too

[Trixiebelle]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

I'm starting again, didn't even get one day under my belt, though I only had a few, so not much harm done.

I fly out tomorrow night, 28th July, so that's when my AF reign begins. No point kidding myself that it's going to happen any sooner, we have visitors tonight!!!!!

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Day 2 almost done, I have been able to have a completely different routine last two days which has helped immensely - worked from home. I will be going to office tomorrow and will have a long commute home which is a big trigger. I will just have to set up a mantra to remind me how good I feel WITHOUT AL.....
Good Luck to you all......off to bed I go

[clear eyes]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

I too have completed day 2. I felt so much better about myself today. Never really thought about having a drink tonight even though my husband poured me one after I told him at dinner I was done drinking again. I just looked at him and said "I don't want that." I have read on here so many times where many spouses have done this. I wonder why when they all probably hate us drinking. Oh well. Good night. Good luck to all tomorrow on day 3!

[LillyE]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

FreeFly;1354810 wrote: Lilly - apart from living in Australia & being a journalist - everything you said could be me. It's really inspiring to hear you on day 24. I read your posts whilst lurking and know the struggle you went through. Well flippin done! You know what, I’m beginning to think that I can do this too. Thank you!

Thank you! And you're welcome

I know where you're coming from completely as I've felt that utter frustration and sense of failure for not even being able to make it to 30 days. Whilst not wanting to encourage slipping, for many of us it's clearly a part of the process. I know that my thinking around Al has changed a lot over the year of coming here, reading, learning, sharing, and really trying to address my issues and addiction. I have a lot further to go but I believe it's still progress even if less than ideal. What would really be failure is if you chucked it all in and just sank back into the bottle and that dark pit of denial.

I know I've found it really encouraging here to read of now long-termers who struggled for a long time to get Al free as it has helped me feel it is possible regardless. I do think we have to reach a turning point and - particularly for those of us who haven't reached a clear rock bottom - part of getting there might be flailing around for awhile and failing and failing and getting more and more frustrated. Sure makes it harder to enjoy drinking when you do, right?

You can get there! Get a plan and embrace it. Figure out what's made you drink again before and learn from it. And feel free to PM me if you need an ear.

:l

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

This is where the healing begins,
It starts right here right now,
I am humbled and broken, but i let the light in to meet the darkness,
Walking through the rain, with my head up to greet it, to greet anything,
anything except the darkness that i am comfortable in,
too comfortable with,
As Melbourne sky's open with thunder and rain, the lightning cracks loudly on the street i walk on,
The dark and the light, fighting gloriously for something,
What a grand spectacle to behold, as the light meets the dark,
They put on this show for me? Me? the court jester, the hypocrite, the clown,
Well, i don't quite know what the racket's about, but i do know this.........
Today i am humbled. The walls are down, the ego has left the building, and the healing has begun.

To the light.


(I'd better add one of these to let you know all's very well )

[Dogwood Blossom]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Starting Day 3! Feeling good this morning. Headed to work. Check in later.

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Great stuff DB. Keep it going friend.

Just picking up on some earlier chat, re embarrassment or being ashamed to post at times, well, who cares? It doesn't matter does it? It's history, so we just need to get on with it, taking away a lesson learned of course.

I feel i have reached a new level of unashamed, lol. A purer, truer place where now, i couldn't give a damn how i appear, present, or look, as long as i am being true to me, and going for something, and standing for something, whatever that might be. So here i am, naked, no ego, real. The court jester, the clown, the hypocrite, the musician and community worker who does grand things for others, but will just as easily and quickly cut himself down. You've heard it all before and that's okay. It doesn't matter to me.

What matters to me is the choices i will make today, and the pride and empowerment i will feel within when i act on those choices, and take control. And i will live in the now, and treasure the moment.

Just some thought's. Thanks for reading.

[Kradle123]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Looking forward to being in that place too someday...

:l

[clear eyes]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

G- Thanks for starting this thread back up. I feel very comfortable on this one and love all the inspiration that you give. The song is great. For some reason this time is much easier for me than the first. I think it was because I was so angry the first time at the thought of not drinking but this time I know how good it felt to not. I've enjoyed the past two mornings waking up without loathing myself for what I did the night before. On to day 3 and I am sure it promises to be even better than yesterday. I wish everyone a wonderful AF Thursday!

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Day 3 - stuck on here when in the office, steeling myself up for getting home without stopping, my car has automatic pilot, so I will have to steer strongly in a different direction!! So hope I do this as I feel so dang good!!
Hiya to all other fresh starters!!

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi Lilly

I was contemplating your post on my walk today. I resonate with so much that you?ve said. You?re helping me to take a step back and look at the bigger picture (thank you). I can see that I?ve actually come a long way since finding this site, and rather than berating myself for not having been the super perfect quitter on 1st, 2nd, 3rd etc etc attempts, I can see that my thinking is actually changing. I feel so much calmer about my quit than I did first time round. I?m not plagued by the constant inner battle ? yes, it rears its head and the intensity takes me by surprise when it does come, but I?m feeling better about reaching that 30 day point. Thinking beyond then brings up too much thinking! Just wanting to stay in the moment right now. Did have to exercise a bit of self control this evening ? but did it

Loving your post Mr G. You?re a shining light on here. Thanks again for the thread. Was also contemplating the whole pride thing today and how it sabotages my connection with my higher self. Time spent in the flow is increasing and with it a sense of peace. All I have to do is non-do!

Dogwood, Clear Eyes and Scottish Lass ? you?re all sounding great. Trixie ? the 28th sounds like a good day to quit. We can do this :h

[Dogwood Blossom]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Got a war of wills going on in my head! Will probably grab a bite to eat and go to bed! Looking forward to that clear, strong feeling that comes in the morning after a sober night!

[clear eyes]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

I do too Dogwood! It is the witching hour and just got done cleaning. So warm here. Would be nice to sit on the patio with something cool. Can't believe how good I was feeling this morning and now these thoughts are with me. I have 5 hours until I can go to bed.