I am very glad I found this site. Alot of the stories sound eerily familiar! I have tried to curtail my drinking for years, but nothing structured, just my own B.S. None of my previous efforts worked for any legnth of time (although I was able to quit for about 6 months a few years ago).
The cravings and the compulsion (addiction) is scaring the heck out of me! I can wake up in the morning and all day long tell myself I'm not going to drink. Then I find an excuse to run to the store and buy more beer! I actually take a whole series of actions that I made promises not to do! That is amazing and terrifying to me!
I have to face my drinking problem now and get back to my real life. I have a wonderful family and life that I am not being really present for. I am such a stubborn person that I tried to do this all by myself so many times. I now wonder if I was just trying to make it not actually work (infected thinking). Gaah! It's not even slightly fun anymore. I am now ready to admit that I cannot do this by myself. You all have an amazing support thing going on here. If there is room for one more, I would really like to (need to) stay for a while.
Thanks again to everyone for all the previous posts, you'll never know how much you helped me. :thanks:
5 days AF so far. My goal is total abstinance.
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