As some of you wonderful people know from my prior posts, I work and live with my partner, who is a very heavy drinker, and will not give up, or modify....there is always alcohol here. Mind you, lately it doesn't make much difference if my partner is here or not with the booze, i will go and buy it.
The last few months of constant drinking haven't created any fallout (yet) of the terrible drama of what made me first post here...it's just more of a hidden progressive slide of destruction. The blackouts I experience on alcohol are getting worse. Also my tolerance to it seems to be getting lower, mind you, I have never been able to drink much, being small, I get drunk very easily.
Sooo Folks, here I am again, I am rereading Jason Vales book, taking the supplements, and walking along the beach. I think a part of me is worried about what will happen with my relationship if I give up drinking completely, as was sent to me in a private message (thank you, you know who) Its something I have to look at. I find it incredibly unappealing when my partner is drunk. (I'm sure I am also rather unappealing when I am drunk).
So, I currently have the urge to reach for the red in the cupboard......I have a very important, rather sticky meeting on tomorrow, that is crucial financially for my company , and I'm using that as a reason for me not to drink tonight.
So I'm using this forum not just for support, but as a sort of journal on my progress. I have really forgotten who I was pre alcohol, which is a good 10 years now.
Hope you all are well
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