An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

[lifechange]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

I've also found it difficult to count days. mostly because the stress of having to admit another day 1 hasn't kept me from drinking--but it's almost kept me from coming back to this site. i've also decided to quit counting days--like Reggie so helpfully said, for me it's just about knowing that i can't drink EVER. that being said, if i slip, i don't want to beat myself up to the point of thinking, "what's the point?".
i hope that everyone finds a way to make this work for themselves. i know i get a lot of support here and feel more positive about a life without. about the possibility(ies).

wishing you all a great weekend!

[Juja]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

lifechange;1255615 wrote: I've also found it difficult to count days. mostly because the stress of having to admit another day 1 hasn't kept me from drinking--but it's almost kept me from coming back to this site. i've also decided to quit counting days--like Reggie so helpfully said, for me it's just about knowing that i can't drink EVER. that being said, if i slip, i don't want to beat myself up to the point of thinking, "what's the point?".
i hope that everyone finds a way to make this work for themselves. i know i get a lot of support here and feel more positive about a life without. about the possibility(ies).

wishing you all a great weekend!

Ditto... No more counting of days for me. Waking up sober, as Reg said, is the thing to do. (Needs to be in the toolbox, IMHO)

[sunshinedaisies]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

GO YOU JUJA - well done !! One day at a time - slow and steady wins the race - right?? :l

Sun

[Juja]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Right, Sun, and no more counting days.

Whew! Been cooking and cleaning all day. I believe that's enough. It's been a good day, though. I love it when my nest's in order.

Watercolor show tomorrow. I love watercolors. don't buy anything, don't buy anything

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi everyone,

Great to see you Sun and Lifechange.

I was just reflecting earlier. You know, there is no shame here, no embarassment, no failure. I'm sure we have all been far more embarassed when drinking than when trying to quit and stay stopped. No-one judges here. So, let's all get embaressed together, and get on with the job of sobriety, and taking our precious lives back.

There is no failure. This is a process that can take some time and effort. Some folks are ready to change now, others are still searching. It doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that we just keep putting one foot in front of the other every day and keep going for it. :h

[Eve11]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Guitarista;1200091 wrote: Going for 30 day's and beyond, and taking back my life again!

Guitarista,

You have always been one of my favorite people here and you have taught me to be a more conscientious poster on the mod board because I never want to contribute to the thought process that moderating is wonderful. Read long term mod, Jan, last post (mine) and you will know what I mean. You are a freebird when you go AF. Keep flying my friend.
Love and big :l
Eve11
Addendum: Guitarista, I needed to edit this post as I don't want any of the new modders to think I am talking about them regarding what I said about "contributing to the thought process that moderating is wonderful" as stated above. You and I have been here for years and have had many posts back and forth and experiences here. I know you will probably understand who I was referring to when I said that...the overly zealous modder who would come to the AF boards and "flaunt" his success at moderating. Yin/yang and good and bad to everything. He taught me not to be so boastful and to post a little more carefully. However, with that being said, moderaters don't want to walk on eggshells and want the freedom to post what they emotionally need to say so I have always appreciated you coming to our site and giving all the moderators the respect they deserve. Big hugs to you and may you always be blessed on your personal journey to success.
:l
Eve11

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Eve11;1255881 wrote: Guitarista,

You have always been one of my favorite people here and you have taught me to be a more conscientious poster on the mod board because I never want to contribute to the thought process that moderating is wonderful. Read long term mod, Jan, last post (mine) and you will know what I mean. You are a freebird when you go AF. Keep flying my friend.
Love and big :l
Eve11

Hiya Eve,

Nice to see you as always.

Wishing you a happy and healthy year.

Thankyou. :h

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Thank you so much for this thread - I am needing to post a return to day 1, well actually day 2 now after a great 66 day run, and I almost felt like giving up on MWO just as I did not want to post this.
Instead of reflecting on my success at reachimg 66 days, which is HUGE for me, I was wallowing in the one day slip.
I am going to take advice from here and enjoy the succeses that I have and not beat myself up for the slips.
Many thanks all...

[available]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

congrats scottish lass on 66 days. be proud of that and dont ponder on the slip up. god i wish i could make 7 days let alone 66. al certainly has such a big hold on our lives which is sad but we can only keep on going. take care

hello all my lovely mwo friends. off to work and it is so much cooler in Aus today than it has been. funny how the heat is a trigger to wanting to drink. quench that thirst! maybe water is a better idea.

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

scottish lass;1256424 wrote: Thank you so much for this thread - I am needing to post a return to day 1, well actually day 2 now after a great 66 day run, and I almost felt like giving up on MWO just as I did not want to post this.
Instead of reflecting on my success at reachimg 66 days, which is HUGE for me, I was wallowing in the one day slip.
I am going to take advice from here and enjoy the succeses that I have and not beat myself up for the slips.
Many thanks all...

SL - I can only echo Available's words - 66 days is fantastic. Focus on that, and that alone. So you had a slip - don't beat yourself up. That would be more likely to send you back down the slippery slope. You're doing great.

AV - lol - I'm with you on the 7 day thing :h

[broken halo]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

scottish lass;1256424 wrote: Thank you so much for this thread - I am needing to post a return to day 1, well actually day 2 now after a great 66 day run, and I almost felt like giving up on MWO just as I did not want to post this.
Instead of reflecting on my success at reachimg 66 days, which is HUGE for me, I was wallowing in the one day slip.
I am going to take advice from here and enjoy the succeses that I have and not beat myself up for the slips.
Many thanks all...

So glad I logged in and read this. I slipped too and had a horrible weekend. I also thought about not coming back here as I felt I had let people down. I had 32 days, I was wallowing too. I can see now that I should be more proud of the AL free time that I had and build on that.

Hi to everyone, Juja, FF, Av, G, Eve. Lifechange and sunshine, I am not going to count days any more. The minute I got to 30 I was thinking about drinking. I feel a little less despondent after logging on and reading this thread, so thanks everyone. :h

[Irie]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

I also slipped, about a week ago, and wasn't able to bring myself back here to post about it. I'm not beating myself up, but on the other hand I also know this isn't how I want to live. Every day in this last week or so has been sad and disappointing, nothing like the fun times I sometime imagine I would be having if I were to allow myself to drink.

I've struggled with whether I should call this day one (again) or just move forward and not count days. For me, for now, I'm going to keep counting. I need to set the bar high for myself or I will find a way to give myself permission to drink. And I just can't do that. So Febuary 6 is my Day One.

I appreciate knowing there are others of you in the same place who are working just as hard as I am. Let's start racking ups those AF days.

[FreeFly]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi Broken & Irie,

Just want to reiterate what I said to SL. Please don't beat yourselves up, you've been doing so well. Why let all that good feeling go to waste? Least you know which state of mind you prefer now.

Wishing all a happy and sober week.

FF :l:l

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

It is great to have such support as we work through this. I am sorry others are slipping, but I am glad I am in such good company, Thanks for all the kind words and truth in what is said, I appreciate it a lot, and happy to be here and continuing the war!

[Irie]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

I think I finally got my head screwed on straight! Came home from work and didn't stop for wine. That's a good start. Thanks for the kind words and support. This site is such a blessing! The happy calm feeling I have tonight is why I want this so badly. I hope everyone else is having a good day, too, and making progress.