Irie's Journey to 30 days...

[Irie]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Great to be back! So happy to be here.

[Unwasted]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Hey Irie - welcome back! Keep fighting the good fight!

[Kaizen]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Never quit quitting

[Irie]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Never will.

[SAUSAGE]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Irie;1282694 wrote: . Once I broke my streak of AF days, I just could not get back on the wagon. I would start every morning with very strong plans to be successful but predictably by late afternoon I was back in the bottle.

I kept trying to tell myself to come back to this board because I knew it would help, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Shamefully, I think what was holding me back was the thought (over and over) that I would give myself just one more day of drinking before I came back to give it my best again.

I did not enjoy even one of the days that I was drinking.

Irie - I could have written that post , that was exactly what happened to me after a run of 8+ months AF days, just couldn't find the strength to start again and yet I had achieved so much. Took me nearly 3 yrs of daily drinking to start again. Glad you came back to us a lot sooner. Keep going!

[been-there-done-it]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

In this together?

Hi Irie!

I'm new here and your post touched me. I have only made it to three days without Al so you have inspired me. Thirty days is quite a challenge and yikes, I don't know what bothers me more, the thought of 30 days without Al or the thought of not being able to go 30 days! You are not selfish to post your journey here. I so want to hear more about it and hope I can do it too. For the past couple of days I have been trying to moderate but that is a joke and I know it! I'm just one drink away from getting smashed and trashed. I want to stop. :l!

[LostButFound]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Irie and Ishy
You are me.
Same things. I do well for the week; think I can handle a couple next think I know I'm binging and here I am another Sunday hungover.
I am totally optimistic in the morning, too.
There is always ALWAYS that "Oh I'll be fine, just a few tonight" when in fact it's never just a few.
I do not feel comf turning to anyone I know; AA is out of the question.
Thankfully we are here for eachother! Good luck to you both!

[Irie]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Day One!

I'm ready to give this 100% again. When I tried this before I got to day 23. It was an amazing journey and I want to get back to having the confidence in the future I was beginning to feel back in March.

I'm back to daily drinking -a bottle or more of wine each day. I promise myself every morning that I've quit, only to give in to the witching hour. It scares me to think I will never break this cycle. When I'm honest with myself, I know I do best when I make myself accountable here.

So, here I go. There is nothing that will stop me this time. 30 days sober - it will happen! And after that, sobriety forever... but I'm getting ahead of myself!

If there is anyone else who is ready to take their life back, hop on this thread! We will be doing a lot of (sober) celebrating! I just know it.

[LibraryGirl]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Welcome back Irie! It's so good to see you back and energized to start over. I made it 39 days the first time, and although I never went back to drinking every day or even got drunk, I still drank. I'm now at 29 days again, and I hope this time it sticks. We can do this!

[Irie]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Oh, good for you, Library Girl! I've been lurking the last few weeks and have been reading your posts. I like your attitude and enjoy reading your posts. You are right. We can do this

[SAUSAGE]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Welcome back Irie

You can do this. You sound very like me in your drinking pattern - wine every day, and constantly striving to quit each morning but giving in at the witching hour. Like you, once i broke my AF run of days I found it hard to start over again, but i did and now im on day 108.

Just get through that first week and it will get a little easier. I'm glad you saw benefits as early as day 23, just keep going and it will get better and better. Check out my story in the story section and read some of my posts. Post when you can, together everyone here will help you through.

Look forward to seeing you around.

[Irie]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Thank you, Sausage! I love hearing from people who have DONE it! You're right, it's so hard to start over. I can't wait for the day I can say that it's been 108 days. What a wonderful thing you have done for yourself!

[Gdog]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Irie- I am with you. Posted earlier on the newbie thread, and saw your post. Lets do MORE than 30 days. I did 30 days earlier this year, but like you once I got away from that I found it hard to get restarted.
Lets check in often and make it through the 5 pm gravitational pull tonight.

[Kradle123]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Hi Irie:

I am Completely blown away by your post!

I JUST posted almost he exact same words over on the AF Daily Sunday June 10 Thread. I needed the same accountabilty becasue I am so scrambled much of the time nd I have been 'lurking' since 2007 so it so great that you are moving forward so strongly in just a year.
I guess becasue it seems to me that I have taken soooooooo long to sail out of this soul sucking shit storm as I like to call it ( ) anyone else makes it look so easy ! I know it's not.
I dont know how to paste from another thread but I realised that for me it was the clarity that came from being AF that pushed me back to drinking. I simply can' stand the guilt and shame that comes from looking at myself. It is overwhelming to me.

That is why MWO is SO IMPORTANT to me. While you guys arent mirror images we have enough in common that I can look at it without wanting to kill myself.....

So I am checking in every day over at he Af Daily just to keep the day handy...but I will check in here too. If I don't then they will send out the Dogs! I am determined that my WTF has to be conquored or else.... well you know:h
:l

[patricia]

Irie's Journey to 30 days...

Iris, I've been around for about four years first stint no problem 30 days straight off and then slowly got back to every night on and off in-between never being too successful and never over two weeks or so, but am really trying for 30 days to gain some clarity. Of thought. I constantly feel I've let myself and others on here down and this time didn't post until I was on day 2 so just wanted you to know there's a lot of us in same boat although I'm sure you know this really. I even thought of reinventing myself on here but knew that wouldn't do any good really - it wouldn't solve my problem! Anyhow wishing you and everybody much success. Px