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My first post, my first real participation in the community.
Thankfully I "accidentally" came across the MWO book while shopping for Christmas present books mid December (yes, I procrastinated on the gift buying too). Turns out the book was the greatest gift I gave (to myself) or received. I immediately connected as I have been a problem drinker for 20 years. Knowing that I had the holidays, a business trip followed directly by a week long mother in law visit in my house I thought I would ease into it and get serious after 'things settled down'. I read the book late December, started the CD's and supplements early January.
I was encouraged that by the first week in Feb I could actually go grocery shopping without even thinking about buying a bottle (or two) of wine. I got to the parking lot and it dawned on me - yay, it's working!
After 2 weeks AF I thought I would just have a glass. Did ok with that but 4 days later had a whole bottle of wine. Trying not to beat myself up, just realizing that I am far too early in the process to think I can moderate.
My life is in full stress mode right now - nursing my HB through kidney failure, being the primary caregiver for home dialysis, preparing him for dual organ transplant and running a company as 'my real job'. I recognize the stress triggers that would push me to drink and I'm trying to find alternatives. I am hopeful that my energy level will increase and that I'll be able to incorporate regular exercise when my time opens up more.
I seek and desperately need the clarity to move through this part of my journey and am SO thankful to have the MWO community to connect with and lean on.
Thank you!
My first post, my first real participation in the community.
Thankfully I "accidentally" came across the MWO book while shopping for Christmas present books mid December (yes, I procrastinated on the gift buying too). Turns out the book was the greatest gift I gave (to myself) or received. I immediately connected as I have been a problem drinker for 20 years. Knowing that I had the holidays, a business trip followed directly by a week long mother in law visit in my house I thought I would ease into it and get serious after 'things settled down'. I read the book late December, started the CD's and supplements early January.
I was encouraged that by the first week in Feb I could actually go grocery shopping without even thinking about buying a bottle (or two) of wine. I got to the parking lot and it dawned on me - yay, it's working!
After 2 weeks AF I thought I would just have a glass. Did ok with that but 4 days later had a whole bottle of wine. Trying not to beat myself up, just realizing that I am far too early in the process to think I can moderate.
My life is in full stress mode right now - nursing my HB through kidney failure, being the primary caregiver for home dialysis, preparing him for dual organ transplant and running a company as 'my real job'. I recognize the stress triggers that would push me to drink and I'm trying to find alternatives. I am hopeful that my energy level will increase and that I'll be able to incorporate regular exercise when my time opens up more.
I seek and desperately need the clarity to move through this part of my journey and am SO thankful to have the MWO community to connect with and lean on.
Thank you!
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