Word of Warning...

[starty]

Hey LS. I am sure you will find your peace again. You are hear and that is huge. I was sober for over 6 years when I relapsed. It took me a couple of years to get that mindset back. A number of spills later I feel as if I am getting back to my sober self and have reached 90 days today.

Getting sober a second time I am finding a little different from the first. There is no pink cloud as such and it feels like a deeper experience somehow. I am very aware of my thoughts and allowing complacency to creep in. Complacency was the cause of my relapse I am certain. I stopped working at my sobriety and allowed those what if thoughts to enter my head.

Glad you are here and working at it again x

[mario]

Nice post lost soul and as relevant now as it was then, thanks and you will get out, believe .

[Lost Soul]

Hey LS. I am sure you will find your peace again. You are hear and that is huge. I was sober for over 6 years when I relapsed. It took me a couple of years to get that mindset back. A number of spills later I feel as if I am getting back to my sober self and have reached 90 days today.

Getting sober a second time I am finding a little different from the first. There is no pink cloud as such and it feels like a deeper experience somehow. I am very aware of my thoughts and allowing complacency to creep in. Complacency was the cause of my relapse I am certain. I stopped working at my sobriety and allowed those what if thoughts to enter my head.

Glad you are here and working at it again x

Hi Starty, Thank you for sharing your experience with me - I think it's different when you relapse after a long period sober, I don't have the same 'puppy dog excitement' however I am calm and open minded & hopeful ☺ Well done on 90 days ☺ I am 3 weeks today x

[starty]

Hi Starty, Thank you for sharing your experience with me - I think it's different when you relapse after a long period sober, I don't have the same 'puppy dog excitement' however I am calm and open minded & hopeful ☺ Well done on 90 days ☺ I am 3 weeks today x

Coo! It does feel different doesnt it? How long did it take you to get back your sober mindset? Over the last 2 years I thought I would never get it back and thought I would never change. Then I did a month, went on holiday and had THE most awful binge, realised I had to stop fighting and here I am Well done on the 3 weeks. Feels good doesnt it x

[Lost Soul]

I relapsed in April 2015, so about 18 months on & off. After being AF it can feel a bit surreal drinking again & I had the same old pity party emotions, pissed off with throwing it all away, ashamed I'd done it, bla bla...but I guess what's done is done & there's no use living in the past? So here I am too ☺ looking forward to looking ahead & building a future x

[Eloise]

Sorry to hear this Lost soul & thanks for posting.
I am rather disconnected now from here because of where I live, but I still check in at least 1x per week & listen to the occasional Bubble Hour. Sort of anyway, he internet is on and off here and it wears me out.
I had a bit of an epiphany last week regarding how I react to my new life and how I have to carefully take care of those reactions, and what I say. Also to be aware of what is my problem versus the problems of others I take on board.
Not drinking is the new norm. I do know what you are talking about though, saying drinking again was rather surreal. I have stopped and started many times & experienced it. I don't ever want to have to quit again. This last time felt impossible, but I did it.
And I keep working on my mind, the longer I don't drink the more sense it makes.

[Lost Soul]

Sorry to hear this Lost soul & thanks for posting.
I am rather disconnected now from here because of where I live, but I still check in at least 1x per week & listen to the occasional Bubble Hour. Sort of anyway, he internet is on and off here and it wears me out.
I had a bit of an epiphany last week regarding how I react to my new life and how I have to carefully take care of those reactions, and what I say. Also to be aware of what is my problem versus the problems of others I take on board.
Not drinking is the new norm. I do know what you are talking about though, saying drinking again was rather surreal. I have stopped and started many times & experienced it. I don't ever want to have to quit again. This last time felt impossible, but I did it.
And I keep working on my mind, the longer I don't drink the more sense it makes.

Thank you Eloise, I think it can be difficult after being AF for a while, if you don't check in here regularly or have AA meetings or some way of staying committed to remaining AF.
Although having a drink is no longer how you choose to cope if you are under pressure or stress it can be all too easy.
I think checking in weekly is a good plan for further down the road but for now I am trying to read daily & try to post daily if I can.
I can very much relate to problems that are own to solve & others. I think keeping boundaries between the two are very important - you definately have to take care of yourself first & foremost x

[Orimus]

Re: Word of Warning...

<hugs>