I'm On Day 2 Once again..........
H,
As with anything, especially this fight with alcohol, giving up is the only real failure. Everyone here is in total understanding of the ups and downs and the daily fight. We are all with you and giving you all our support. I am here today able to say I'm on day 10AF, to me it is a miracle, and I know I would not be there except for this site and all the folks here.
I too find the hardest time to resist drinking is when some emotional event starts messing with my head, and there never seems to be a shortage of them: anger, hurt, stress, sorrow, depression, jealousy, pity..and I'd head for the bottle to drown them out, then hate myself in the morning...For some reason form reading the book and the posts and all the struggles here of great people, I feel caught up in a great fight to beat alcohol. It's like I hate it for what it has and is doing to all of us... During the last ten days (and I know that not very long, and I could fall at any time) when those emotions make me want a drink, I yell out in my head...You are not going to make me drink alcohol... I down a big glass of water, I get a book and read, I put on a CD I like, I Pray, I read the bible, so far so good...
As for you pain around your adoption, we all can say some things to try and help, but that event is real, and you will have to come to terms with it. I have my turmoil in that of my sons death when he was 21. I can't change it, I miss him, I want him back but I have to go on and do things with my life... It is what it is. Things could be much worse or much better, but they are what they are...I know drinking will not make things better, they make things worse and they make me worse.
We, you and I must focus on where we are today.. what are we going to do for the better...
My prayers and hopes are with you..in spite of the past you are a very special person!
Well I rambling.. God Bless.
H,
As with anything, especially this fight with alcohol, giving up is the only real failure. Everyone here is in total understanding of the ups and downs and the daily fight. We are all with you and giving you all our support. I am here today able to say I'm on day 10AF, to me it is a miracle, and I know I would not be there except for this site and all the folks here.
I too find the hardest time to resist drinking is when some emotional event starts messing with my head, and there never seems to be a shortage of them: anger, hurt, stress, sorrow, depression, jealousy, pity..and I'd head for the bottle to drown them out, then hate myself in the morning...For some reason form reading the book and the posts and all the struggles here of great people, I feel caught up in a great fight to beat alcohol. It's like I hate it for what it has and is doing to all of us... During the last ten days (and I know that not very long, and I could fall at any time) when those emotions make me want a drink, I yell out in my head...You are not going to make me drink alcohol... I down a big glass of water, I get a book and read, I put on a CD I like, I Pray, I read the bible, so far so good...
As for you pain around your adoption, we all can say some things to try and help, but that event is real, and you will have to come to terms with it. I have my turmoil in that of my sons death when he was 21. I can't change it, I miss him, I want him back but I have to go on and do things with my life... It is what it is. Things could be much worse or much better, but they are what they are...I know drinking will not make things better, they make things worse and they make me worse.
We, you and I must focus on where we are today.. what are we going to do for the better...
My prayers and hopes are with you..in spite of the past you are a very special person!
Well I rambling.. God Bless.
Control the Mind
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