I'm on day six of being AF

[Accountable for Me]

I'm on day six of being AF

Just h, you will be just fine my dear - you really will. Hop back on that train tomorrow! We will be here routing for you. Be kind to yourself tonight. Lots of hugs.... :l:l:l
Accountable

[just h]

I'm on day six of being AF

Hubby just got home and I was honest with him. I'm drinking more tea. I talked to my best friend who is far away from me. She's and AA member. She gave some words of encouragement. I just need to remember my Mom still loves me so the world is alright. Still crying. Hubby is here and I'm off to bed as soon as I can calm down. Thanks and I will hop on that train tomorrow. I did print out this that PaulaW. was so kind to repost to put on my fridge and bathroom mirror:

Why I need to moderate/stop:

I gain weight
I get dull, dry, splotchy skin
I have red, puffy, tired eyes
I give people a bad impression of me
When I go overboard, I smell bad - and I am paranoid of this the whole next day
I get to the point I can?t walk properly
I get cranky and irritable when I?m hungover
It?s sometimes hard to concentrate the morning after
I have less interest in things that used to interest me
I talk too much and reveal too much
I don?t get things done I need to do (bills, household chores)
I ignore my family and friends
I back out of obligations
I have to lie to cover up the fact I?m drinking or hungover, or planning to drink
I injure myself
I eat stuff I shouldn?t eat, or, more typically, don?t eat at all
I get dehydrated
I don?t sleep well or I sleep too much
I waste days sleeping off a drunk
I am filled with anxiety and guilt the next day
I break stuff
I don?t keep my place tidy
I've driven when I shouldn?t
I spend too much money on alcohol
I worry when I run into people who may have seen me out drinking
My hair gets flat and lifeless
I smoke too much when I drink
I sometimes black out and have no recollection of what I?ve done
I sneak my drinking
I lie to my family and friends about my drinking
I call people I shouldn?t when I drink
I risk adversely affecting my work reputation
I lose credibility
I don?t have any motivation
I don?t do as good a job at work as I could
I don?t exercise
I've lost friendships due to my drinking
I don?t have the energy to walk to work
I feel edgy, nervous after drinking too much; not as alert as I should be, when I?m hungover
I don?t dress as well as I should the morning after
I make impulsive purchases
I end up beholden to others because of my drinking behavior
I get myself in bad and potentially dangerous situations
I lose things when I drink
I?m perceived as someone with a problem
I embarrass myself and others
I upset my family and embarrass them when I drink
I don?t like to interact with other people
I live with shame, regret and remorse.
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Thank you all for your support. I'll be back tomorrow hopefully in a better frame of mind.........

[Popeye]

I'm on day six of being AF

just h
It's hard!
I've slipped more than once.
You did very well for yourself by stopping after three. I would have just kept going. To me, that shows a very strong commitment on your part to beat this.
Well done!

[hidden_gem]

I'm on day six of being AF

Just H,

You've shown that you have more than enough strength to beat this.

The door to your new life is open.

Jump right in!

Gem

[brookhaven222]

I'm on day six of being AF

Hi Just H,
I think you are very brave for posting your disappointment. I do not know if I will be brave enough to admit to stumbling if or when that happens.....I am just starting out my second day AF. I am going to copy those same reasons for not drinking and put them in my pocket today.
Thank you for sharing.

[momof2boys]

I'm on day six of being AF

Hi Just,

I think we have to expect some slips, but well done for posting and stopping at 3. I am sitting here crying with you right now. I know you will get on that train tomorrow.
Just remember we are all here for you whenever you need a friend.
:hug: :h :h

[Lotus]

I'm on day six of being AF

Just H

I know you may be disappointed, but you did stop at 3 drinks and besides I think you have your head screwed on girl. I myself am going to print a copy of those reasons.

We have all lapsed and feel really bad about it, but then tommorrow is another day to start afresh. You've done 6 days AF and there is no doubt that you CAN exceed this.

My thoughts and prayers and with you.

Mandy x

[just h]

I'm on day six of being AF

Thanks everyone for all the support. It means a lot to me. I'm done crying. It was hard getting to sleep last night. Hubby just hugged me. Today is anew. So I'm almost through day one of my 30 day AF plan. Hubby said I should be proud that I stopped myself. For a year on and off I would not have stopped. So, I did win a battle. I'm feeling more positive and talking to my Mom helped me soooooo much. I have those reasons posted on my fridge now. Thanks Paula for posting those on the General Board.

Huggs to all. I'm on the train once again. Woot Woot!

[betty boop]

I'm on day six of being AF

Hi Just H,

I've had a long day at work so have only just seen this thread again.

I have to say :goodjob: for just stopping at three, by stopping yourself you are difinitely winning, I think that you didn't get off the train, you just stopped off for minute or two ..................

I think that you need to put another positive on this by looking at how many total AF days you have had in January, that should boost you ..............

Glad you liked the list, I got it from Jenneh a few months ago.

Take care Love, We all love you ..........

Paula :h :l :h

[Accountable for Me]

I'm on day six of being AF

Just h, so great you are looking at the positives and not the negatives. You stopped yourself and that takes the old mighty "WILL POWER". To be honest, I wouldn't of been able to - so KUDOS to you! Good job! You will be OK, and you will be well on your way in no time! :l

[moosedrool]

I'm on day six of being AF

Well Just H,
I made a boo boo as well. I live down here in Florida and I made a bad, bad decision to go watch the Gators whoop up on Ohio St Monday night - blew my whole nine days AF. You know what Just H? O well, it's not the end of the world. We all get beat down in life, all of us! What's important is that we get off the floor, shake the dirt off and get back to kicking arse. What is done is done, right. Am I a little disappointed in myself? Kinda...but you know what... we're both getting stronger and stronger every day. I see it in your posts. Keep your chin up.

Well off to day 4AF...

Stay strong Just H - we can do this.

[just h]

I'm on day six of being AF

Thanks Guys. I just got home from work. I feel much better today. A bit tired but I haven't been eating iron rich stuff to go along with my iron supplements. I feel positive. Not as ancy today. My sugar cravings are dying off a bit. I have been drinking than new carmel/vanilla tea by Lipton (the one in those pyramid shaped tea bags). It's yummy with some Splenda. I also found these great Go Lean bars by Kashi. I ate those instead of my day meals at work. They kept me on even keel all day. They are supposed to keep you blood sugar even. So, I'm on my get healthy body, mind and soul plan. Thanks for all the support again. I probably would've let it get to me and just started again later. Huggs to all of you. Keep safe tonight. It's gettin' chilly here.

[dietcoke]

I'm on day six of being AF

You stopped yourself!?!?! Congratulations! It sounds like you have a lot of loving suport, both on and off the boards to help you meet your goal.

For me, the key ingredient - besides the Topamax, vitamins, CDs - has been the Solaray Kudzu, which has just killed my cravings for alcohol and food. I've been taking one at lunch, one at dinner.

Best wishes as you pile up bright, fresh, shiny, alcohol-free days!

[just h]

I'm on day six of being AF

The middle of Day 3 AF.

Okay, I've been busy with work and feeling tired still due to a lower iron level. I was diagnosed as being really anemic not too long ago. I didn't run out and get my new bottle of iron due to the fact that it hurts my stomach a lot and I have to take it twice a day. I'm taking it along with all my other vitamins again. So, hopefully by tomorrow I'll be able to move again with out getting breathless.

Okay, I'm off today. I slept in really late due to the above mentioned. I haven't thought about drinking yet until around noon. I'm not touching it I just thought about a drink. Last night was difficult in a way. We went out to eat at Red Lobster. Usually when we go out I order a drink. I even browsed at the drink menu. I could have had one. Hubby never tells me I can't. He say"I'm not your Dad.". I resisted to order a yummy looking frozen fruity rum drink. Then I figure I would save that many more calories to enjoy my seafood dinner. By the time dinner was done I realized I didn't care if I had ordered a drink or not. I just enjoyed dinner and conversing with Hubby.

Today I feel better mentally. I'm less ancy. I still crave the sugary stuff from time to time. I had some chocolate this morning. I decided to eat toast after that to keep from eating more sugary stuff. I love toast and peanut butter. That was enough to sate my sweet tooth.

Also, It helps me a lot to come back here and read the supportive posts I have recieved and to also read how others are winning battles. Also, how others have decided to fight. So, Huggs:h :h :h :h for everyone.

I hope everyone has a great day....

[mtnest]

I'm on day six of being AF

positive imagery

Just h, I could rate to all of your reasons not to drink. Maybe you should turn the list into a series of positives instead of negatives. When I don't drink : my eyes are clear and sparkly, I regain interest in my life, I am better at my job etc.

Something that really helps me is a gratitude journal ala Oprah-listing 5 things each day that I am grateful for . It helps me to really search my life for positive things even when feel worthless.

The sun is shining today and making the snow glitter
Charlie Murphy's unconditional slathering love (our dog)
dinner with my Mom last night
My Way Out community
Corey is an amazing, healthy daughter!

It is very hard somedays but it helps me to not dwell on the negatives even if I have slipped up.

YOu can do it.