I am having a difficult time

[caithness]

I so badly want to drink...I threw out all of my liquor two days ago, my husband bought more yesterday and it is so tempting. I don't know why he won't support me in my sobriety. :upset:

[red67]

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Good for you on throwing the AL out. As for your husband, maybe he doesnt understand it is a problem for you or maybe he is afraid for you to change. Either way, you have to be strong for yourself. This is a personal battle and whether we have support at home or not, it is still our own struggle.

Could you go for a walk, call a friend, go to an AA meeting. Anything to distract you for the moment. I found that reading and posting here helped me thru my weaker moments when i first started. There is a Newbies thread here that would be very helpful. There is also a tool box. I dont know how to post links but i guarantee someone who does will be along shortly.

Welcome and hope to see more of you here.:welcome:

Lori

[greeneyes]

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Caithness, first of all, congratulations on the steps you've taken to reclaim your life. You'll be so glad! Remember this is YOUR life and this is about YOU. Support would be nice, but we don't always get it. I won't even try to guess about your husband because in the end, his reasons don't matter. All that matters is that you stay on track. Take a look at some stories, visit the tool box. https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html This won't be the only temptation you confront. But each one that you rise above gives you strength to meet the next. Stay focused on your goal!

Hey red! great minds, eh?

[jenniech]

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I am sitting here at work, getting lots done and all of a sudden i have this tremendous URGE to go out and get some wine on the way home. It is only day 3 for me. I have been to 2 AA meetings - yesterday and today......but the urge hits anyway but I am determined to power through it........I can relate. You are not alone!! Let's do it together!!!!!!!!!
I will just read lots of posts and will not even LOOK in the direction of the liquor store on my way home....

[Wagoneer]

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jenniech;1287501 wrote: I am sitting here at work, getting lots done and all of a sudden i have this tremendous URGE to go out and get some wine on the way home. It is only day 3 for me. I have been to 2 AA meetings - yesterday and today......but the urge hits anyway but I am determined to power through it........I can relate. You are not alone!! Let's do it together!!!!!!!!!
I will just read lots of posts and will not even LOOK in the direction of the liquor store on my way home....

I can relate. I was sober 11 months and started drinking (not binging, but drinking nonetheless) for no reason. I am back on day one today. It has been a struggle for me this time and I want to smack myself for starting again. STUPD! I hear you about wanting to stop after work. It is habit I tell ya! I don't have cravings physically, but my brain is like : "Oh one won't hurt" YES IT WILL. Just drive on by. That is what I plan on doing. NOTHING TO SEE HERE...lol

I wish everyone the best of luck with this damn beast.

[jenniech]

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something i got from the AA meeting today: one of the benefits of AA and this site: we can all admit that we NEED each other. I am an extremely independent person who does everything on my own and only asks for help if I really can't do it alone. My drinking has taught me that i CANT quit alone. I need the support of others.

What great freedom to admit I truly need others to help me succeed in sobriety. So, thanks for posting and keep them coming!!!!!

[scottish lass]

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Is it the moon? - I am posting from work, something I rarely do, as I also really want to stop on my way home - today is 10 days, and double digits at last - why would I ruin that? I have to get gas (or I will never get home :H) so looking for support to get home without a lovely bottle of wine - and yup, I know there is no such thing as after it is down my throat it turns into a monster! And tomorrow I will hate it and myself - so we will not do it tonight, will we gang??? Anyone got chocolate??

[greeneyes]

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OK, BEFORE YOU LEAVE WORK,,,,,, drink a bunch of water and eat something. A pack of crackers, candybar, whatever but really, do this before getting in the car. And drive a different route to avoid passing a booze store. Your alkie brain is trying to sabatoge you. Get past it! It's only a thought and if you act on it, yes tomorrow you will hate yourself. You don't deserve that. Be good to yourself!

[K9Lover]

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Lassie -
Do you REALLY have to get gas or can you make it home just ONE more time? I ask because here you can buy beer at the gas station and I wouldn't risk it. I'd rather get gas in the morning because I'd never buy beer in the morning (that would make me an alkie...lol). Now I don't want you having to push your car or anything...but can you skip the gas and go straight, and I MEAN STRAIGHT, home??? Get your gas in the morning. No stops, no side trips, no looking left or right (well ok look, but don't stop anywhere)!!
:h:h:h

P.S. There is no such thing as a "lovely bottle of wine"....ALCOHOL IS UGLY.

[Wagoneer]

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I took Kudzo and a big bottle of water about a half hour before I left work. Didn't have any cravings but had to pee like a racehorse by the time my hour and a half commute was over. Came home and made dinner and poured myself a big glass of seltzer with ice, fresh lemon and a straw. And I barely thought about AL at all. Hung out with the girls and helped with homework and am going to help with their Spanish. Looking forward to a nice sleep. I am thankful that I have this fresh start and I hope we can all stay on the right path. I don't ever want to falter again. Even though the amount of AL I was drinking after my 11 months was minimal, I cannot believe how hard it has been to get that right mindset back. I can't imagine having to start over again. It freaks me out just to think about it. Anyway, hope everyone has a nice night (I think most of you are probably sleeping by now...only 7:54 pm here in Philly) so nighty night all!!!

[greeneyes]

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:goodjob: waggy!

[merry]

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hang in there you can do it
day 12 for me and I also had bottle of wine given to me but it's still in the cupboard

[jenniech]

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I made it past the witching hour!!!! Pushed an urge I got at work right out of the way and went home. my sister was visiting my mom (lives next door to me) so I went to say hello and they were BOTh drinking white wine....my drink of choice...but i was armed and ready with seltzer and cranberry. My sister asked me what I was drinking and I told her and she said, are you trying to lose weight? I said YES (that is true too)....so I made it.....it wasn't easy but I did it......I hope you all made it too.

Just remember to arm yourself before you get into a situation. Plan ahead and work it.
Thanks for listening and I HOPE everyone has a nice blissful AF sleep.:thanks:

[scottish lass]

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Yay Jennie - I did it too, home and doors bolted - I will be so happy with me in the morning.
Merry - consider getting rid of the wine, I had a bottle too, and in a bleak moment on day 67 I drank it! it was a really good bottle my CEO gave me for Christmas - but I did not enjoy it, and enjoyed it less over the next couple months as I have struggled so hard to get back on track. Others told me to get rid of it on here, but I thought I could do it! I even enjoyed the challenge of being able not to drink it....Give it away Merry!!
Wagooneer - some of us are further West than you, so you can usually find someone up and about - that is one of the joys of this site.
And K9 - yup, I really had to get gas - I did try to see if I could get home, but I think I was running on fumes - eventually had to stop, but I beat the beast!
Thanks all - it helped knowing I would have to fess up here!
Sleep Tight all...

[Nelz]

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greeneyes;1287447 wrote: Caithness, first of all, congratulations on the steps you've taken to reclaim your life. You'll be so glad! Remember this is YOUR life and this is about YOU. Support would be nice, but we don't always get it. I won't even try to guess about your husband because in the end, his reasons don't matter. All that matters is that you stay on track. Take a look at some stories, visit the tool box. https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html This won't be the only temptation you confront. But each one that you rise above gives you strength to meet the next. Stay focused on your goal!




Hey red! great minds, eh?

EXACTLY what I wanted to say......well done Greeny