Hello and Happy Monday Morning to My Way Out!
I joined this site one year ago - the weekend after Thanksgiving.
In my last year I have struggled to moderate, to accept that I'm an alcoholic and to deal with the feelings of anger and denial that accompanied that acceptance. I have read numerous books, tried all sorts of holistic and perscribed supplements. I have exercised and I have dieted. I have watched videos and utubes about people who have successfully dealt with this disease. I met with a counselor and a psychiatrist. I talked with my husband and helped him to understand the disease. I lost my father last month. He was a lifelong Alcoholic, and luckily spent the last two years of his life Alcohol and Nicotine Free as he was in a nursing home with dimentia. He was also in a wheelchair due to the fact he fell while drunk and broke his leg very badly. In the last conversation I had with him before he died he said "I know I used to drink....I don't know why I did that....?" And he sounded truly baffled that he had spent his life battling this disease.
What I have learned during my last year is this:
1) There is no doubt that I have developed an addiction to alcohol and I cannot moderate.
2) The days that I have spent in the last year Alcohol Free were so much happier and more peaceful than the days I spent seeing the world through the haze of Alcohol or recovering from Alcohol.
3) There are lots of success stories and useful tools out there if I choose to use them.
4) I can live a better life sober.
5) I don't want to spend the rest of my life drinking and at the end say "I don't know why I did that...?"
Thanks for listening - this is a wonderful and helpful site. I choose to spend the last 34 days of this year without drinking and then go for another 365 days next year...one day at a time. :h:thanks:
I joined this site one year ago - the weekend after Thanksgiving.
In my last year I have struggled to moderate, to accept that I'm an alcoholic and to deal with the feelings of anger and denial that accompanied that acceptance. I have read numerous books, tried all sorts of holistic and perscribed supplements. I have exercised and I have dieted. I have watched videos and utubes about people who have successfully dealt with this disease. I met with a counselor and a psychiatrist. I talked with my husband and helped him to understand the disease. I lost my father last month. He was a lifelong Alcoholic, and luckily spent the last two years of his life Alcohol and Nicotine Free as he was in a nursing home with dimentia. He was also in a wheelchair due to the fact he fell while drunk and broke his leg very badly. In the last conversation I had with him before he died he said "I know I used to drink....I don't know why I did that....?" And he sounded truly baffled that he had spent his life battling this disease.
What I have learned during my last year is this:
1) There is no doubt that I have developed an addiction to alcohol and I cannot moderate.
2) The days that I have spent in the last year Alcohol Free were so much happier and more peaceful than the days I spent seeing the world through the haze of Alcohol or recovering from Alcohol.
3) There are lots of success stories and useful tools out there if I choose to use them.
4) I can live a better life sober.
5) I don't want to spend the rest of my life drinking and at the end say "I don't know why I did that...?"
Thanks for listening - this is a wonderful and helpful site. I choose to spend the last 34 days of this year without drinking and then go for another 365 days next year...one day at a time. :h:thanks:
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