Day 2...fears of W/Ds but no symptoms...?
^I think I'm pretty lucky not to have that kind of problem, never once have I had the urge to drink on waking up, it's always been something I 'reserve' for the evenings - I never really get cravings for booze, I more get used to it as a medication, a way of blitzing time away and numbing my often overactive mind. I'm pretty sure if I did it 24/7, I'd be rattling like mad right now.
Ah, the 'red dots', hehe. Quite right, you could draw a grid on my face and play battleships! :H
Vitamin-wise, I guess I was a bit geared-up when quitting because I had some Holland & Barratt Vitamin B-100 tablets left over from last year, which are jam-packed with massive levels of various Vitamin Bs. Also taking a mild multivitamin and zinc tablets on top.
So, an update. Last night I had NINE HOURS OF MAINLY UNBROKEN NATURAL SLEEP!!!! No Nytols, no sleep-aids, no nothing. Even found it hard to get up, was aiming for 12pm but eventually slunk out of bed at 1.50pm, still super-sleepy.
Chose an apt but hardish time to quit. Am currently embarking on a weeks worth of annual leave from work, so have still got seven 'legitimate' nights of possible pissheadedness to get through (ie. I could get drunk without consequence as I don't have to go to work 'til next Monday) and I have seven full days of at-home sobriety to get through, an almost unprecedented occurrence for me, think the last time I had this was in early 2003!
So...have to admit I'm feeling a bit 'rattly' today. I have a very physical job so I'm guessing that's been good for the withdrawal as it's allowed me to burn energy off easily but being inert seems a bit dodgy....although I'm getting MAJOR cravings for cigarettes (despite having plenty of nic gum in) so that might be the cause of the rattliness(????) Also been a bit irritable today...feel like I've got maybe too much fire in my belly and a too-small exhaust port, if that makes sense???
Went out to the supermarket earlier...the environment seems different, I feel a little more connected to it, everything seemed to feel like a blast of colour, I was hearing the birdsong a little closer, noticing the blue of the sky more, it was a little overwhelming but in a good way. Also quite amusing to go shopping and not come back with the usual '3-day supply' (ie. sixteen 500ml cans of Old Speckled Hen and a 3-litre box of red wine), in fact, I wasn't even interested in the booze section at all. ?34 saved. ?102 every 9 days. Spent ?10 on a 360 game as a 'treat' (think I deserve it!!!)
What's odd is the mental system I had in place, how I'd 'reserve' seven/eight hours every night JUST for drinking...and the ways I managed to fit my life in around that. It's weird not having that structure but I recognise it as a very warped, very unproductive, very damaging way of existing. Once I eradicate the routine, I think my life will become a lot more rewarding.
It's an...interesting process, ain't it???
^I think I'm pretty lucky not to have that kind of problem, never once have I had the urge to drink on waking up, it's always been something I 'reserve' for the evenings - I never really get cravings for booze, I more get used to it as a medication, a way of blitzing time away and numbing my often overactive mind. I'm pretty sure if I did it 24/7, I'd be rattling like mad right now.
Boh;1249481 wrote: A far cry from waking up late for work, smelling like a brewhouse and my face covered in mysterious red dots... hmmm the thought of a hangover right now is completely sickning, where for years it was the norm.
Just a suggestion, you might want to look in to vitamines/suppliments to aid in your recovery if you havent yet. Your body will thank you! It made recovery for me possible.
Just a suggestion, you might want to look in to vitamines/suppliments to aid in your recovery if you havent yet. Your body will thank you! It made recovery for me possible.
Vitamin-wise, I guess I was a bit geared-up when quitting because I had some Holland & Barratt Vitamin B-100 tablets left over from last year, which are jam-packed with massive levels of various Vitamin Bs. Also taking a mild multivitamin and zinc tablets on top.
So, an update. Last night I had NINE HOURS OF MAINLY UNBROKEN NATURAL SLEEP!!!! No Nytols, no sleep-aids, no nothing. Even found it hard to get up, was aiming for 12pm but eventually slunk out of bed at 1.50pm, still super-sleepy.
Chose an apt but hardish time to quit. Am currently embarking on a weeks worth of annual leave from work, so have still got seven 'legitimate' nights of possible pissheadedness to get through (ie. I could get drunk without consequence as I don't have to go to work 'til next Monday) and I have seven full days of at-home sobriety to get through, an almost unprecedented occurrence for me, think the last time I had this was in early 2003!
So...have to admit I'm feeling a bit 'rattly' today. I have a very physical job so I'm guessing that's been good for the withdrawal as it's allowed me to burn energy off easily but being inert seems a bit dodgy....although I'm getting MAJOR cravings for cigarettes (despite having plenty of nic gum in) so that might be the cause of the rattliness(????) Also been a bit irritable today...feel like I've got maybe too much fire in my belly and a too-small exhaust port, if that makes sense???
Went out to the supermarket earlier...the environment seems different, I feel a little more connected to it, everything seemed to feel like a blast of colour, I was hearing the birdsong a little closer, noticing the blue of the sky more, it was a little overwhelming but in a good way. Also quite amusing to go shopping and not come back with the usual '3-day supply' (ie. sixteen 500ml cans of Old Speckled Hen and a 3-litre box of red wine), in fact, I wasn't even interested in the booze section at all. ?34 saved. ?102 every 9 days. Spent ?10 on a 360 game as a 'treat' (think I deserve it!!!)
What's odd is the mental system I had in place, how I'd 'reserve' seven/eight hours every night JUST for drinking...and the ways I managed to fit my life in around that. It's weird not having that structure but I recognise it as a very warped, very unproductive, very damaging way of existing. Once I eradicate the routine, I think my life will become a lot more rewarding.
It's an...interesting process, ain't it???
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