Let's imagine our intrepid corporate drone, Mr. X, working in the afternoon when he's reminded there's a retirement gathering at the nearby pub for someone. He reluctantly goes, much preferring to go home but stops in out of courtesy. He laughs, talks,socializes, has one beer and goes home. Of course he is the kind of person who does not THINK about alcohol, worry about it, obsess about it etc since he is not addicted to it.
At home his wife has prepared dinner and opened a bottle of wine-a rare occasion. He has a glass with dinner, enjoys it, goes about his evening and goes to bed.
Insert me, or maybe you, into this scenario. First of all I would have been in the pub for who knows how long. If I even made it home and dinner was prepared and wine was there I would be thrilled. MORE ALCOHOL --YAY! it would be out of the realm of possibility for that bottle to NOT be empty that night.
SO... this is the way it is. Either you do or you don't have this issue. I guess there are people on their way to the way I am, so it's not all black and white-there is some gray I suppose.
Last night I had a similiar situation. Going away gathering at the pub by my office-I did not go. Also a big music jam with my group-I did not go. Just not ready, and only I can know what I may or may not be ready for. It's entered my mind that I'm isolating but I don't think so. I'm in a mode of big change so all my energy goes into that.
No smokes or drinks in over 2 months so I'm guarding that and myself carefully.
I accepted long ago that I'm no Mr. X, and never will be. I no longer envy those people. It's my obligation to myself to make myself better.
Have a wonderful Saturday everyone.
P.S. My upstairs neighbor is blasting music and it is starting to really get on my nerves.
I guess I'll have to go up there. I hope they are the violent type.
At home his wife has prepared dinner and opened a bottle of wine-a rare occasion. He has a glass with dinner, enjoys it, goes about his evening and goes to bed.
Insert me, or maybe you, into this scenario. First of all I would have been in the pub for who knows how long. If I even made it home and dinner was prepared and wine was there I would be thrilled. MORE ALCOHOL --YAY! it would be out of the realm of possibility for that bottle to NOT be empty that night.
SO... this is the way it is. Either you do or you don't have this issue. I guess there are people on their way to the way I am, so it's not all black and white-there is some gray I suppose.
Last night I had a similiar situation. Going away gathering at the pub by my office-I did not go. Also a big music jam with my group-I did not go. Just not ready, and only I can know what I may or may not be ready for. It's entered my mind that I'm isolating but I don't think so. I'm in a mode of big change so all my energy goes into that.
No smokes or drinks in over 2 months so I'm guarding that and myself carefully.
I accepted long ago that I'm no Mr. X, and never will be. I no longer envy those people. It's my obligation to myself to make myself better.
Have a wonderful Saturday everyone.
P.S. My upstairs neighbor is blasting music and it is starting to really get on my nerves.
I guess I'll have to go up there. I hope they are the violent type.
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