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[shitzulover]

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Been there done that...today is a new day and just being here is a great step. One day at a time. I started aa meetings as well in order to cope. Why not give it a try as well. You can't be hard on yourself. People will forgive...just start making things right. Like they say one day at a time!

[Rocky]

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Toby

Have you read the book yet. If so following the plan should work. I'm new here 4 days and am just taking in all the info, but your original message here could have been written by me.

Being here will be a great help based on all I have red here.

Take care / put the old days behind.

[Matt]

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I identify with all of this. The next morning I always slowly recollect how people were treating me as I was getting out of control. Their heads shaking in embarrassment, them walking away to talk to someone else, getting strange looks ect. I used to justify it by telling myself that it was their problem, and that at least I was being "honest" and "I am who I am... if you don't like it then tough for you". I now realise that it was me who was the fool.

Like Toby said, time to learn from that and put in the past....

[dietcoke]

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Shame is the hole we crawl out of. Welcome to the family. You've come to the right place. We understand the hole and the shame and the guilt and the life you've been leading.

You can change.

[Cheeks]

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Hi Toby,

I've been there. Don't be ashamed. What you have to remember is that people quickly forget and move to the next issue, don't dwell on it just concentrate on the future.

Cheeks

[just h]

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Yep, I have let go while trashed many times. I'm quiet and reserved. I do have a freaky that Hubby only gets to see. I have told sooooo many secrets. Lost acquaintances. Woken up many mornings knowing I acted like and ass. Drinking breaks down all my inhibitions and lets all the crap I have stuffed down for years out. Now I'm learning there are better ways to release all the crap. I'm seeing a psychologists and a shrink for Depression and meds and working with my GP. And my true friends are by my side still the listen and give support for those dark moments. So, there's hope. You can wake up feeling good. It not easy but you can get there. We all deserve not to live in shame. I don't think that's what God had planned for us.

[cin]

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I can so relate to what you are going through, Toby. I am here for the same reason-my boyfriend recently told me that I become a different person when I have too much to drink, a person that he doesn't like. I have said some pretty hurtful things to him. I have behaved terribly to friends (when I've had too much to drink). I am so ashamed and it breaks my heart to know I've said such horrible things to people that I love!! I have known for a long time that I should stay away from alcohol, but can't seem to go more than a day or two without it. I just ordered the book and am hoping that it coupled with online support will help me abstain from alcohol. Not sure if I can ever do moderation--I'll think about that later. Thanks for sharing.

[betty boop]

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Hi Cin & :welcome:

Lovely to have you here, I'm sure that you will find all the help and support here that you need.

Love & Hugs, Paula xx :h :l :h

[Accountable for Me]

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Cin, I too hear about the horrible things I say and do when I drink. I use to be 'fun' when I had a few, but now suffer terribly from the Dr. Jekyl/Mr. Hyde syndrome.......... AF for 17 days now, and starting to feel more like one personality than two.

Welcome to the boards. You will find all the help and support you need here!

[wenzalc]

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that is truly wat is that i am going thru RIGHT NOW. I drank secretly but surely when u are drunk, it cant be a secret anymore. I was told by my boyfriend and mother that I said funny things and shouted at them and just the other day I puked all over my bed and my mum had to clean up the sheets. My parents couldnt sleep till 4am and my bf had to nurse me every hour just to see if I am ok. And the best thing is I CANNOT recall what happen the day before. Sighs.. and this is one of the many nights that happened to me. Don't worry pal, we all go thru this together! I've signed up a session for hypnotherapy. I heard the success rate is EXTREMELY good. Pray for me peeps!

[kitkatsue]

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Hi Toby,
I hardly ever use the phone except when I drink and OH BOY I call people I haven't talked to in months. And for some strange reason ALCOHOL I can't seem to zip it. If loose lips when drunk was a club I would be president!!!!! Any way beating ourselves up accomplishes nothing, and a real friend wouldn't hold it against you.

Take care!!!!
Kitkat