An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Well done DB.

Sometimes we just have to plough on through and keep distracted and busy, as each AF day is one day further away from the hell, and another day of freedom, towards happiness and self respect. Each minute/hour, we are moving forward towards our goal even if sometimes it seems time is standing still.

Off to bed here for me as it's late.

Take care all.

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Way to go Dogwood Hope this evening's easier for you. Had a wee battle this evening but only lasted about 10 mins - that's progress. Quiet evening in watching some Olympics with lots of water!

[Dogwood Blossom]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Anybody ever have to deal with just being pissed off? I'm happy to feel better, but still having moments when I wish I was like everyone else. I don't totally understand what exactly I'm pissed about but I know this evening, I am. :0/

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Dogwood Blossom;1356421 wrote: Anybody ever have to deal with just being pissed off? I'm happy to feel better, but still having moments when I wish I was like everyone else. I don't totally understand what exactly I'm pissed about but I know this evening, I am. :0/

Hey DB, cos we have to go struggle through this crap to try and be "normal". You're doing great and we're unique! Hang in there

[Dogwood Blossom]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Thank you FF. I've eaten and so I'm going to take some of the advice I got here and get back to some reading. I love to read so being sober, I will be able to follow the story line. When drinking, I pretty much give up on the notion of reading.

[Running4life]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

DB I know the struggle, I had it at dinner tonight. I wanted that first sip of a cold beer or a few gulps of wine and then relief, (but only temporary). I wanted to enjoy my morning more. It is important for us to play out the tape in our heads before taking the drink. How will the evening progress, will I be happy with two drinks? How will I feel tomorrow if I have too much.
I find most times this gets me through. I also relish the good sleep. I hate the racing heart and sweats after a night of drinking.
Happy to have made it through another day AF, hope you all had the same success. Enjoy your clear headed morning tomorrow.
R4L

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Uggggg - tough evening - DG, if I followed thru on the many excuses I have made tonight to drive to the stores, I would not be coming back with just food - that I know! Trying hard to stay superglued to couch, but the voices are screaming at me.....so many triggers tonight, so many great reasons for a drink - and they would be if I would just have one....sad tonight......disillusioned too....I knew it would come, it was a little too easy

[clear eyes]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Fnally getting a chance to check in. Made it through day 5. Easier day for me today. This is my first 5 days since May.
DB- I too was pissed today. I remember being like this last time. Everyone made me mad but then we had a big family dinner so had to come around.
Scottish Lass- I am in your time zone.
R4L- I too thought about if I had a drink. What would one do for me? That wouldn't be enough! Kept me away from it.

[lifechange]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

hey G, it helped me to read your thread this morning--i liked what you said about taking every minute/hour as a step towards our goal. sometimes time does feel as if it's standing still. and it seems as if the craving or urge will never cease. but of course it does.
thanks,
Life

[Dogwood Blossom]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Oh Scottish Lass...I hope you found the right reason and the strength. I am starting Day6, so thankful I didn't surrender last night. I'm pulling for you Lassie!

It helps me just knowing there are others on this thread who know exactly what I'm dealing with and nobody is judging me!

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Looks like everyone here is conquering their struggles - brilliant!

Day 6 for me. This & day 7 are my usual stumbling blocks - not made it to day 8 so far (sad but true). Feeling calm and focused. Not giving up the quit this time

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

scottish lass;1356446 wrote: so many great reasons for a drink -....sad tonight......disillusioned too....I knew it would come, it was a little too easy
No great reasons to drink for me Scottish Lass. Just excuses, heaps of them, and all leading to the same place.....hell. My illusion and false perceptions about AL could kill me well before my time. AL is one big lie to me. How did you go?

lifechange;1356606 wrote: hey G, it helped me to read your thread this morning--i liked what you said about taking every minute/hour as a step towards our goal. sometimes time does feel as if it's standing still. and it seems as if the craving or urge will never cease. but of course it does.
thanks,
Life

Ah, cool LC. Nice to see you. Hope you're well.

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi all - got thru last night, but first thought on waking was one of those demon thoughts.
G - you are right, there are no good reasons, but it really felt like it last night.
My husband and I seperated 18 months ago, and I am still struggling with this. Our girls spend a week with each of us. Last week was "my week" - they both love horses and I had found them a horse camp on the beach for a week - so they spent a fabulous week riding on the beach and spending every waking minute with horses and new friends - we went to pick them up yesterday, then they dropped their bags off and went straight to their fathers. So I was tired, lonely and a little angry - Lav on Newbies nest talks about HALT (hungry, angry, lonely and tired) and I was pretty much there. No reasons, but a pile of triggers. Drinking would not help any of them, just make them worse - my head tells me that loud and clear, but my heart is heavy.
I will succeed - I have enough to keep me busy today, will nip to grocery store early before the voices get too strong.
Thank Goodness for MWO - I would not have stayed strong last night without it - that is for sure.
Thanks for the support....

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

wow - that was a pity party wasn't it! That was all about me!
Well done DG - you sound a bit more positive today - yes, it is good to be able to connect with others who really understand.
FF - you will get to 8 and beyond, we are all here rooting for you - this is the time for all of us here, I can fell it in my bones :H even though we are fighting hard to succeed, everyone sounds so strong.
LC - good to see you, I love this thread, and G's posts are spot on.
G - are you still on track? you send such great inspirational messages and push us on, but don't look for much from us! Such a great team leader:thanks:
CE - glad day 5 was a good one for you.
Day 6 today - tomorrow will be a week!!

[Dogwood Blossom]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

I was thinking this morning about why I might be pissed. This is a weird place we are all in; not really happy yet in the sober world, maybe even a little resentful; certainly not happy in the AL world! There's only one way to find happiness and that is to work through it till the sober world becomes "normal" again. I know it can happen.

SL, Clear Eyes, FF, so glad you all made it another day! I'm off to the parents today. Actually because it is Sunday, the liquor & wine stores are closed. It's like a little reprieve. No need to really think about it cause they are closed! Sober, happy day everyone.