An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

[LillyE]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

K9Lover;1379549 wrote: Maybe she eats Quiche and Lobster? SBMCAFQL.

Pronounce that for us G-Man! :H

:H

Poor G is never going to tell us about his love life again you know K9 :H

[pixie]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi everyone

G, that story about the homeless man was both somber and inspiring. Somber because this man has a lot to overcome, and inspiring to see what you and the other gentleman did for him - though it probably did not seem like a lot to you, I bet he really appreciated your effort. It makes me more grateful for where I am at right now.

Hope everyone had a good weekend, and continues to march on toward their goals.

FreeFly, good to still see you around.

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

LillyE;1379546 wrote: What about cheese? Does SBM eat cheese? She could be SBMC woman? And if she's al free, SBMCAF woman. We could just keep going and going...

Just popping in to say hello. I've been swamped and also struggling a little bit myself (emotionally - not drinking though!) so sorry all I've been so absent. As I posted in Monthly Abs just now, on Sunday I got hit by a wave of depression the likes of which I have not had since I quit drinking. I'd gone to help out at the NFP I've been volunteering at, which usually takes me totally out of myself and any of my own issues, and for some reason just suddenly felt really blue, like what's the point of it all?

BUT, ultimately I was proud of myself, because instead of self medicating with wine I looked after myself. I didn't go to a social event I knew I would find challenging in that frame of mind (everyone drinking wine - lots of happy couples and new babies - something that can be challenging emotionally as a single woman even when you adore all the said couples/babies involved). Instead I went to the gym and worked up a good sweat, ate a healthy dinner, then lay on the couch in the end of day sun and finished a novel. And, you know what, by nightfall I felt fine. This is HUGE progress from dealing with depression while drinking and for that I am grateful. I also need to keep that stuff more front of mind, as I've been worried for awhile now that some dangerous complacency is creeping in. I need to check in here more with all you lovely people despite the work load.


I get a strong feeling of blue now and then Lilly. Not everyday, but sometimes. It's baffling, but doesn't particularly worry me as thankfully it's not dibilitating, UNLESS.......i act on the negative emotions and thoughts and think....'ah, fook it, i'm getting drunk because people are idiots and don't understand etc', or because i am just melancholy. I can find joy and comfort in the melancholy, which can be dangerous for me, if i allow it to persist. But like you, i change the channell, and distract myself and do something else/go for a run, swim, and i'm as good as gold an hour later. Good job you're aware of your thinking.

K9Lover;1379549 wrote: Maybe she eats Quiche and Lobster? SBMCAFQL.

Pronounce that for us G-Man! :H

Oh FFS!

Hi Pixie. Hope all's well with you.

Yoohoo to Slayer, Lass, and FF.

[patrice]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hiya all,

Just checking in...

those days of feeling blue and down are hard especially when they can be so unpredictable... I'm having one of those times today, not for the whole day just at different parts of the day.
For me those feelings come out of leftfield and in the past a signal to quash them with booze..
I'm still truckin' on and feeling pretty ok

Take care all
Patrice

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

patrice;1379696 wrote: Hiya all,

Just checking in...

those days of feeling blue and down are hard especially when they can be so unpredictable... I'm having one of those times today, not for the whole day just at different parts of the day.
For me those feelings come out of leftfield and in the past a signal to quash them with booze..
I'm still truckin' on and feeling pretty ok

Take care all
Patrice

G'day Pat, good to hear.

Hope you're having a beaut week friend, in exotic Asia.

Off to bed for me at 9.48 p.m., the wild crazy party boy that i am.......L8tr, Yo! :h

[Prairie Fairy]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hey Patrice -
Read the threads on PAWS - it kicked my butt last week...can't believe that Shite is going to sneak up and get us on and off for 2 whole stinkin' years until our brain finishes rewiring. That's a load. I hit the web to read more - and UGH wait for it....

The worst part? Any slips we have? ONE tiny measly one- sends us all the way back to day one....the brain doesn't recognize AF days...sends us back to DAY ONE every time. PAWS SUCKS.

Sighs. Thank goodness for the AB.

Because I'd have cracked Saturday night at the sports bar. But I didn't - I had TTDAP - so I couldn't have the vino - and that meant I made it through the craving - which meant I made it home to safety and my WHEW - so glad I couldn't crack moment...

Anyway - hang in the Patrice - go check out the stuff on PAWS seriously - see if that's what maybe has you upset...there are some practical tips but it may just be that you need to read about it some and give yourself some grace....

HUGS

[K9Lover]

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Guitarista;1379699 wrote:

Off to bed for me at 9.48 p.m., the wild crazy party boy that i am.......L8tr, Yo! :h

You stay up that late??? :shocked:

Lilly - You're right, G is not going to tell us anything anymore! Now we'll just have to make up stuff.

PF - Congrats on TTDP! You are seriously rocking this sober thing. I know it's hard at times, but you are doing great!!!

Pat - I hope you feel better...as our beloved Byrdie says, we rarely (if ever) have two bad days in a row. Get through it and things will start to look up!

Pixie, FF, SL and everyone else...have an awesomely fantastic GREEN DAY!

:h
K9

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Morning y'all from a drizzly but beautiful downunder.

Yo Prairie!

From my understanding of PAWS, yep, it can last up to 2 years, but not for all of us. I would imagine our brain/body/emotional repair and re wiring is of course different for each of us. In my humble experience of a recent 2.5 yrs sober, PAWS wasn't an issue, as i felt terrific after a few days, and despite some occassional tiredness in the first few weeks/months, i kept feeling better and better. My mistake was i stopped growing and challenging myself, and i wasn't spending time doing what i loved most. I became complacent and stagnant. I know better now that success for me in every way, psychologically, emotionally, spiritually, physically, means doing things i love most on a daily basis. I know i must make time for making/writing/recording music or i stop growing and am just existing, not living. The focus and highlight here on this journey for me right now, is to do stuff i absolutely LOVE on a DAILY basis. I suppose i'm very fortunate to have found something i love and can even make a living out of. Sorry, i'm waffling on a bit!

Have a good one out there, and eat yer greens!

[Guitarista]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

K9Lover;1379829 wrote: You stay up that late??? :shocked:

Lilly - You're right, G is not going to tell us anything anymore! Now we'll just have to make up stuff.

It's funny, in real life as a frolliking musician, any stories folks were to make up would pale into comparison to the real thing/history! However, this i gotta see..... errr, i think?

[scottish lass]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Hi all - crazy late day at work yesterday, so did not post. Green days on the way!

FreeFly - would love to do this with you! I have had success with a buddy, we can keep each other on track - that woudl be fun, and anything that can make this journey into fun works for me!!! Thanks for the words, and teh :l - here is a :l back to you!

Tuesday afternoon - have the drive home which is always such a battle of the voices, but if i get thru tonight it will be 4 days and I am determined to get a week in!! Weekend be damned!

Maybe G's lady is not interested in food, are we barking up the wrong tree???

Praire - this PAWS thing is bugging me - i really hope I am a G'ster and avoid it, jsut keep feeling better and better.....

Happy green days all - take care, be strong!

[LillyE]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Guitarista;1379962 wrote: It's funny, in real life as a frolliking musician, any stories folks were to make up would pale into comparison to the real thing/history! However, this i gotta see..... errr, i think?

Oh hells no. Now I want to hear the real life tales of a drunk and frolicking muso. :H Or DO I?

Ok, so SBMCAFQL+OCC (+ occasional chocolate cake - a girl's gotta live, right?) turns up at your door one bright and sparkling sunny day. She's tracked you down using the super powers afforded to her by her excessive vitamin intake.

In her arms she is holding aloft a giant organic veggie box, packed full of leafy green cruciferous vegetables. She throws them to one side when she sees you, however, exclaiming, "Guitarista, it is only you I crave, not this stupid broccoli. My mouth is hungry for so much more than the taste of spinach. Even the odd bit of cheese or steak can't slay the hungry beast inside me. It is you I need!"

She grabs you into a passionate embrace and kisses you long and deeply. Her mouth tastes ever so slightly like iron. Or perhaps it is the lingering scent of oxalic acid? No mind. To you it tastes like the sweet, sweet perfume of ripe tomatoes mingling with pungent basil. For now you are both high on so much more than mere vegetables alone.

"Run away with me G!," she cries. "Let's make songs about spinach! Music about mashed potatoes!Let's make lots of tiny baby brussel sprouts together!"

"Yes, yes", you cry. "For you, SBMCAFQL+OCC Lady, I will never eat cauliflower again! For you are my one true vegetable love."

And then they road off into the sunset and lived happily ever after - never forgetting to eat their five serves a day.

THE END

[daisy45]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Guitarista;1379958 wrote: Morning y'all from a drizzly but beautiful downunder.

Yo Prairie!

From my understanding of PAWS, yep, it can last up to 2 years, but not for all of us. I would imagine our brain/body/emotional repair and re wiring is of course different for each of us. In my humble experience of a recent 2.5 yrs sober, PAWS wasn't an issue, as i felt terrific after a few days, and despite some occassional tiredness in the first few weeks/months, i kept feeling better and better. My mistake was i stopped growing and challenging myself, and i wasn't spending time doing what i loved most. I became complacent and stagnant. I know better now that success for me in every way, psychologically, emotionally, spiritually, physically, means doing things i love most on a daily basis. I know i must make time for making/writing/recording music or i stop growing and am just existing, not living. The focus and highlight here on this journey for me right now, is to do stuff i absolutely LOVE on a DAILY basis. I suppose i'm very fortunate to have found something i love and can even make a living out of. Sorry, i'm waffling on a bit!

Have a good one out there, and eat yer greens!

G, this post is just what I need right now; I feel that is somewhere I also went wrong, so this time I am taking your words and going to do my best to do the same.....

Scotlass, well done girl!

[Slaythefear]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Lilly's G Story

ROTFLMBOH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Priceless!

[Slaythefear]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

Scottlass...I've been meaning to give you a big hug. I don't catch all the posts here, so sometimes I'm a bit behind the curve; however, I did read about your recent change in marital status. In the long run it may be a blessing, but in the short term it can be quite an adjustment. I see your commitment to trying to be AF as courageous because it's never easy to do under those circumstances. Here's to your success. I think relationship issues can be quite trying on our emotional states and there can be an emptiness that we like to or tend to fill with alcohol.

:l Well wishes.

[Kradle123]

An older drunk back on day one. Who's with me?

My Scottlass. . :groupluv: my whole family is hugging you, including the dog :h

Mr. G. You are an inspiration as always. . My dearest friend after the worlds most horrific divorce next to a Mel Gibson Melt down, ended up loosing everything including her children.

Her journey back is simply indescribable but I wanted to emphasize that it couldn't have happened without us, her friends, her real friends as many abandoned her from fear of her ex. I stayed. She even lived with me for a time.

I know homeless shelters and AA lend support to people but I think the journey back for your 'friend' must include personal nurture, intimacy (not romantic) that one to one connection which keeps us afloat and connected to humanity. How one achieves this given such a despairing position...I really don't know. I just was thinking about it after reading your story.

Thanks for sharing