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[Snapdragon]

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Hi LG - just wanted to add that you didn't post a ridiculous thread! It is a very honest thread and one which I'm sure goes through all of our minds. Talking and sharing helps everyone - so thank you and keep posting! :thanks:

[one2many]

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LibraryGirl;1280192 wrote: I feel better today. Just. 21 days today. Tomorrow will be three weeks.

I guess I need to practice some self-control when it comes to the boards. I post these ridiculous threads, negating every thing I've said in other threads. It makes me look stupid. I'm sorry.

Roll on WEEKEND.:yougo:

It is not a ridiculous thread but a VERY important one I think, it is a question we have all asked ourselves MORE than once. Thats what this place is for, you explain how we feel, ask questions and get advice.

Don't EVER stop asking for advice!

Well Done on your 21 days..only 9 more to the BIG 30!!!

[resrchqueen]

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Definitely don't feel stupid sharing your thoughts....it's natural to contradict oneself the human brain is always analyzing and weighing things out. You have gotten some terrific advice in the process!

[K9Lover]

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It was NOT a ridiculous thread and you do NOT look stupid! You brought up a question that a lot of people have. Who knows how many people read this thread and got some strength out of it? You ask what you need, say what you need to say, and we'll be here to help you along!
K9

[CollieMom]

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LG - NO way are you ridiculous! And I don't think self-control (about posting) comes into it here. Isn't this a place to explore the brand-new territory we are entering? To reach out for a guide or a guidepost? Plus, thoughts uttered (online, on paper, vocally) become thoughts that can be figured out, dealt with, etc....

And for the record - I'm pretty much totally with you - on 'missing' the idea of alcohol. Oh Wait!! There's a dawning! I don't miss AL....I miss 'the idea'.....the ritual...the looking forward to at the end of a busy or tiring or good or boring or restless or bitchy...well, just about ANY day. The first drink. Part of the second.......And then.

... And then. The enjoyment is gone. But the compulsion is now in charge. The glass is refilled. The little voice (bullied to the back of the brain by the AL) is saying 'why? you don't WANT it? why?" And of course, by the next morning, the little voice has regained its strength and now is berating you - and the guilt and remorse are foremost. What a merry go round we are on....Just think how hard it is to disembark from a moving merry go-round!

Good luck (to you and to me). Stay strong.

[LibraryGirl]

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Thanks Lovies.:l Guess what? Duhhhhhhhhh, it IS three weeks today. Hahahahahaha! 21 days = 3 weeks, LOL.:H:H:H:H

One more week till 30 days and my big ass STAR. Don't forget about me Nelz.

[1problemdrinker]

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Library girl

I so understand what you are feeling. You said what I always feel when I believe I need to quit. I admire those who have wine with dinner my problem is that wine with dinner is usually not enough. I then want to come home and open another bottle. I struggle with the notion that I can change this behavior as well, knowing that it highly unlikely. Since I started drinking 20 plus years ago I always drank different then my friends. Always wanting more. I have quit and started many times, always with the plan to moderate. Within a few times I was back to my old habits of being the one who is always shit faced. So this is it for me. I have decided to quit for 3 months and begin using the MWO program that I bought almost 2 years ago. I am going to begin the hypnosis cds and the herbs but not take the topamax. I then plan to limit myself to three glasses of wine for three months and if I can't do that I will quit for good. Funny in my heart I know this is a last ditch effort that will most likely fail but because I have the cd's and herbs I thought I would give it one last GO. Although I believe like someone else said that modding is a myth... I hope you find your peace with this, and that we can check in on eachothers progress. I am 11 days Alcohol free and actually feel good about it. No cravings and happy to be sober for now. Thanks for your post.

[K9Lover]

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LG - You silly girl...way to go on 3 weeks!!!! Only one week to go until you get the COVETED Nelzie Star!!! (I don't think I've ever gotten one of those...ahem, Nelz?) LOL
Maybe I haven't earned it yet! I'll be patient.

Welcome 1Problemdrinker! We are glad to have you here! Congratulations on your 11 days. Please stick close and let us know how you are doing!

[LibraryGirl]

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Give that girl a STAR!!! You have earned it too, K9! If I were you, I'd insist.

Welcome 1problemdrinker.:welcome: Now that I've gone 21 days, I have been looking back and thinking, I really wasn't that bad. I didn't hide AL in secret places, or wake up and take a drink. I didn't drink and drive (anymore), etc. All I did was drink a gallon of liquor every 3 days, and pass out drunk most nights, but that's normal, right?:H

Oh the tricks the AL brain loves to play.

[choice]

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really happy you got through a rough spot! posting is the best way to get support so post away!! Yay! onwards and upwards 3 weeks is great!!

[K9Lover]

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Every time I relapsed I slowly but surely slunk away from these boards (prior to drinking)...so you just stick tight and stay close! I have to be here everyday...it keeps me focused and encouraged. And you never know what words you might say that will help someone that's lurking.

[LibraryGirl]

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Thanks K9.:l You've been instrumental in this process for me. Everyone here has been a godsend, and I mean that with all my heart.:h

Colliemom, your post was insightful and touching to me. It's always nice to know that everyone here UNDERSTANDS.

[LibraryGirl]

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shueaddict;1280180 wrote: Oh, honey ... it does feel like shit ! it's like the untimely end of a love affair...

When I broke up with Mr. Sauvignon Blanc the first time I was in bits. I missed him daily. And all the while knowing how desperately he wanted me back too.

He promised me bliss and happines but ended up giving me only grief and depression. Once I saw what a liar he was we were through ...

I FLOVE this, Shue!!! Could not have said it better!

[YouKayBee]

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'Normal' people often can't drive at weekends, or have hangovers. Other normal people don't drink at all - met two people this week who simply do not drink, because they don't like it. It's not part of their lives and they aren't bothered.

[K9Lover]

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LG - I'm stalking you around the boards today :sofa:

I loved Shue's post too...it's so true! Mr. Bud Light stole from me, lied to me and physically abused me. He didn't believe me at first when I said it was over, but I kicked him to the curb and I won't ever take him back! I am not playin'!!!