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[Freesoul]

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Hi Andrea,
I will definitely check out your thread. I think there's more to this than just positive thinking, at least for some of us. I believe there is a lack of something in our receptors (serotonin, dopamine, lack of endorphins etc) The trick of course is to find that "something". If modern medicine can help, I'm all for it. I'll respond later once I've read your thread. Thanks.*

[Freesoul]

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I'd like to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. It's a tough time of year for some. For me it's filled with emotion-up and down! Andrea, I read your thread. So informative!! Thank you for it. I will see my GP in the new year and ask about Baclofen. I'm already taking meds for a bad back-BuTrans patch-so I don't want to go down the med cocktail route. From what I read Baclofen should not interfere with my patch. All the best to everyone!!

[Freesoul]

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I'm sitting here with a beer and popping some percs! How the hell could I let this happen? I was a sponsor to people! *I had crap happen in my life over the last while. I feel so damn alone and ashamed. I had six years off this crap-completely! Everything now seems harder. I have no interest in anything. Work is getting harder because of where my head is at. I had a good life. After my breakup, I threw what I had away for artificial happiness-booze! I don't know if anyone is reading this thread. I'm just putting it out there in cyberspace. I've been through this once. I should know better! The only good thing is I recognize it. It's the devils disease. I've been back on booze for only a few months but my gosh it doesn't take long for the grip of this disease to grab you! Right now it's the booze talking but I think I'm making sense. I have to get my life back together.

[Unwasted]

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Freesoul, thanks for posting this - it will help others who don't understand how much harder it is to quit as time goes on.

Sending you peace and the strength to create an AF life again.

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Freesoul, thanks for posting - hopefully you will get help here, but you are also helping us too. I am just getting to 30 days after a very long drinking history - probably heavy for 30 years. I have made half-hearted promises to give up, but never managed very long - nowhere anything close to 6 years that is for sure. I have also just finished a marriage - married for 17years, and together for 22 years - and I wallowed in loneliness and self pity for a while. I moved out Jan 4th this year and decided to live again - I have huge financial problems, but I have decided to look after myself and hope to find happiness, and part of that includes giving up AL. Just now I am struggling with the thought of never drinking again, and on another thread Unwasted pointed up to read your story. I am doing this for myself and for my two girls who deserve better (as do I). MWO is the reason for any success that I have had so far, I started with all of RJ's supplements but no meds, and have started to just use some vitamins and not all of the supplements (can"t afford them all) - but something worked - more than the supplements, I believe it is the daily checkins and the support from my new friends here. I found the site in Feb and started in Mar, and have a few false starts - and the main thing that changed when I did not succeed was when I did not check in daily....I have been on daily since 11/27 and so far so good. Good luck to you!

[Freesoul]

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Hi Scottish lass. Thank you for your words. I am definitely in the woods right now but I'm working my way out. Something you may want to try is listening to a pod cast which is on weekly. It helps me a lot. Please check it out. It's called Online Recovery Support. Do a goggle search and you'll find it. I highly recommend it to everyone!! My goal is AL free in January. I've had enough and I'm taking my life back.*

[Unwasted]

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Freesoul, we're starting a January AF thread in a day or so if you want to log in there. Good for you in your resolve - you sound like you mean it. And thanks for the podcast information.