An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi y'all,

Congratulations on day 11 CW. Sensational!

Hello and welcome Dodo and Tina. Good to see you here. Nice post Dodo. We must never give up. The benefits are well worth the effort, and not as painful or as difficult as living the daily hell of booze and self abuse.

Best wishes everyone. Take care, and keep it going.

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Juja;1242820 wrote: hangover free! HFM=hangover free morning. I make that kind crap up.:H

DDH>7 days in 12 years?!?! Come on, that's damn good.:goodjob: Good luck with the a-hole. I hope you don't let him prevent you from making it to 8 days.

Tiny Tina> Welcome! The basement's dark, as none of us has found the switch, but come on down with us, as we're desperately searching for it. Safety in numbers, you know.

Juja - Hope it's another HFM(like it!)/AF day for you. Day 5s a wobbly one my end so don't do a me. Can't wait to be cheering you at 7 days. Keep it going.

DDH - I worked with a pompous a***hole in my last job and he really wound me up. Now I look back I can't believe how much the idiot got under my skin, and yes I'd go home and drink. Try not to let him take your power away and definitely don't let him make you go back to AL. 7 days in 12 years is awesome!

Hi TT :welcome: from me too. Yes, come help us find that switch!

DD - fantastic job on avoiding the triggers - gonna learn a little lesson from you methinks.

Hey Mr G - wishing you a fab and happy day.

Day 3 for me - hypnos seem to be helping a lot but I don't like to tempt fate.

[Clockwatcher]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

day 12, no booze but really scared about today as its thursday ( a traditional drinking with the boys night for me...) and I have those stupid thoughts that 12 days shows I can handle now so I am wresteling with myself all afternoon.....need to avoid anyplace with booze and anyone who may suggest grabbing a cocktail.....could be a good day to go home early, get to bed early and live to fight another day....its not that I'm a coward its just that I am scared to death of my addictions...

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

CW - get yourself home where you know you're safe. No cowardice there - just protecting your quit. The time will come when you're ready to be around booze. That would be my advice. Stay strong

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

FreeFly;1243451 wrote: CW - get yourself home where you know you're safe. No cowardice there - just protecting your quit. The time will come when you're ready to be around booze. That would be my advice. Stay strong

Good advice from Freefly CW.

I am in the trenches and the front line with you all on day 2.

Take care folk's, and keep it going.

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Guitarista;1243513 wrote:
I am in the trenches and the front line with you all on day 2.

Now I know you know how to make it out of these trenches Mr G so I'm sticking with you this time Day 3 this end and feeling ok. Day 5 is my really wobbly one! (absolutely no idea why though)

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

FreeFly;1243527 wrote: Now I know you know how to make it out of these trenches Mr G so I'm sticking with you this time Day 3 this end and feeling ok. Day 5 is my really wobbly one! (absolutely no idea why though)

No worries Freefly.

Congratulations on day 3. Maintain the vision.

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Zenstyle;1243580 wrote: This thread is something else. I've just read back and it is AWESOME to see people sharing and being so open... it gave me a very warm feeling.

I'm always loathe to share where I'm at for risk of failure and I think all you guys are incredibly brave and honest. There's nothing worse than going down the tubes and disappointing yourself and others, but you have all been so up front... its made an impact on me reading your posts.

Its not the success or failure along the way, its the determination to ultimately get to where you want to be... and to never give up.

Good luck to every last one of you... you are all hanging tough and fighting the good fight... in an exemplary manner I might add! :l

Hiya Zen,

Honesty is where it's at for me. That is, honesty with myself. This is why i am honest here. It means i have to remain honest and accountable (to ME) on my journey, and another reason is that my/our journies here may inspire or get someone else thinking and most importantly, doing.

I also find honesty leaves no room for ego, and hence fooling oneself.

Good to see you, and feel free to contribute anytime friend. :welcome:

[RingingCedars]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

I read this the other day and reading today's conversation here made me think of it so I'm sharing.

Friends, acquaintances, even family often think warriors are obsessed or compulsive, but that isn't true. Obsessive and compulsive behaviour are, by definition, traits of individuals unable to control themselves. The warrior is just the opposite; he is the model of control. The warrior doesn't seek pain, fear, fatigue, and the other unpleasant byproducts of constant training because he likes them. But he knows they are obstacles between him and his objectives. His goal is to overcome them, and he knows that to defeat an enemy, he must attack. It isn't that the warrior is driven. He is the driver. FORREST MORGAN, Living the Martial Way

[RingingCedars]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Is that not what we're training for here??

[beagle]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Zenstyle;1243592 wrote: Now that I've caught up on the thread, I'll be checking in... thanks. )

I have to agree with the thoughts on moderating. I can moderate well for a long stretch but its ultimately led to a disaster.

I think I've gone so long and so far with this addiction that there is only one resolution, and that's abstinence. I'm slow on the uptake though! LOL! I want to buck the trend and think I'm different... more able to handle it... and that is absolute rubbish. Deep down I know the only way I'm going to be happy and at peace is if I knock it on the head.

Alcoholic thinking is a difficult one to get around. Just a couple of months ago I was tits up after letting it get out of hand. Ended up having to detox (at home, have never done rehab etc.) again. And the wee shite of a voice inside my head still tells me "you can control it". WTF?

I'm hard wired to drink... simple as that. And the only chance I have of escaping that dog & pony show is to be totally AF. Like a lot of people here said, I don't want 1 or 2 glasses of wine. Hell no... I want to get numb... nothing less will do. So every time I drink socially I'm walking a tightrope. And there's only ONE answer to that...

Funny how something so simple seems so hard, eh?

Good post Zen.
I'm reading this thread also.

[Juja]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

RingingCedars;1243590 wrote: Obsessive and compulsive behaviour are, by definition, traits of individuals unable to control themselves. FORREST MORGAN, Living the Martial Way

Very, very interesting. I'll be thinking about that for awhile, and not only in reference to AL.

[broken halo]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Thanks to everyone on this thread, I am amazed to say I am on day 12 AL free. My 2nd AL free weekend approaches and tbh, I am more nervous about this one than the last one. Over the last two days I have felt the complacency that I have read about, that 'I can handle it' thing that comes with a little AL free time.

The shakes and withdrawals that were my major motivation to stop are fading in my memory, sneaky thoughts of 'oh, just a few glasses, you deserve it' are creeping slowly and insidiously into my brain in their place. This is never going to be a picnic. I am scared, it's like the honeymoon period is over, now it's the real deal.

Free, well done on day 3/4 I am probably miles behind but good on ya :hug

G, welcome back to the trenches :l

CW, tina, Juja, everyone, have a great weekend. I will probably be around a lot more and very needy over the next couple of days, be prepared!

[Juja]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

broken halo;1243615 wrote: Thanks to everyone on this thread, I am amazed to say I am on day 12 AL free. My 2nd AL free weekend approaches and tbh, I am more nervous about this one than the last one. Over the last two days I have felt the complacency that I have read about, that 'I can handle it' thing that comes with a little AL free time.

The shakes and withdrawals that were my major motivation to stop are fading in my memory, sneaky thoughts of 'oh, just a few glasses, you deserve it' are creeping slowly and insidiously into my brain in their place. This is never going to be a picnic. I am scared, it's like the honeymoon period is over, now it's the real deal.

Free, well done on day 3/4 I am probably miles behind but good on ya :hug

G, welcome back to the trenches :l

CW, tina, Juja, everyone, have a great weekend. I will probably be around a lot more and very needy over the next couple of days, be prepared!

Dearest BH,

I'll check in off and on. Maybe we can help each other, as I'm having some cravings, too. Damn I hate this.

I'm going to an auction on Saturday, though, but should be around in the evening. If I'm able to get what I want there, I'll really be in trouble as I'll want to celebrate. Uh-oh. Need to plan for this. Oh, hell, I won't be able to afford it. What am I thinking!?!?!

Remember, you told me you'd had withdrawal symptoms even though you hadn't consumed mass quantities of AL....scared the crap out of me. Just a reminder.:l

Love,
Juja:h

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Zenstyle;1243580 wrote: This thread is something else. I've just read back and it is AWESOME to see people sharing and being so open... it gave me a very warm feeling.

I'm always loathe to share where I'm at for risk of failure and I think all you guys are incredibly brave and honest. There's nothing worse than going down the tubes and disappointing yourself and others, but you have all been so up front... its made an impact on me reading your posts.

Its not the success or failure along the way, its the determination to ultimately get to where you want to be... and to never give up.

Good luck to every last one of you... you are all hanging tough and fighting the good fight... in an exemplary manner I might add! :l

What a lovely post! No other way for me ? I have to be honest but I did feel like a bit of a loser doing it. I?m beginning to change that thinking though with the help of everyone?s amazing support here and now Oney?s hypnos. Beginning to not be so hard on myself (very old pattern that one ? kinda what got me into AL in the first place). With AL I could transcend all that heavy duty beat up conditioning (at least for a while). But that began a VERY long time ago. I digress! Anyway, great to see you. Oh and I?m with you on the 1 or 2 glasses thing. What would be the point of that? My absolute favourite is (sorry, was) drinking alone. Shutting the door with my bottle and cigs and numbing out. No-one to disturb me, bother me, question me ? just me in my hazy (and lazy!) little bubble. Anyways today begins day 4 AF & NF

RC I really like Forrest Morgan thing. Reckon I?m learning to drive at the moment!

Broken & Juja ? thinking of you two. Keep strong. I have no idea what 2 weeks is like Broken so can?t advise but pretty sure you?ll feel amazing on Monday when you make it through. Juja ? can?t wait to applaud your 7 days. Then you?ll be on to double figures!!! Cool x

Happy Friday to all