I've recently read (or actually listened to on tape) the book "Sober for Good" by Anne Fletcher. It recounts how many people have overcome their alcohol addiction. In almost all cases, the "masters" as the author calls them, have decided that what alcohol has done for/to them has been a nightmare. Most reached a point where it just wasn't worth it anymore. Instead of feeling sorry for themselves for not being able to drink like "normal" people, they concentrate on how much better life is outside the bottle.
So that's what I'm trying now. Whenever I feel like taking that first sip of wine, I remember the morning after shame, regret and self-loathing. The sh*tty feeling, headache, fear of what I was doing to my health. The heart palpitations, memory loss. I don't want to live my life like that anymore. That is not the way I want to see myself or to have others see me.
Sorry. I didn't mean for this to go on so long. I'm still so early into this new feeling that I fear it may leave me. I don't want to go back. I have read much encouraging news on these posts and feel this is the right place for me to be now. Thanks for reading.
Peace, Diane
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