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    #1051
    An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

    Thanks for the link Lilly.

    Great read, and great site.

    Kick some ass everyone, in your own inimitable way of course.

    'I am part of all that I have met, yet all experience is an arch wherethro', gleams that untravelled world whose margins fade, forever and forever when I move'

    Zen soul Warrior. Freedom today-

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      #1052
      An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

      Thanks Lilley, Found it really interesting.:thanks::thanks:

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        #1053
        An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

        Thanks Lilly - great article.
        You are not chastising at all - this is why I am here, to try to learn and work out how to heal myself. When I read others stories, I know I have not reached rock bottom, but good grief, I really don't want to - that is for sure! I do have continual thoughts of being able to moderate - or be a social drinker, which I would really like - but I know I can't - as soon as I try, I spiral out of control - I just have to get that into my thick head!!
        I appreciate the information, and please never ever hesitate or worry as to how it may be percieved - if we could do this without help or input we would not be here.
        Happy Sunday all - in the middle of a heat wave here and ugg it is hot!!
        “The only courage you will ever need is the courage to live the life you want"

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          #1054
          An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

          A quick check in from me. SL - sorry to hear you had a wee slip up but brilliant job of getting straight back on here. Hope you're feeling safely sober again now. Loads of great posts to read back on.

          Spent most of the day in bed as wasn't feeling well - think all part of my body healing, yes more sleep! Lilly I was glad to hear that it was normal in your recovery and that the sleep issue does lessen to 7/8hours. Teary too today but happy tears that finally I can see the light at the end of this long dark tunnel I've been living my life in.

          Was introduced to kryia yoga on Saturday which was so special. If you get the chance give it a whirl. It's a series of breathing techniques to help raise consciousness and move gently through any blocks. I was taught by the most beautiful spiritual being. Felt blessed to have been there - will shut up about that now as I sound like a nutter but it was great Probably why I've spent most of the day in bed too.

          Just got up to watch a bit of closing ceremony. Happy Sunday to all xx
          You were born with wings, why prefer to crawl through life? Rumi

          :lilangel:

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            #1055
            An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

            Well I think that's enough camping for me for a very long while !
            :egad:

            Yesterday was actually more stressful than my whole 4 days LAST weekend were

            I won't get into it but suffice to say that I learned to 1. definitely honor my instincts (which told me NOT to go and 2 . that I love my kids more than I love telling complete fucking assholes where to go....

            So I was close. Real close to drinking which would have been difficult actually as there really wasn't any AL involved (proving again that sober people can be just as crazy and awful as drunk people) and we got home after 11 last night so no stores open...

            I kept thinking about what Mr. G. said regarding being unable to do this solely on will power. He's right. I have had to get a boatload of support, mostly from here, to do what I dd yesterday. It fricken sucked and there is no way in this wide world I would not have had drinks to cope with how I felt. But I also know that had I done that I think I just would have been gone in my head, resigned, given up, finite so to speak and I'm Not ready to fail at this yet...I really need to be successful at something

            So anyway, there's my .50 cent lament. At least the weather was wonderful and the lake dreamy and the kids had an absolute blast. I think I'm giving them a pretty good Summer so far...Oh! And I did make a new friend who doesn't drink and I really liked her so not a total waste for me.

            Hope everyone is enjoyning a peaceful Sunday. Boy is it hot here

            Big hugs,
            :l
            On My Own Way Out Since May 20, 2012
            *If you think poorly of yourself, you can fail with a clear conscience.
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              #1056
              An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

              Hi everyone,

              Bravo Kradle. There's always a positive somewhere isn't there?

              Closing Olympic ceremony was cool. Geez, the Spice girls, the Who, and the highlight for me (though i didn't see the whole ceremony) was a vid of Freddy Mercury and a live Brian May and Queen with singer Jessie J. I'm not one for watching sport on t.v. often, but enjoyed the events i saw.

              FF, that yoga sounds great. Will you be a regular at it?

              All very good here, and wishing everyone a safe, sober and happy week ahead. :h

              'I am part of all that I have met, yet all experience is an arch wherethro', gleams that untravelled world whose margins fade, forever and forever when I move'

              Zen soul Warrior. Freedom today-

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                #1057
                An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

                Hey Kradle - well you've put yourself to the test recently! Awesome job on surviving all that AF and no experience of Tent Hangover :yay

                re ceremony - what was that with Liam Gallagher's voice - he never used to sound like that, did he??!

                Anyway, G, yes Kryia yoga will become daily practise for me and Swami will come visit us again in a couple of months :-) hanging out with the happy people :-). Have your read Autobiography of a Yogi? They talk about the kryias in there.

                Monday morning here and feeling good. Big hellos out to DB, SL, CE, Marhall, Lilly, G and all. Hope today's a happy one. :l
                You were born with wings, why prefer to crawl through life? Rumi

                :lilangel:

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                  #1058
                  An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

                  Good Morning all! Day 21! I'm very excited about 21! I still battle almost daily, but not as much and I'm definitely able to focus on the benefits! I think I'm beginning to wake up a little more as well. I didn't spend my entire weekend sleeping as I've done the past two, and I'm putting things back in order from the mess I made during my last big drunk! God! Finding stuff everywhere. I don't dare ask my hubby why this is here or that is there, cause I'm pretty sure I did it! I lost things that I may never find again. Had baskets full of sheets & towels & washcloths that I'm pretty sure I washed but don't know why I washed all together and so many. Decided the safest thing to do is rewash! Found a carton of ice cream in the freezer that looks like I literally chewed it open! That's just a few things. I think you all get the picture! A little drunk woman, alone in her home, just doing totally insane things!!! GEEZ! Why would I even have a thought about going back to that?!?! That is the insanity of alcohol!

                  Kradle - so glad you found this place. It's incredible the support you will find here. I don't KNOW any of the people here, but I do! We are all cut from the same cloth and I know that when I share myself, everyone on this thread understands where I'm coming from. I feel your pain. So glad you survived your camping trip!

                  SL - I'm very happy you are here and getting yourself together. We can do this!

                  FF - 21 for you today too!

                  Lilly, Mr G - always good words from you.

                  To all the rest; CE, Marhall, Boozer; to all of us....a sober, happy, AF day!

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                    #1059
                    An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

                    Ok all - Here we go again.

                    I'll put more in a separate thread. But I'm buckling in.
                    That popping sound you hear is me attempting to remove my head from my arse. It's been there for years so this may take a while.
                    Admitting I need healing. And I am not big enough to do this alone.
                    AF - August 20, 2012

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                      #1060
                      An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

                      DG and FF congratulations on day 21!!!!! I am so proud of you!

                      I read your link Lilly. Good stuff. Like SL I need to wrap my head around that I will never be able to moderate. Now it is almost like once I slipped I thought will I better drink more now before I try again.

                      So here I go again......Great to see everyone. Here's to a wonderful Monday. Kradle you and I live in the same area (well almost). Beautiful weather here!!!

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                        #1061
                        An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

                        I will have to learn how to do quotes - CE you are so right, that summed up my weekend unfortunately - so mad with myself "Now it is almost like once I slipped I thought will I better drink more now before I try again. " I have to get my stupid brain sorted out - hate do over mondays, I was enojying the relief of not drinking, it is so easy just to blow it!
                        “The only courage you will ever need is the courage to live the life you want"

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                          #1062
                          An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

                          SL - it IS easy to just blow it! I blew it after 20 years! What the heck was I thinking? I wasn't. Somehow after all those years, in a weak moment, one of the lies took root. And then I watered it, and fussed over it and fertilized it and it became a full blown fall! Today is a do over for you. So? You are still alive, which means you CAN still do over! You can do it. Think about the mornings....just think about the mornings! Those are enough to make you want it. Rested, guilt-free. You can do it!

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                            #1063
                            An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

                            You too Clear Eyes! You all are hanging around here which just says you want something different. Take hold and get started. You can do it to Clear Eyes!

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                              #1064
                              An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

                              Hi CE & SL, I think it's important to remember your AF time. Please don't be too hard on yourselves - it really doesn't serve to move forward - just keeps you in a 'feeling bad' place and you're more likely to drink then, IMHO. Not sure how many days you got to but I think it was around 2 weeks. That's really, really good. Let the slip go, just forget about it - dwell on the 'feel good' feelings and they'll increase. We only ever have the moment so just be sober in that :-)

                              Hi DB - you're sounding good there on day 21. Let's keep it going.

                              Prairie - nice to see you. I read on your other thread you've been going through a really hard time. Now you have your children back time to look after you. Sending you peace :l
                              You were born with wings, why prefer to crawl through life? Rumi

                              :lilangel:

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                                #1065
                                An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

                                Thanks Free - it's time to pull it together... :-) I'll take peace. Peace would be wonderful
                                That popping sound you hear is me attempting to remove my head from my arse. It's been there for years so this may take a while.
                                Admitting I need healing. And I am not big enough to do this alone.
                                AF - August 20, 2012

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