Just starting out

[Ezra Pound Dog]

Just starting out

I just started last week taking Naltrexone and Ive been doing really well and feeling great except last night I went back to the g and t and feel pretty glum this morning, and now just realised I used to feel like this every morning. It begins another sort of determination. Is there anyone that can give me their experience on this drug? In Oz I can only get a two months prescription, are most people living on the drug? which ever you have available or chosen for abstinance? and how are your drinking friends and family handling, I live with a partner who drinks so I will always have the gin around, though I ve done some things to keep the temptaion away. Its usually by boredom or anger that keeps niggling at me. i know I'll slip up now and then at the beginning but feed back would be good
thanks
Ezra or Yank in Oz

[Accountable for Me]

Just starting out

Slip ups are normal. You discover who you are and what you need to do in order to modify what will work for you. We are here with you. Welcome to this wonderful place!!!

[just h]

Just starting out

Hello JimJam and Stillcrawling.........

:welcome: . I'm glad you to have found this place. I am new here also. I have been here for about a month. Like you JimJam I feel lonely a lot. I have moved so much since 2001 it would make your head spin. Hubby and I work retail and Hubby is in Management. So, he has left many companies looking for one that he can move up in. He wants to make sure he can always take care of me and and future kids or kid. Since this last move I feel really isolated. It takes me ages to make friends. I don't trust. Funny I trust people here more than the ones I work with. Maybe it's because others are honest on here. We have to be. Or it would make this forum a joke I think? Also here there is no fear of being told you are just the scum of the earth so you can tell your story because we all get it in some way or another. If we weren't in a hole with our stuggle we wouldn't be here looking for support. So I applaud anyone who comes here to seek advice and suppport and just some hope. So, keep reading and posting. It helps. I'm a binger and I haven't been able to stop my once a week or twice aweek binges for some time now. I knew it was an issue when I could stop thinking about my next binge and when I started hiding the amount I was drinking and hiding bottles in order to hide the amount I drink. Huggs to you and keep coming back. Sorry I am a rambling mood tonight.:h

[Ezra Pound Dog]

Just starting out

7000 miles away

Hello Jim jam Hey Im 7000 miles away in australia now here for my third year, I have moved alot. It used to take me two years to begin a life that had its own momentum, this time it took me about three, and it has always been work mates that I connect with and some of them have carried onto life long friends, when I was in LA and not connecting with many people just working like crazy, I started to volunteer for Habitat for humanity and met some really amazing people. again Im still in contact with them. I have discovered SKYPE.com the free telephone over the internet so I can speak to my family every week and to other friends.
Ive really enjoyed being sober for a week with one nights slip up, yesterday was AF again and I feel great this morning. I seem to have an almost euphoria when I have no alcohol in my system. does this wear off?
Ive been seeing a therapist who will be hypnotising me this week, her suggestion was to plan ahead. When you diet you have to plan all your meals and snacks to pay attention to what you are eating. So it seems to make sense to me to plan ahead for the times I usually drink. It means focusing on myself rather than others ( which is so much easier to do)
I have this thing about not calling myself an alcoholic because of the stigma. when I was a kid I had cocain once and loved it so much I knew I couldn't play with it so I never did it again, does that mean Im a former addict? perminantly? I gave up sucking my thumb at the age of 5, so I guess im still a thumb sucker? I gave up three packs a day, so I guess im still a smoker? what i do have is a tendency towards obsessive compulcive, all or nothing. so this is just another thing I know I can't do. I do have the family traits that make drink more pleasurable but hey I have lots of other family traits as well, good and bad. I really like thinking of myself as a non drinker. I like the feeling of saying , nope, thankyou I don't drink, and always bringing my own drink.
I'll have my ups and downs but I will never be a lost cause.
I have a sisiter ten years older than me who refuses to see her drinking problem and now has lost so much bone mass she is on a walker at age 60, she has lost all the teeth in her head and she has confabulation, she was the brightest and most beautiful of all the children and now she is just angry and secretive. I can feel my anger draining away every af day I have, how lucky is that? Im fiftythree and walking and laughing my eyes are brighter my hands are not shaking, my inner thoughts today actually make me giggle and laugh( last week I was continually depressed and have been for the last three years) i thought it was because of my husband and my situation but it was me i have to be happy in myself and he can just orbit around me how ever he needs. He drinks and smokes and eats too much and doesn't excercise, but I cannot make hime do anything about it Ive shosen to live with him and hes a good man so I am learning to live my own life slightly separate from his,
Oh what a blab I ened up on, but hopw this rings some bells in someones head.
Ezra Pound dog

[betty boop]

Just starting out

Hi Earlgrey & :welcome: to you too ...

Good to have you around ...

[bellaboo]

Just starting out

jimjam i know just how you fell i too live 3000 miles away from all my f&f don't work and don't really kmow anyone here would you like to take one on one

[sammys]

Just starting out

No giving up when you have all of us. I am new and have learned so much here and post quite a bit to. I has changed my life drastically.

Sammys

[bellaboo]

Just starting out

jimjam i'm in the same positionas your in f&f thousands of miles awayi don't work no friend here not reallywould you like too talk off line

[bellaboo]

Just starting out

jimjam i'm in the same position ]as your in f&f thousands of miles awayi don't work no friend here not reallywould you like too talk off line

[Accountable for Me]

Just starting out

Bellaboo, I know you must feel completely alone! This website is really great for connecting with people who share simular experiences etc.... I would suggest taking advantage of all that is available for you here. I have learned so much about being an alcoholic and it is truly awesome to connect with others.

Have you read the book yet? I am not one to solicit sales, but maybe if you do have some time on your hands, reading something like this might get you going?

We will be here for you, and wil try to help you as much as possible!

[bellaboo]

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i'm new also and live thousands of miles away from my f&f i don't work or know any people here so i was finding confort in my bottle my best friend so i hope to find some friends here

[newdawn]

Just starting out

Hi all! :new:

Well im new here, today is the first day in a long time where im going to be AF - and i will do it! the 1/2 bottle of wine in the fridge can call me all it likes, im not going to let this rule my life anymore! I know its going to be hard, and im going to probably fall off the track every now and then but I finally feel i have the energy to attempt it. Ive been waking up each day for so long now saying "today is the day Im gonna stop drinking" but alas, i find some excuse to decide "just one last time...". Well, I came over this site by complete accident this morning, and im sooo glad i did!! Ive spent most of the day reading some of the threads and feeling so positive from hearing all your stories. I find it amazing how much support you give each other. I hope you can give me that support too!

Loved the swimming pool analogy. Never has something hit the nail on the head quite like it. Without knowing it, you have all helped me get my arse into gear and believe in myself. Thank you and best wishes to everyone.

Newdawn xx

[irishlady]

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Hello newdawn and :welcome: ,

I wrote the Swimming Pool and I'm glad you liked it... Yes, you are right about this site, it is a very special place, but please don't expect miracles... whatever you hope and wish for will happen, but it does take hard work and patience so please keep reading and posting, all the help you need is here and its up to you to use it...Heres wishing you luck, oh nearly forgot, if I were you I wouldn't keep that half bottle of wine in the fridge, go now and pour it down the sink then you really will making a new begining....

Take care,

Louise xx

[bellaboo]

Just starting out

jimjam hang in there i'm in the boat as you thousands of miles from f&f don't work and find comfort in a bottle very new to this sight sounds like a gift from above nice to meet you i'm bellaboo

[newdawn]

Just starting out

Thanks Louise,

I will take your advise and pour it away right now!! I know its going to be hard. Today is probably going to be the easiest because i have the drive and energy but man i know most days are going to be a real struggle. Dont get me wrong, today isnt easy as pie but i know its going to get harder. Today has gone on forever and i know i wont sleep tonight because i drink to help me sleep...I made a list of all the pro's and con's this morning though, of stopping drinking and the couple of cons i had turned into pro's anyway so i had no excuse but to take the first step! I am so glad i have found this site. Im going it alone, no pills or outside help. just hoping my drive and determination will get me there. One tiny step at a time though...

Thanks for your kind words :happyheart: