JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

[jennyneric]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Free Fly, Irei Restart today for me too...So far I have drank 4 days in jan and that will be it for Jan...no more for me. I am depressed and truly have been hiding in a bottle but no more! (again) out I come. I know how to do this...now let get on with it!

I will fix the list a little later today...

[Irie]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

FreeFly and Jenny... none of us wants to start over, or would wish it on anyone else, but since it is what it is, I'm so happy to have your company! These first days are extra hard and it's going to help to know there are a few of us working on getting our momentum going again!

[K9Lover]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Freefly, Jenny & Irie,
I know how frustrating it can be to keep "restarting". In 2011 I had 257 sober days. Not all consecutive. I'd go 2-3 months then "slip" for a week. Go 2-3 months, slip...repeat, repeat. I'm determined this time to count my consecutive days (thus only being at 24 right now). But we should never discount our sober time, whether it was consecutive or hit-and-miss...because each time we can get some sober time under our belts we get stronger. My last "slip" (fuck up actually, slip sounds so innocent...but no, I planned and schemed so mine was more of a pre-meditated FUCK up...'scuse my French), anyway my last drinking episode was only 2 days. That's the quickest I've EVER gotten back to my quit...I realized I didn't like it anymore, and I'm hoping that it was my last foray into drinking. The party is over for me, I see that clearly now. You all will get there too...just have faith in yourselves. You know what you want, and you've all managed to quit before, so just keep on trying....and never quit quitting.
I'm wishing you all strength, I know you can do it! Take it from an old newbie. LOL
:h
K9

[DriftyAlison0]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

I had to restart my quit dates so many times in the past. I tried the even though I had a small slip, I will keep going with so many days in not getting drunk, that failed so much and added unneeded stress. So if I ever have a slip, I will restart the quit, but I will remember how many af days that I had. But the slip won't happen, I will keep working at it to make sure that the slip never happens. I am one beer,shot,mixed drink away from going back to my old ways.

Day 244af and proud of it.

[mylife]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Hello All -

Jenny, you can add my name to the re-start for Jan 19th too. I feel so awful, but I did slip last night - I confess. I don't even have a good excuse - just H.A.L.T. and alcoholism I guess. But I'll use K9 as inspiration and jump right back on without drinking for a whole bunch of days in a row.

I'm so sick of this starting over - I just wonder sometimes if I can really get through 90 days even!! I've got to re-commit and reconnect with WHY I am doing this in the first place. I did get up early today and start the 30-day shred. That was part of my punishment - but I also feel like I need to replace drinking with something else - I hope maybe my addictive personality will move on to endorphins from exercise...(sigh).

Drifty - 244 days is so awesome. I really hope I can achieve that some day.

[Unwasted]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

K9 - excellent explanation of the starting/stopping roller coaster. I agree that as long as you keep coming back you can get to a final quit. I'm not sure where the point of no return is, or if there is one? Great post.

Day 66 for me everyone - can't say enough good things about sobriety. It's truly better than any day I ever had drinking..........

Here's a good thread in case anyone missed it:

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f9...oes-55141.html

[K9Lover]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Mylife-

Don't beat yourself up...you're getting right back on the wagon...so good job!!
How did you like the 30 Day Shred workout? I lost 7 lbs. and several inches in 21 days. I rented it from the Library, so I could only keep it for 3 weeks, thus the 21 days. LOL
I finally broke down and bought it, along with her other one Ripped in 30. Now that I own them, I have yet to get back to it...but I plan on it! I always did the workout at night, I found that by filling my evenings I thought less about drinking. Plus, the workout is only 22 minutes, perfect for popping something into the oven, then having dinner almost ready by the time you finish. Maybe you could try that for a week...just to get into the groove of not drinking again?

Last time I drank, I didn't have an excuse either. My daughter was at her dad's, it was a long weekend, and it just seemed the "thing" to do...because I've done it for so many years. I found though, that I didn't even enjoy it. I felt like I was forcing the beer down. How did you feel while you were drinking? Have you considered Antabuse? It could really help you get a good chunk of sober time. That's what worked for me. I'm still taking it, and I plan to all year!

Stay strong, you CAN do this!

K9

[mylife]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Thanks K9. I hope you realize how positive and helpful your posts always are. I always look for them.

I actually was very impressed with the 30-day shred! I have done some workout videos before and at one point I was actually doing Sprint Triathlons (a few years ago) so I thought it would be a piece of cake. I did level one and it was hard! I don't remember the last time I did a pushup - and I noticed Jillian does not do the sissy girl pushups I had attempted in the past!! I think it will be a really good thing for me - I need to lose weight and you're right I need a distraction from my normal routine. I'm going to try and keep it up for 30 days along with my AF days.

No, I did not enjoy my drinking. You are right - it is not fun anymore. First off I feel guilty. Secondly, I feel like I'm "sneaking around" behind my husbands back. Last, what is the fun of sitting around getting wasted???!!! I do feel like there is some kind of realease of built up pressure or tension or something - a way to blow off stress - but really it just adds to my stress level when I wake up the next day feeling like SH***T and knowing that I drank the night before.

I haven't tried antabuse and I did seriously think about that this morning.

Thanks again for the words of encouragement. I'll keep fighting until I can achieve my final quit!

[FreeFly]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Irie, Jenny, MyLife - we can do this. Damn it but my day one is tomorrow! I can only be honest but I know I'm getting there. Getting my head round this. It does get harder to get back on so I know I have to keep it going next time.
UW - no I will not give up quitting. I KNOW it will stick eventually! Hope I don't sound like copping out. Just got to get my head in gear.
K9 - thanks for the great post. Makes a lot of sense. Still in the book by the way. I do wonder how she ever remembered all that happened to her! I can't remember much I'm afraid.

[K9Lover]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Freefly - I wondered the same thing while reading the book. I know I couldn't write a book like that, because most of my time was spent in a blackout. Bits and pieces come back, but not enough that I could explain it in detail. I'm glad you're enjoying the book! You stated that day one for you is tomorrow, because of my highly impressive deduction skills, I take that to mean you are drinking tonight. Are you ok?
:h
K9

[FreeFly]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Hi K9, yes I am I have to admit. My head has to click in to get it going. I thought I had it this morning but I caved. My intention is tomorrow. And yes, I have to keep it going because it's so flippin hard to get back on. I'm telling myself at least it's not the 3 week thing that I did when I first came here. I've had more AF days since finding MWO than I ever did in god knows how many years - too scary to think about.

I'm glad you thought the same thing about the book as I really am in awe of her memory. I'm finding it a rough ride at times, but what an awful start she had. I'm looking forward to see how it turns out.

Your mood says "sick" - I hope you're ok. I'll be here tomorrow with a resolved head set firmly on. I must! :l

[K9Lover]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Freefly -
I always admire honesty! You'll be okay, I know it. Get your head in a good spot and then jump onto the wagon, we'll make a spot for ya and welcome you with open arms!

Yes, I'm sick, as in a head cold that has been going around and around and around the dang office. If people would just stay home when they get sick it could be avoided. BUT, here I am...doing the exact same thing! So I'll hush now...except to say this, I'd rather be at home...the people that WON'T stay home are the ones that think the world will come crashing down without their presence! I wish there was a mood that said sick AND grumpy cuz that would be me right now. LOL

Anyway, take it easy tonight and let us know how you are tomorrow!

K9

[broken halo]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Freefly, Jenny, Irie, mylife, jumping back in together, awesome! Hope you all feel good today and up for it! Thinking of you all :l

K9, love your post too, so very true. I wasn't enjoying AL at all, I realise I was actually forcing it down sometimes, wtf?

Unwasted, keep posting over the weekend please, you are such an inspiration and we need you!

Off to enjoy my Friday, have a great day everyone

[Unwasted]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Good Morning Jammers,

Well, today is the beginning of the weekend, a particularly tough time for some......so let's stay in touch. Broken Halo, not sure exactly where you're at on days, not that it matters. Just wondered how you're doing overall.

Jenny, not sure what's going on with you - are you still trying to be AF? If so, I guess you'll be posting a weekend thread. Let us know if there's any way we can help.

My Life - do you know why you decided to drink again? You sounded so determined - I was surprised. Well, dust off as it seems you are doing. You know we are here for you.

It has finally sunk in for me that I absolutely cannot have one drink. And, I'm beginning to feel genuinely happy with my new life. I really hope all of you can get a couple of months behind you so you can have a better shot at AF overall.

K9 - hope you're recovering from your cold. Thanks for your posts - they range from hilarious (bitch) to inspirational! You've got experience that is very valuable and you share it, which helps us tremendously! How is the smoking going, by the way?

Free Fly - hoping this time is it for you. Do you want to talk about your slip and what you're thinking of doing differently this time? Always helps to brainstorm I think.

Alison - I don't think there's any way you're going to slip - seems like you've got it covered. You sound strong and determined!

Day 67 here - woo hoo! Stick with it girls - it is SOOOOOOOO worth it!

[BelleGirl]

JAMMIN JANUARY KICKOFF FOR A SOBER 2012 - NEWBIE SUPPORT THREAD

Hi Jammers...I'm checkin' in on this Day 7 for me. Gosh darn...I think I am coming down with a cold. Oh well, no drinking for me this weekend.

Hope everyone is doing well on this special day: Byrdlady Day!