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timpin glad to hear u are still handing in there. day 12 here and feel great. going to markets to get some fresh fruit and veges and to the chemist to do some vitamin shopping. going to be a lovely day in
Aus today, cant wait to enjoy it.

good morning to one and all and keep going guys.

[Ellaq]

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Got seriously tempted last night.....but I resisted.

We are away for the weekend and there seems to be wedding everywhere full of drunk people. Even yesterday, just outside our window, a bride was drinking a bottle of beer. It just looked so refreshing in the sun.....and part of me thought why is that bride skulling a bottle of beer while getting her photos taken and the other part thought why can't I have one.

I was afraid that I would be back to a place where one or two wouldn't do. I was afraid that if I only had two that I would then spend the rest of the night miserable finding the demons. That if I gave in and had a binge then right now I would be hungover....full of guilt.....miserable......and forcing myself to pretend the hangover didn't exist for the sake of my kids.

So onward to another beautiful day......with no hangover. Today I think I will be stronger. I faced an acknowledgement last night. I accepted that just one drink will never be just one drink for someone like me. Even if I just have one it would unleash such strong cravings that I might not be able to resist.

Day 20 here.

Wishing everyone a great day. Keep Strong.

[merry]

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conquering a day at a time

I"m here and hanging in :thanks:

[Steady Hands]

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Hi Everyone!

I am new to this thread and on day 2. Love the fact that you talk about how you are physically feeling! My drinking always caused puffy eyes (but blamed it on chronic sinus), but today I look twice as bad! So glad it is weekend!! Oh, and I am eating anything I can get my hands on!! Usually I don't want to eat.

PF - thanks for good work once again and I would like to be in!! Your call log and FB episodes resembles the last year of my life!!

Kestrel - I understand you're privacy thing. A week ago I broke down and made a list why I don't need to drink anymore. No 1: My childhood is over. I don't need to hide abuse anymore. This made me realise that it is so deep seated with me to hide anything negative. I was abused as a child and was forced to shut up about it, and now I am an adult who wants to talk about her alcohol abuse!! This of course gave me a reason to binge for a few days!

Available - Moderation... I am just starting to accept that I seriously should consider the fact that I can't drink. Alcohol is like poison to me! Thank you for saying it and making me feel "normal".

Will speak to you soon on day 3...

[merry]

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still hanging in I seem to crave chocolate mints for some reason at night but sleeping is a problem

[Prairie Fairy]

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Hi Merry - the first 10 days I had night sweats something fierce.

Once the AL cleared the systems - that went away - and if I put the Hypnos on before bed - sleep like a baby. It's not on the Hypno plan - but I made a mix of either the two clearing or two Hypnos plus 10 sleep hynpnos each - and no matter how long I have to sleep it's drift off to positive suggestion - reinforce all night long.

I will say that I hate the sleep learning is to ocean sounds (hello- water/waves- ugh) because with all the weed (herbal) tea I am drinking at night - the first several nights I was waking up at 4 am needing to pee like the proverbial race horse. :-)O

[crocus]

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Hanging in at day 14

Hi everyone. I can't believe that I have made it to day 14 with no crashes. I too felt rather crummy for the first few days, but for me it was 50-50 between the detox and the having to realize that facing my personal emotional fears would not be anesthetized.

And Ellaq, I too am most tempted when everyone is out of the house. Odd, isn't it.

[kestrel]

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day 8

Got those B vites Willow. Thanks. Part of the privacy thing SH is my getting snooped on in the site so I don't put much ID'ing detail. I like your list idea. I'm going to write one. Timpin I'm glad you're sleeping. My time wil come! Available I hope you're well. Crocus I know what you mean about being alone and thinking what a perfect time to chill with my old reliable. Then later of course it's like what did I do with that time and then the tired leave me alone mood settles in after the buzz ends which happens because someone comes home and you have to stop. Errrg what a repeat of stupid.

So I was at yoga yesterday and at the end of class we're all lying there in the dark for the meditation in sivasina (sp) or "corpse pose" (I'm real familiar with that one.)
The instructor guy says a few words about being awake when we go through our days and then he says,

"May I respectfully remind you - do not squander your life."

Whoa, who's talking to me? I'm going to carry that one around in my pocket.

[Steady Hands]

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:coolmonkey: Day 4...

[noal]

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Checking in on Day 28...life is so much better now.

I am very thankful for this site and because of it I am at work early on a Monday morning feeling awesome and ready to go.

thank you!

[Dexter41]

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Just joined

Hi
I am on day 8 of not drinking. I am 45 and have drank every day really going back to my teens. The last 10 years have been the worst prob averaging 120 units per week. Typically Mon- Thurs -2 pints of stella on the way home, 1/2 to 2/3's of a bottle of red wine usually 14% strength and then 2 large whiskies or Gin. The weekend would be the same but with another couple of pints on the Sat and Sun. The only side effects at the moment are that I am very irritable , no shakes, sweating or anything like that, I just miss the relaxation that alcohol gave. My drinking has never been a problem to me and never interfered with my work, but it has lead to weight gain. I am 5-11 and 171/2 stone so hoping to loose weight. i am finding it difficult to abstain - drinking pints of diet pepsi.
Any advice would be useful.
Thanks

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good on u dexter and welcome. i have been drinking lots of water with lemon and seltzer is the go on this site but i have yet to find it in oz, well have found lemon flavoured but that is it. lots of herbal teas are good also. anything that is not AL really.

[shame]

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First day

Hi Dexter41

You sound just like me. I'm 43 and yesterday was my first alcohol free day in 12 years! Binge drank before that.
Can't believe I've done it, one day after all these years! I know it sounds trivial but it's a massive acheivement for me after averaging perhaps 80 units per week lately of wine and added spirits some days (that could be a conservative estimate). A few years ago I was up to around 120-140 units week. Feeling OK at the moment, off to work soon.

Weight gain has been my biggest problem too - I'm 5-11 and was also 17 1/2 stone at the last dare of getting on the scales. I have known for ages that cutting the alcohol would be the only way I would lose weight successfully so I hope I can succeed not only for that but also my health. I've had pain in the liver area recently and felt quite sick. Might be just as well or that first alcohol free day may never have happened. Now it has though, I feel I know I can do it. I feel liberated.

This is a great thread and well done to everyone, whether it be their first time or recommitting to do it again.

[Prairie Fairy]

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Hi guys -

In here a number of places is the toolbox thread link - if you start there - you are best off.

It's where the best advice on how to build a plan on quitting that best fits YOU is. It's HUGE.

I spent hours in it - printing off only the posts that resonated with me and started my plan from there.

Key to mine is habit (my issue is I get into a rut and once I do habit takes over - so I have to develop new ones) and nutrition. My labs were horrific - but I have other medical things that contribute to that.

Be that as it may - it was critical to get my nutritional status fixed ASAP - especially since B's are so lacking due to AL use & impact: anxiety, mood, cravings, memory, and ability to withstand stress. hmmm- if we could all do that better - would we be better able to resist the beast?

The L-Glut/Amino's/GABA make a huge difference at night when the monkey chatter is at it's worst. It helps dumb the chatter to a dull roar. And lastly - finding an herbal tea I do an elaborate deal around making much like I did about opening the wine - helps switch a habit.

hope this helps - and welcome!

[Herbie]

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PF
I admire your energy and leadership .... your first posting on this thread really rung true... sitting here reading all the amazing posts from everyone makes me feel so connected to you all... winding down on day 5 looking forward to day 6 drinking sleepie time tea!!!